The Luna Alpha

CHAPTER SEVEN - THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE

ANDREW

I got out of the car with my usual sullen face. A face most people had come to associate me with. But it wasn’t me. Not really. I rarely spoke to my brothers anymore. Rarely to anyone. Except Derek and Lucian. But Derek was on thin ice for following along with Aaron’s pranks. And of course I was on thin ice with Lucian.

We said nothing as we ascended the stairs. I pretended to still be angry with Parker. But of course I was angry. With my brothers. With myself.

I would always be angry with myself. The things I’d said to Parker. The things I’d done to him with Aaron. The things I’d done on my own that only Parker and I knew about.

If only he’d known why. If only I could apologize and he’d forgive me. But that would never happen. Aaron and Axel had no right to treat him this way. But who was I to talk? I smirked, I laughed, I sneered and I let Aaron do everything he wanted to my sweet Parker. Just to keep him away from me.

I thought being mean to him would make him avoid us. And it seemed to work the first few months of high school. After that he was never in the lunch room and hasn’t been since. I’m so thankful because it would have been torture every day.

But that plan backfired didn’t it? Aaron sought him out, didn’t he? And I found myself just wanting to be near him. Just wanting to look at him. Even if it was to intimidate him.

If ever the moon Goddess has a punishment for terrible creatures she would use the worst one for me. What Axel did tonight was terrible but he’ll never understand what I did. Neither of them will and they’ll never know. Only he will. And he’ll never forgive me, I know that for sure. I may not have physically hurt him or even humiliated him in front of other people. But I hurt him. More than once. On purpose. I’m not fit to be an Alpha.

As I walked up to my room, these thoughts pressed on my mind as they do every night. I shut myself off in my room and think of my precious Parker. My ex-friend. The one person I wish I could talk to about these things. He’s so beautiful, so sweet, so kind.

And I have to pretend to hate him to keep him away from me. To keep from touching him. I know if I ever did I couldn’t let go.

If I didn’t know he hated me, I’d go up to him now and kiss him. I would think of rejecting my Luna and that’s unheard of. I’m an Alpha and I’m supposed to want my mate. I’m supposed to have a female mate. I’m supposed to have heirs. That’s what my father has always taught us. But …there is still the cabin. Yes, just in case. NO! Stop that. That’s never gonna happen.

It’s late now. I’ve been sitting in this corner too long. Has it been an hour? Two? I can’t bring myself to climb into bed. Maybe I should just go there no matter what they say. Just take him down. But what excuse would I have? It was too harsh a punishment? No, they would expect me to be even more harsh than Axel. I have played my role well. Except there’s no reason for me to hate him.

Maybe it’s better if I reject my Luna and flee from this pack. I’m not fit to run it nor do I want to run it with the kind of brothers that hate such a wonderful person as Parker. But I suppose I can’t fault them too much. They think I hate him too. Maybe if I had tried to persuade them to be nice to him it wouldn’t be like this.

But what would I say? Hey guys, I’m completely in love with Parker so leave him alone? I would have been laughed out of my family and father would have disowned me. No, it’s better this way. Even though this sucks.

Just one year and we’ll find our mate. Maybe she’ll make me fall out of love with him. They say mates can do that. Even if you’re dating someone whom you love, once you feel the mate bond, nothing else matters. My mother always said you won’t understand it until you feel it. Well, if a mate bond is stronger than what I feel right now for Parker, maybe I can get over him.

AARON’S POV

“What?” I asked Axel as I opened my bedroom door. Apparently he’d been speaking to me. Andrew already had his door shut.

“I just said we need to go get him before dawn. I don’t want anyone …seeing what … what I did.”

“OK sure. As early as you want.” I gave him one of my fake mischievous smiles. Did he know? Did any of them? Did he know that I had become just a shell of myself? I nodded my head and entered my room. My soulless, empty, silent room. A room I imagined tickling Parker in every night or just playing video games.

I would ask him about his life and school and everything. I would hold him and kiss him and tell him …how I feel about him. But instead I lay on the floor just like every night and talked to the moon Goddess.

When I put him up on the pole I felt his arm. That made me feel calmer. I always felt calmer when I was near him. When I picked him up or held his hand to drag him somewhere. It was glorious. And I was gonna take every chance I got. He was mine. And yet he wasn’t. Never could be. I was a trash human being and he was perfect. Besides that he was male and I was an Alpha.

My brothers and I would be mated to the same person since we were identical triplets. Most of the time fraternal siblings would be mated to different people. But my brothers' and my soul came from the same egg and it was split in three different parts. Therefore technically our soul mate would have one complete soul mate in us. Which made me sad.

How could I share a shewolf with my brothers? They had become cold and soulless over the years. Axel had started not liking my Parker in 9th grade and Andrew seemed to follow suit.

Since we couldn’t be friends with him anyway it seemed like the only way to talk to him or get near him without being suspicious was to tease him.

Then came the pranks. I got to talk about him and be near him without it seeming that I cared for him. But that wasn’t enough. I had to be near him on a daily basis.

I had to touch him. So bullying him was next. Giving him noogies, making him do jumping jacks, dragging him everywhere just to hold his hand or arm. It was the only thing I could think of to keep him close. I’d become addicted to his touch, his smell, his blushing.

But soon it wouldn’t matter. We would have our mate next year. She would make me forget him. How? I don’t know. I thought about him cold and alone on that flagpole. I wanted to run to him and take him down gently and apologize and hold him close. But I would never get to do that. I would have a Luna and heirs and a family and a pack with my stupid brothers.

One day I would go to him and beg for forgiveness. What’s funny is I think he would actually forgive me cause that’s the kind of person he is. I don’t deserve it though. Selene will have a special place in Hades for me when my life was over.