THE MYSTERIOUS LOVE

#2

“Oh, man! Serendipity!” I recited seeing outside and rejoicing in nature.

Everything outside was looking so scenic from the window. Such a fulgent night it was. The colors of the night sky were enough to carry me over. The cold breeze was flying past me, the air brought a smile to my face, and silence in the night was bliss to my ears. Also, the breath of fresh air brought a certain sense of serenity to me.

The night was perfect for a street walk amidst wonderful weather.

The street was all empty. Only a few windows had light coming out from there. Not a single person was there on the road. Cars were all alone on the road with dust.

"Ah! How can someone miss such a night meant only to admire? Nevertheless, their loss. Just look at the bright white moon. It is shining so brightly.

The white and blue waves around were like a ray of hope coming from the demurge. Every reflection coming on my face of the moon was making me flow.

In the blackness of the sky, the stars were shining, they were bringing innumerable lights to my life. The more the blackness in the sky, the stars were held longer. The lights were singing in patterns, and creating beautiful songs. The purity of blackness in the sky was nothing less than comfort. It was the clear blackness of the sky which was making the sky look so serene and the moon so beautiful. The darker and denser the light was getting, the sweeter the song was becoming. It seemed like the sky was married to the stars. My heart was following the rhythm of the sky.

The night was like a reward that brought calmness to my soul, my heart was protected and my soul was tranquil.

Boom, boom, and boom.

“Buzz, buzz, buzz.”

There was a sound coming from somewhere which had left me disheartened. I was not at all in a mood to move away from there. I wanted to stay there for a long time.

The sound which caught my ears was known to me. As it was the sound coming from my door itself.

Alas! Why will it not be known to me? It was only a knock on my door. Shh! I was so busy admiring nature that I could not hear the sound.

“Well, it is too late. Who is there now?” I asked, heading towards the entrance of my gate.

"No one will come except him at this time. How can I be so stupid? Yes, he is only there. Why man?" I shouted to myself in anger.

Hell, Simon!

"I do not get why. What does he get by coming here? I do not have any problem with him. But nowadays his behavior is becoming so weird. I need to figure out things." I muttered to myself.

Simon, heck! I hated him, man. I swear I would have ended up killing him today. I just did not want to leave the place and go. But I had to do so. What could I even do? This is why I hate him.

After all, there is a word called personal space. He needed to know that.

Oh, God!

The doors were wide open already. There he was. I was right. It was only Simon.

Yes, of course. No one would come at that time to rob my house. Yeah, nobody. He had the master key. He had just opened the door.

"If you were to open the door, then why did you knock? Why did you waste my time? You could have entered like that only. Are you mad? Just insane, that is too the next level." I questioned him about entering the house.

And guess what, to my surprise, he was not there inside.

"By the way, where are you?" Yet again I asked but got no reply.

"Let me find him. Is he sleeping or doing something inside? I hope he does not take anything and run away." I prayed before god.

“Well, let me search for him,” I said in anger.

"What on Earth are people doing? Just look at me, I have to search for such a grown-up adult, that is only in my house." I put forth my anger. But he was not there to listen to it.

What is this? Why have the lights gone off now? They generally do not go now. And where is he? Is he not at all making any noise or saying anything?

“Simon, where are you? What are you doing? What are you up to?” I yelled.

Yet, again. Why is he not saying anything?

“Simon, Simon, and Simon, dude please utter.” I shouted again.

Well, let me enter my room. He might be there inside sleeping. He must have drunk a lot. And is fast asleep.

“Oh, man. What is this? Simon, are you serious? What have you done to the room?” I asked very shockingly.

I cannot breathe, there are breathing changes. This pain in my chest will make me die. Look at my goosebumps.

Time seems to slow down. I just cannot believe this, Simon.

My heartbeat is increasing; you have left me utterly shocked. I just cannot move on. I am just petrified by this action of yours.

“Speak man, why are you so numb? What are you up to? I should be the one doing so. Why you?”

“Ahh!”

“Stacy, I know you are shocked. But I want to borrow a few minutes of yours from you.”

Further, he goes on to say without even paying heed to me:

“I cannot wait anymore. I have waited for a long time. Now I cannot. If I wait anymore, it will be too much and too late. Stacy, I have waited for this day for months. But finally, I am here. I do not know how to send hints. I cannot do that. So, I will say everything which I want to exude.”

