The Forgotten Luna

Chapter5

Laura.

Saskia looked straight into my eyes. The way she looks at me, she doesn’t want to throw away the answer right away. I know she wants to check on me. That’s what she always does whenever I come to her.

I could see she felt sorry for me and the sympathy she was showing me made me feel a bit pitiful.

And I don’t like it. The last thing I want is to pity myself.

“It’s painful, right? Some werewolves who got rejected wanted to end their lives because of so much pain and suffering. I witnessed a lot of that. They were really heartbroken.”

“Oh?” I frowned and secretly checked on myself. “Aren’t you just exaggerating things? I don’t feel that bad. I felt so down and all, but I am not a suicidal case just like what you mentioned.”

“Really?” Saskia inched forward and pointed to my chest, to the center. “Does it hurt here?”

“A bit,” I shrugged. “At first it’s really painful, but not the pain that I would want to end my life. I actually wanted to change my fate. Why would I end my life then?”

“Well, that was one of the two ways.”

My eyes widened in shock. I turned to her to have a better view of her face and her reaction.

“Are you serious?!” I exclaimed.

“Absolutely,” she answered nonchalantly.

“Then how can I change my fate if I am going to take my life?”

“You’ll be reborn. And time knows when. Maybe after a hundred years or two.”

I fell into deep thinking. I already have an awesome set of parents and I love them so much. If I am going to be reborn, I want them to be my parents again. But the guardians and salutary of our pack warned my Mom that she was not able to conceive a pup after giving birth to me. I don’t really know the details, but that’s the summary. That’s also the reason why they were too protective of me. I am their first and last pup. And if I am going to die, I don’t know how Mom and Dad will accept it. And I am certain, they will never be my parents in my next life. I don’t want that to happen!

“You said you knew two ways, right? What is the other one?” I eagerly asked Saskia.

Saskia gave me a lasting gaze. I seized up her gaze. She gave up and sighed.

“Messing with time.”

“Huh?”

“That’s the second way to change your fate. You have to mess up with time.”

“You can go back to the past and figure out what went wrong. Why can't you shift? Or you can go forward to the future and see what happens to you so you can avoid misfortunes and change your future,” Saskia continued to explain.

I ran out of words even though I had a lot of questions inside my head. I knew Saskia wouldn’t suggest it if she didn’t know how. But… am I ready to mess with time? What if things don't go as I planned?

Ah!

Too many negative thoughts. I should not think that way, right? If I really wanted to change my fate, I should take all the chances that come my way.

Yeah! That’s it. I must grab every opportunity that comes! And this is the opportunity that Saskia laid in front of me. All I need to know is what the consequences are. So I can plan ahead.

I faced Saskia. “How am I going to do that? Am I really able to travel through time?” Finally, I asked.

“I won’t tell you that if it’s not possible.”

My heart steadied with relief.

Well, she’s right. Why would I ask such an obvious question though?

“Then how?” I curiously asked. I even leaned forward, making sure I would be able to hear every single word she said. I don’t want to miss anything, even the way she breathed.

“I can make a portal, back and forth. You must decide what time you want to go. Is it in the past or in the future? I can only make one. We must wait a hundred years to make another portal.”

Too risky, isn’t it?

I sighed.

I must pick one.

The future or the past?

If I choose the future, can I really change my fate? I am already eighteen and still not shifting. I am certain I can no longer shift. Even half-blood werewolves shifted at eighteen and that’s definitely the very late time when one will turn into a wolf.

Now that I didn’t shift, I can no longer shift at all. What else should I change in my future? This is the end of my battle. I’m sure I am still an Omega in the future.

But if I choose the past, I can figure out when things went wrong and why I can’t shift. Maybe something wrong happened while Mom was pregnant with me. What if her blood was contaminated with something while she was pregnant? Or maybe an eclipse happened at their mating time. Or if it was mating season, maybe they had taken the wrong position.

Should I ask them what position they took when they were trying to conceive me?

Argh! That’s crazy! I am crazy!

That’s embarrassing to ask!

I saw Saskia holding back her laughter beside me.

Gosh! Did she also read my mind?

Ugh! Certainly.

I can feel my cheeks burning in embarrassment. I just don’t know what to think anymore.

But, back to the main problem. If I went back to the past, I would have all the time in the world to follow them, right?

I am going to approach Alpha Evo to include me in his pack, so it will be easy to linger around Mom and Dad. I will ask Saskia to take me back to the time when Dad and Mom were trying to conceive a baby. From what I know, they were eighteen back then when they found each other. I can act like a friend to Mom and give her tips.

Darn!

Tips my ass!

What the hell do I know?

I didn’t even know how they were doing it. I don’t even know how it feels being kissed.

But I must do it no matter what it takes.

I must decide now. I must choose to travel on time.

But before I could breathe a word, Saskia intervened.