An Elementals choice

Chapter 14 Out

“I don’t know where to start. So much has been happening. Well, the ancient gods are based on elementals and the Fay. It’s all real, well sort of, it’s complicated. I don’t know everything as it’s all new to me. I made contact with Thor a day or so ago and things have been changing for me really fast.” I try to explain to Cody. Cody stays quiet letting me talk. “I can hear them in my mind when then choose to talk to me, but I have to talk out load to communicate with them. I can feel their presentence, they can touch me, but I can’t touch them. Normally a human wouldn’t be able to do this. They talk to humans inside a humans dreams when they want to communicate with humans, well that’s the normal practice. I’ve been told that I might have Fay blood as my new abilities are called fey abilities. My fey abilities have just started. When I got angry before I was just as surprised as you were when I started sparking up.”

              “Is that why you came here? Because you wanted my help?” Cody asked. I take a deep breath he is not going to like this. “I had to leave. Mums’ new boyfriend is a real creep” I hesitate before continuing “he broke the laptop you gave me last week and then the other night after work I caught him watching me shower.” “WHAT! I’ll kill him!” exclaimed Cody. I reach out to him “don’t Cody I got away before he could do anything to me” I plead with him “I promise. He ever touched me. I promise”. Cody looked furious “and mum, let me guess she didn’t believe you, and let the piece of scum stay.” I nod “and when I went to the bank the next day, I found that she had stolen nearly all of my saving. Luckily, a kind old man gave me some money so I could buy a bus ticket here. Since then, I have been relying on strangers for food and help. But I found you. And if it wasn’t for Thor’s help we wouldn’t have found each other today.” “I am so sorry this all happened to you Leizi. I should have been there for you. I should have tried harder to remain in contact. But…” Cody had tears flowing down his face. “I know. It’s not your fault. I know how bad mother is. I don’t blame you for anything you have always done everything you could for me” I honestly tell him.            

              “Um Cody when were you dating Jake? And why didn’t you tell me? Cause I get the feeling that you were with him when we were still in contact with each other” I ask him trying not to cry myself. “Oh boy, Jake. He was my first real boyfriend. It was near the end of senior year. I was so confused. My dad. OH boy, dad was so mad when he found out. He sent me to counselling” Cody uses quotation marks with his hands for the word counselling “it was run through the church. They tried to make me feel like there was something wrong with me. That I was a victim of popular and social media. That I was brainwashed into believing that I was gay. That it’s not natural. I was sent to support groups where they tried to pray the gay away.” I stayed silent and let him speak, as tears started to run down my face, I reached out my hand to him which he took in his own. “Anyway, it was a really hard time. Jakes family on the other hand were incredibly supportive of both of us. They even tried to talk to dad. They tried to explain to him that there was nothing wrong with me. But dad, you know what he’s like. He is so pig headed which was great for getting me away from mother but now it just gets in the way. I ended up having to leave and ended up in a group home for LBGQ plus kids whose parents kicked them out.” Cody went quiet like he was remembering and reliving all the pain again. “Why didn’t you tell me. Did you really think that I would judge you too? It hurts that you didn’t tell me. That you never trusted me. I could have been there for you” I say to him, I couldn’t hide the pain in my voice.

              “I couldn’t lose you too, Leizi. I just couldn’t” pleaded Cody. “Ok. It’s your life and your choice and I have to respect that. But Cody understand that you not trusting me, that hurts. You are the one person in this world that I know I can trust above all others, and I thought that I was that for you too” I look at Cody, we are both lost in our own pain. The realisation that time and distance have taken there toll on our relationship hurts so much. “Know that I am there for you. The knowledge that you are bisexual doesn’t change anything for me. You are still my big bro. I still love you” I tell him with conviction “I hope that you can accept me being fey. And I know it’s a lot to ask but please don’t tell anyone about me until I am ready to have others know.” Cody crawled closer to me and hugged me. We stayed like that for a bit before he let me go. “I love you too my busy Leizi. And your truth is for you to tell people in your own time. But promise me please be careful. These new powers of yours seem dangerous I am scared for you”. I hug him again “Promise”.   

