[LUCY]
"Eh,gago ka pala! Kaya galit si Miss Jade sa akin because you made it sound, I am third wheel and a relationship wrecker. Makakaalis ka na Mr. Valencia.”
Tumayo ako at hinila ko na si Trent palabas ng pintuan.
"I'm leaving for Spain."
I pretended I didn't care. But the truth is I felt suddenly sad—a sharp pain strike through inside me.
"It might take a while before I return."
"So?"
“Hindi mo ba ako ma-miss?”
"Miss? Joker ka rin pala, Mr. Valencia."
Ilang oras pa nga lang ang lumilipas. Miss agad? Masyadong GGSS. Pero, bakit may kirot akong nararamdaman? I could have tell him I will miss him. But too bad, I am not a desperate type of girl na maghahabol kapag iniyawan na.I wasn’t technically rejected. But that’s what Trent made me feel otherwise.
"Mukha ba akong nagbibiro?"
"Tsk! Why? Tayo ba?"
"Kung papayag ka."
Ang kapal ng lalaking ‘to. Porque! Ugh! Yes, guwapo siya. Malakas ang karisma at s**t! Oo, dalang-dala ako sa syeteng simpling ngiti niya. At letseng mga titig niya.
"You're delusional," I said, pushing him out through the door." Maybe I'll change my mind when I am no longer your employee. You may leave, Mr. Valencia."
Ramdam ko sa yabag ng kaniyang mga paa na hindi bukal sa loob niya ang lumisan. I watched him as he walked out the door. I stood frozen staring at him sa harap ng pintuan. Para akong tuod na pinanood siyang humakbang palayo when I could have stop him. 'Hear him out,Lucy.' Usig ng aking konsensya.
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It's an illusion that he left me because I found myself pushed at the back of the door cage in between his muscular arms. Hindi ko alam kung paano iyon nangyari. Sa sobrang bilis I can’t say a word. One moment I was pushing him outdoor. And then the other nakakulong na ako sa mga bisig niya.
"I don't take no for an answer, Miss Montero."
"Well then, you gotta learn to accept rejection because I said no. Ayoko. Period."
“Iyan ba talaga ang gusto mo, Lot?”
Natahimik ako dahil hindi iyon ang gusto ko. I like Trent to kiss me. Take me. Claim me. I don't care about being a virgin before marriage as long as it is him. I want Trent to be my first. I don't want to regret not giving us a chance.
"Is that your final answer, Miss Montero?"
Malumanay na tanong niya ngunit hindi pa rin ako sumagot.
"Lucette, sumagot ka!"
Sa lakas ng boses niya nanginig ako sa takot. I never expect he can be a beast when he gets provoked.
“I-I’m sorry,” he said, habang ginagap ng kaniyang labi ang mga labi ko. But I moved my face away from him.Iniwas ko ang sarili ko sa pagkakamaling handa ko nga bang harapin? Handa na nga ba ako? Handa ba akong tanggapin siya sa buhay ko at isuko ang sarili ko sa lalaking hindi ko naman kilala? I started to tremble. My heart racing to its utmost speed. My chest thuddering like crazy. Bigla na lamang akong nahirapan huminga. Para akong kandilang nauupos sa panghihina bigla ng aking kalamnan.
“Ano bang kailangan kong gawin mapa-amo ka lang,Lucette?”
Sinambit niya na yata lahat ng pangalan ko maliban sa ‘Lucy’. Mahirap bang sambitin o bigkasin ang Lucy? I managed to pull myself together, fidgety, I said,"T-tell me. Paano nga ba,Mr. Valencia?”
I asked him back habang nakatitig ang mga mata ko sa mga mata niya.
"Trent. Please, call me, Trent."
Nagulat ako sa biglang pagdampi ng mga palad niya sa aking mukha. He pulled my chin up, and then he cupped my face with his hands. He pressed his lips against mine hungrily. Passionately. Sensually. I felt heat rose through my body. Ang bawat galaw ng labi niya sa labi ko sends shivers from my mouth down to my core.
"Wait for me. We'll talk about us after my trip."
Para akong ginayuma because I nodded after he said those words.
"I have to go. Please, kiss me goodbye."
Wala sa sariling tinugon ko ang kaniyang kahilingan. I tiptoed, wrapping my arms around his neck and kissed him. He kissed me back, then I pulled away.
"Goodnight, Lucette."
I thought that was it, but he kissed me one more time, and it was deep and sensual. Then he let me go. Opening the door, he walked out. Ngunit hinabol ko siya.
I held his arms tightly and said, "Stay."
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko sinabi iyon. “Please, stay . . . with me. Tonight,” I pleaded, biting my lower lip,”Trent.”
