ALPHA'S BOY

My Death

UGHHHHH! What was I thinking? Why would I say 'yes? I am pacing back and forth in my room at 50km/hr. My hands are getting wet with each second, and I feel like my heart is in my head and it's having a heart attack.

I hope it won't be as bad as I think. What is the worst thing that can happen?

I sit down on my bed and take a deep breath while looking out from the window. It's almost evening, the sun is setting down, and the whole sky is filled with the most magnificent colours.

I look down at my hands which are so damn wet, I rub them against my jeans. I slowly bring my head down to my hands and place it in between them.

I'm just overreacting. I will be in and out within an hour.

Yes.

I lift my head up which feels so heavy and gently place my hand on the left of my chest and start rubbing it slowly, trying to reassure my heart and mind.

I lay down on my bed to get some sleep but as soon as I close my eyes, I can see that perfectly sculpted face and those gorgeous eyes looking deep into mine, and I slowly begin to drift deep into them. I can’t stop looking at him. He’s so perfectly sculpted like the God had made him with his own very hands but something is scary and devilish about him. Maybe I’m wrong for the beginning it’s the Devil who made him.

Even thought the Aurora around him is so dominating and scary but at the same time I feel safe around him. Those eyes assure me that I’m safe. His eyes are like him, warm and cozy. A place that I have always been looking for..

I begin to drift my eyes down from his eyes to his perfect lips. Those lips, i suddenly fed the need to touch them. Feel them on me.

I slowly move my hands to touch those juicy lips, and as soon as my fingertips make contact with them, my whole body is on fire. My breathing gets heavy and my brain isn’t working anymore. All I can see and feel are those lips. I cannot control it; I move my face close to him inch by inch with hesitation and heavy heart until our lips are just a centimetre away and I stop. I’m so close to them yet far away. I can feel his breath on my face. I can smell and almost taste the cigarettes.

Why did I stop. I need more. I need to feel it. I slowly move my eyes away from his lips to eyes, to make a contact and suddenly he is pressing his lips to mine. FUCKK!! The current is passing through my whole body, and I let out a small moan.

“This is heaven.”

“No babe, I’m yet to take you to heaven.” He winks. And my heart stops right there.

Thud. The door opens, and I suddenly open my eyes With heavy breathing. What the f**k!

My heart is pounding so hard. I feel numb. My whole bed is covered in my sweat.

Ughhh. My head.

I open my eyes once again to look at my sister.

I don't understand. s**t, it a dream. 

I slowly shift in my bed to get back support. I take 5 seconds to realise what just happened.

All this time, my sister is just standing right at the door and looking at me with confusion. As soon as I look at her, the confusion changes into a smile. 

"What?" 

"You tell me"- Zoe

"Umm, noth... nothing happened, why?" Wow. What a remarkable comeback. f*****g even I don't believe myself. And why the f**k am I stammering? 

There is this weird feeling inside my stomach. Is it anger? Rage? Confusion? Love? Embarrassed? Ughh. A thousand emotions are going on inside of me. I don’t know how to explain. 

Guilty and embarrassment are the ones that I'm feeling the most. I feel like a teenager who is caught by his mom while having s*x. Ughhhhh. 

"So why were you moaning ?" - Zoe.

Omg, did she just hear me moan? My little sister hears me moan. Someone just kill me already. 

I can feel my cheeks getting red and hot to the point that I feel the need to place my hands on each side to hide the embarrassment.

Her smile has suddenly turns into a smirk, and that's it. I cannot embarrass myself in front of her cause of that non-functioning psychopath. 

"Were you dreaming about someone special." 

Enough. That's it. I can't. 

I get up from the bed, place my hands on her shoulder, turn her around and slowly start pushing her towards the very door that she came in from. 

"NO !!!! ZOE!!! It was a f*****g NIGHTMARE about a psychopath who was trying to kill me. So I don't know what you heard, but I was screaming for my life."

By the time I finished the sentence, we have reached the end of the door and my lungs to their capacity. I need air. f**k I didn't even realise I was speaking without breathing. 

She slowly turns around, pushing my hands away and placing her right hand over my right shoulder and leans in with a big smirk. 

"YES, BIG B, you sure were screaming but not for life but pleasure." 

OMG. What? How does she even know so much? Ughhh. I don't want to know, don't what to imagine. 

"Okay, that's it out." I push her out the door and close and lock it immediately. 

I sit down slowly, supporting my back with the door. And look out at the window. It's completely dark. What time is it ??

I run my hand through my messy hair only to realise they are a little wet. I guess it's the sweat from the hot make-out session that I was dreaming about. 

Thinking about it makes me hard. I can feel myself getting hard. I can't believe it just by thinking of him, and I'm hard. God, what if he ever touches me. 

No, no, no!!!!!!! Nooooooooooo!! Hey, get hold of yourself. How can I even think of letting him touch me? It's not right. 

As hard as I'm trying to do without thinking, it's coming rushing back like a flood. f**k I need to j******f. 

I quickly get up from the floor and dive right in my bed. Quickly glance at the door, making sure it's locked. I had enough embarrassment for a lifetime. 

I slowly place myself in a comfortable position. Okay, I'm doing this. I open my jeans and toss them aside at once. I close my eyes, and I can already see Alex with a wide smirk. I don't even have to try to imagine him.

I slowly put my hand on my already hard d**k and press it a little. 

"Ahhhh" s**t.

I place my left hand on my mouth. I am trying not to make any more sounds and slowly rub back and forth, applying a little pressure and massaging it in between. All the muscles are slowly tensing up. I can feel the tip of my d**k starting to bulge. 

Yes. Alex. Ahhhh. I lick my lip, making it wet -'a bitting it a little. 

Slowly I guide my hand towards my balls, making small circles around them. I need more. I need to feel the touch. I remove my underwater, toss it aside, take my entire length in my hand, and start to rub it hard and fast. Ughhh. s**t. This feels so good. My whole body is move along with the movement of my hand. My d**k is rock hard while my balls are juggling up and down. 

Each time my balls hit against the mattress, it sends a small wave of electricity through my body. My whole body is sweating, making my hair stick to my forehead. Faster. Harder. Yess... harder. Harder. 

I keep jerking into what I cannot control anymore, and suddenly, the c*m is all over me. 

Fuck........ 

I just lay there, holding my d**k in my hand. Not daring to move an inch after the amazing shoot of my c*m. Slowly I leave my d**k and place the hand on my stomach to relax. 

This was the best maturation of my life. I can't believe it just by thinking about him. I mean. Ughh.

This guy is the death of me.