Suddenly, Luna

Chapter 11 - Fight the faith

Grace POV

We ended up sitting on a couch again, so close, we were almost cuddling. I was drawing imaginary circles on his palm, thinking what I should ask next. One question answered, ten more popped up. How do I go on from tonight? At the same time, I feel lost and like I’ve finally found home. The feeling of home is mostly related to the man sitting next me. We’ve been quiet for awhile now and he keeps looking at me like his whole world begins and ends with me. The scariest thing is that I believe he can see the same look on my face. This mate thing we’ve been talking about must be real. This feeling between us isn’t just attraction; it’s so much more. I can even find the words to describe it. The things Logan said about the Goddess bringing two souls together in a form of mates, really makes sense because that’s exactly what I've been feeling ever since I’ve met him - I feel complete for the first time in my life.

Is it just him, or I’ve been feeling deep inside that something important was missing from my life? That I’ve been missing a large part of my identity?

My thoughts have drifted towards Prophecy once again and I’ve tried to direct them to safer territory. I couldn't’  deal with that tonight. 

So here I am, thinking about this mate thing all over again. Is he going to kiss me tonight? How is it going to feel? Are his lips gentle? Rough? How will his stubble feel on my skin? 

“You’re blushing again.” he interrupted my thoughts. 

On his remark, I’ve blushed even more.

“Penny for your thoughts” he whispered and touched my lips again. My whole body trembled. 

“You’ve been mentioning marking tonight. What does it mean?”

In a dim light I saw his pupils dilate turning his eyes almost black instantly. He licked his lower lip and started to speak roughly: “See..” he touched the base of my neck where it meets the neck “this is the place a mark goes to. It is the most intimate thing that can happen between two wolves. When we make love, we will bite each other on the exact spot and it will leave a permanent mark.” He kept watching me with such a heat in his eyes that my whole body shivered. I could feel heath pooling between my legs. I’ve never thought desire could be so strong, so overwhelming.  “That way, everyone will know you are mine, and I am yours. Each and every wolf will know you’re taken and if anyone tries to touch you, well, that will probably be that last thing that he’s ever done in his life!” he took a few deep breaths, as if he was trying to get a hold of himself. “After we do it, our bond will become even stronger. We will be able to read each other's emotions, read each other's thoughts and we’ll be able to mind link each other at any time.”

“So, it’s like signing a marriage certificate but on steroids and instead of signing anything, will have  a lot of wild s*x?” I asked with a raised eyebrow. 

He started to laugh and said;: “You can put it that way.. “

LOGAN POV

I need to get away from her. Just for a minute  to collect myself. The smell of her arousal is making both of me and Kor insane. He’s been howling for the past 20 minutes. I stood up abruptly, and she flinched: “Is everything ok?”

I nodded and said: “s**t, no, it’s not. I can’t and I will not lie to you. Not tonight, not ever.”

Fear showed on her face so I touched her gently. I smiled and said: “Nothing to worry, baby. It’s just, I can smell you. Smell your arousal. And to be honest, it makes me a bit crazy. Deepening your breath right now isn’t helping!” She blushed again. Soft pink traveled from her cheeks to her  neck. I wondered how low does the blush reach. “Anyway, we’ve just met, it’s been a rough day for both of us, you especially, so nothing’s gonna happen. So’ I'll just go and wash my face with cold water. Be back in a sec, ok?”  

She nodded, I kissed her forehead gently, and left for the bathroom. When I came back, she was still on the couch. When I was about to sit next to her, she started talking:

“From all that you’ve said, I really don’t have a choice in all of this”

“What do you mean?”

“This mate thing, it’s a done deal, I don’t have a choice? I just have to do as it’s said, ``Follow the fate?”

Sickening pain struck my body, it almost brought me to my knees. 

“No, no, no. She cannot reject us” Kor whined painfully. We’ve been waiting for her for too long!”

“W- what do you mean?” I asked slowly. 

“I just want to know if I have a right to say anything about this? You’ve been talking about us as if it’s a done deal, so I just want to know I have a right to decide what I want, or you, Goddess or whoever has done it for me.” 

“So, y- you, you don’t want me?” another wave of pain surged through my body. f**k, she’s going to reject me. I need a run. I need air. 

She opened her mouth to say something, but I’ve stopped her: “It’s been a long day. Go to sleep, get some rest.” 

She tried to interrupt me but I’ve continued: “You know where the bedroom is. I’ll  go for the run, and when I come back, I’ll stay on the couch, ok?”

“Please, just..” she tried once again. 

“Shhhh. Go, get some rest, I’ll explain how you can reject me in the morning. I really need some air now.” With nothing else to do; I’ve kissed her forehead, maybe for the last time, end went for a run.