"But what's there for you to clear?"
"I lied to you. And to everyone else. You don't annoy me or irritate me. And I certainly don't hate you. I might have, for a little while in the beginning. But that was a way to distract myself from what I really feel. I made you and everyone else believe that I despise you because it was a form of punishment for me. I wanted to punish myself for how I felt even after everything.
But it was so hard not being able to call you up when I wanted to complain or vent. Or when I couldn't sleep. Or when I had a really bad day and I just needed to talk to a friend who'd understand.
Seeing you make amends with Sophie made me wish that we did the same. It hurt-" she got clogged up with tears and her lips trembled. She looked down, placing a hand over her lips