              I smile up at Cody “So tell me about Cassy. Your really happy with her right?”. Cody grins “she’s the best. Speaking of which we should go out there before she starts to get too worried. She will try checking on us soon with the excuse of bringing us something to eat or drink.” “So, she’s a keeper?” I tease. A soft knock can be heard on the bedroom door “Um, do you guys want something to drink? I can make something if you like? It doesn’t seem like the power is coming on again anytime soon” calls out Cassy. Cody and I look at each other and start to giggle. We get up and Cody goes to his cupboard and grabs down a sleeping bag and on old tee-shirt and hands them to me as he calls out “it’s ok Cassy we’re all good in here. You can come in if you like.” With that Cassy slowly opens the door and comes in. “I am really sorry about Astra. Leizi I really am. She’s not always like that, I promise” Cassy tells me. “Cassy, you don’t need to apologize. Astra is the one who needs to apologize to both Cody and I. I think your wrong about her really, I do. But right now, I am too tied so I am going to bed” and with that I headed to the couch to set up my bed.  

              As I put the tee over my head Keith approaches me “Leizi” Keith calls quietly. “Please Keith don’t. I don’t want to hear you making excuses for Astra. What she has done today is unforgiveable. And being pregnant is no excuse for being a mega b***h.  I know she is carrying your child, so you feel obligated to her, but I have no such obligation. I will not forgive her. I know exactly the type of toxic person she is, and I pity you” I sigh. “Where’s Jet?” I say everything as calmly as I could. “I understand where you’re coming from but for the sake of peace could you try for a clean start tomorrow? Just give her a chance to make things right that’s all I’m asking. And I think Jet went to bed once the power went off. “And with that we said goodnight to each other. I laid out the sleeping bag on the couch, turning to Jet’s closed bedroom door.

 “Perun it’s been a really long night already, but do you think I should speak to Jet as well.” Leizi I am so sorry for everything you have been through. I am starting to get an idea of your life. Your life has not been an easy one, has it? I try to hold back tears as I answer “no it has not. It has been a life spent alone, isolated, with hardships unending. The only consents in my life were that I knew I could always rely on Cody to be there for me to support me and…” I paused, should I? Dam it, withholding the truth can be as bad as a lie, that I have learnt tonight if nothing else. “I really wish I could see your face right now cause I don’t know how you will take this. The other consent in my life is you.” What do you mean by that? “I have seen you in the clouds for years, my lord, my Prince of Storms” That’s … it’s … not possible. “But it’s true” I say continuing “I well let you think on that, goodnight my lord” “My Lady, your friend is crying in his room” said the say male voice from earlier. “Thankyou” I say to the room and go to Jet’s door and knock quietly.

“Jet, are you still awake?” I enquire. I hear a mumbled voice from within. “I’m coming in Jet so you better be decent or cover yourself quickly” I warn. Jet is lying on his bed face down with a pillow over his face. “Come now Jet, did the big old storm scare you? Do you need me to hold your hand, so you feel safe?” I tease. There were more mumbles from Jet. I go over to him a lay down beside him on the bed so our heads are at the same level as I try to pull back his pillow so I can hear him better. “Jet what’s wrong talk to me, please?” I beg. “I thought you were cool. But you turned your back on Cody just like … just like his dad. I can’t believe you hate gays as well” Jet whispers out in half sobs. “Jet, I have ever said anything bad about gay people ever. I love my brother no matter what and accept him for who he is.” I firmly inform Jet. “But?” Jet stammers. “But nothing! I ran to the room before I totally lost my s**t and did something I couldn’t take back. I am no baby killer, but if I gave that b***h what she deserved I would be” I stare Jet down. Jet looks at me curling his bottom lip and sucking on it. “Poor puppy, did you think I would reject you cause your gay” I reach out and pat his head which is all prickly. Jet nods his head in a yes. “My poor puppy” I say again while trying to sooth Jet. How many people have rejected this sweet boy because of his s****l preference? People can be such beasts. Jet reached out for my other hand and squeezed it. And we both fell asleep like that.