He turned around and embraced me. I felt his lips touch the top of my head. Then he planted a kiss on my hair to my forehead, down the tip of my nose to my lips. Then, he traced soft kisses on my jawline to my neck and my shoulders.
"Are you safe?"
"Mmmm," I replied with a soft moan." Does it matter?"
Lucette! Ang landi-landi mo. Yes, I am flirting and I think its working. Honestly, I don't know who I am at the moment. I can't imagine myself flirting and making out sa lalaking kagabi lang ay sinumpa kong ayaw ko ng makasama. But yet, here I am. Making out with him.
"Are you sure about this, Lucette?"
"Lucy, Trent. Lucy."
"You're a seductress Lucy," he muttered by my ears. Then he nibbled one and the other, "You are driving me crazy."
"Take me."
"Lucy, my dear," he said in between his kisses," I-I don't make love."
"You don't make. . ." I said laughing. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi niya. Parausan niya lang ba si Jade? Ngumiti ako ng nakakainsulto," then, what do you do?”
"You'll see . . ."
He pulled the strap of my lingerie down with his mouth. Naglakbay ang kaniyang mga kamay sa aking katawan. Stopping on my breast. Makatapos ay bigla niya na lamang akong marubdob na hinalikan. His right hand busy kneading my breast and the left squeezed my butt cheeks.
Then he stopped, staring at me,panting, "I f*ck."
"F*ck?" Sagot kong patanong. It's my first time hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.
"Yes, baby. Hard. . . rough. . . and," he said staring at me with that smile na gumugulo sa aking sistema,"wild."
Hindi ko alam kung matatawa na ako o matatakot. Tama ba ito? His kisses is like food. Nakakaadik. Matamis. Nakakatakam. Lango sa sensasyon na ‘di ko mapaliwanag. All I have in my
mind. I want Trent to want me. To claim me and mark him his.
"Okay," I agreed, panting, gasping for air." I like it hard, rough," I said, giggling. His kisses are too ticklish on my neck," and wild."
Hindi lang siguro magasawang sampal ang ibibigay sa akin ni Daddy kung malaman niyang basta ko nalamang sinuko ang Bataan sa boss ko na isang araw ko pa lamang nakikilala. Malamang itakwil niya na ako ng tuluyan. Ngunit hindi mapipigilan ang salikbo ng damdamin sa tukso. I know within this lust there is love. My heart tells me I’ve known Trent before. Pakiramdam ko kilala siya ng puso ko pati na rin ang katawan kong traydor at ang utak kong salawahan.
Then, I felt my body float in the air. Trent lifted me up like he did the last time pinning me to the wall. Kusang pumulupot ang aking mga binti sa kaniyang balakang. Then he pulled the other straps down exposing my brazen breast to his lustful eyes. Nakita ko ang makailang ulit niyang paglunok.'Oh,God! His sexy adams apple turns me on.'
"You're so beautiful, Lucy."
"I know," I replied with confidence teasingly, pulling him closer to me. His hand stopped caressing my exposed valley, and then his mouth got busy suckling them, nibbling them. It gives me this electrifying tingling sensation that I can't explain. It felt good. Real good. Yes, he's indeed wild. Then he spanks my left butt cheeks and squeezes the other. I couldn't stop myself. I moaned loudly, "Aahhh. s**t!"
Naramdaman ko na lang naglalakad na siya towards my bed still carrying me. Then he laid me down. He was ripping my lingerie in half.
"Hey! It's expensive."
"I can buy you more expensive than this."
"You're a beast!"
"Oh, baby, not a beast. I'm a monster in bed. You still want me?" He said, kissing me again.
Then he pulled his shirt off. I tried to help him, but he stopped me. I watched his body flexed. I think I am literally about to drool at his sexiness. Lucy! Pandesal! Hindi lang anim, walong pandesal. s**t! Pandesal pa lang. My curiosity will kill me for sure. Tinitigan ko ang katawan niya. His sexy body makes me want him more.
"What are you only staring at me? Touch me. I'm all yours, baby."
I didn't think twice. I touched him. Kusang dumampi ang mga kamay ko sa maskulado niyang dibdib at tiyan.
"It's h-hard," I said, giggling biting my lower lip.
"Even harder down. . ." he whispered, then he suckled my breast again.
"Aahhhh."
"You want more?"
"Please."
I touched his abs. Matigas. Matigas parang bakal. Iba naman ang naglaro sa aking isipan. Kasing tigas kaya ng abs niya ang namumukol niyang sandata?
"I want to touch your--"
"Nuh-uh. Off-limits."
"Off-limits?"