In his bold voice and with tears in his eyes, he expressed himself in one go. “You are the reason why I smile. The day I saw you, I never thought you were going to be so close to my heart. I want you to be the reason behind my beautiful future ahead. With you in my future, my days will be bright like the sun. There will be rays of happiness in my life. I would be the happiest soul alive if I got to lie beside you every day. I know you deserve every single thing. And I will do anything to make you feel happy. I promise I will do anything for you. If I fail, I will accept all the punishments which you will give. You are the woman of my dreams. I just cannot imagine my life without you.”

After saying this, he keeps his head down and sweats like anything. Trying to find words to say to me, he held himself high. Staring at me, he added on further. “I love you, Stacy. I love you to the moon and back. I adore you for what you are. I will love you in the future for what you are. You are my bestie. Now I want you to be my other half. You are the whole universe to me. I want you for a lifetime.

My nerves were all high listening to him. I was quite elevated and baffled. I just could not take that. I do not know what to say to him. All I knew was I did not love him. How could I reciprocate his feelings? I just considered him a friend. Nothing more than that. But I did not know how to explain that to him.

Before I could make him understand things, he came before me.

“Damn, please forgive me. I know I have crossed my limits. But Stacy, please say something, I just cannot take your silence. Please exude. Your silence will kill me. I want to hear you.” He said to me in a low voice, making me melt a bit.

Immediately after saying that, he started to have quick and uneasy breathing, leaving me startled.

His arms and legs were no longer in position. He started to look around. He looked around without any focus. He was quite anxious, dreaded, and excited all at once. His palms were getting sweaty, his heart rate was increasing, and his stomach was quite fluttery nervous.

He sat down and choked. And said, “I will paralyze myself by overthinking. I was completely unprepared. I am terrified that my ideas will not be welcomed by you."

“Stacy, darling, please say something.” He asked me.

Seeing him in that way, I was way more terrified. What to say I did not know. I could just tell him the reality. If I had said anything to him, he would not have been able to take anything. His condition was not good.

My heart was in my mouth. I knew my words might harm him, so I opted not to say anything to him.

Right now, I need to think about him first and then think about something else. He needs all my attention. I just cannot be selfish. After all, he is my friend. My best friend.

Soon Simon’s eyebrows get pulled up and together. His upper eyelids were pulled up, and his lower eyelids were tensed and drawn up as well. His teeth were exposed, and his mouth was drawn back and stretched at the same time.

His lips trembled and his eyes were watery. Tears welled up in his eyes. A single tear came rolling down his eyes. Tears streamed down his face like an ocean flowing. He could feel his throat closing up.

“Oh, man.”

He was all angst.

How many shocks did he want to give me? I would have ended up grumbling. I did not dare to break his heart.

I was already shocked and nervous before, but seeing him in that condition I needed to be judicious enough. I could see the pain in his eyes. The fear of rejection was clearly visible. He was deeply sorrowed from inside. I could feel his intense distress.

His fingers were hurting still. I massaged them gently.

I curled his fingers unknowingly to make him feel at ease. He was all stuttered. I just could not ignore the pain.

"Simon, you sit down here first. Forget everything. And have this glass of water. " I said to him, holding his hand.

Soon, I sat beside him and gave him my back.

"Breathe in and out. Cool down, everything is okay. Your feelings make sense. Just relax enough. That is what it is. Accept the way you are. Do not worry. I am not at all judging you. I am okay. Look at me, Simon. Believe me, everything is fine.” I made him feel comfortable by saying this to him.

He was not in his control. Without even taking time, he went on to carry forward.

“I am sorry, Stacy. I know how much importance I hold in your life. I know you do not love me as I do. I know it is not right. But I could not help myself. I know we are good friends and we will always be. And that is why I always say we are not right for each other as a soulmate. Even though I love you, I am not at all guilty of accepting this. What is it? I know you do not dare to break my heart. But I know what your reply is. Well, let me tell you, you did not break my heart. So, yes! Congratulations. I am not shattered. For me, your friendship counts a lot. I know I have screwed up everything. I do not know how to exactly say sorry to you exactly how to do, exactly how to, but I am really sorry. I am sorry if I ended up breaking your heart.” Saying this to me, he cried again.

He apologised to me. I could see the guilt in his eyes. He was all guilty. Before I could say anything, he went on to say further.

“I am so sorry about everything. I never knew things would turn this way. I wish I had control over myself.”

“Well, Simon. Do not cry over spoilt milk. Trust me, everything is okay. Why cry? Why pining over the past? Do not say such things about yourself. You are my friend. I know you very well. You do not need to be sorry. Forget everything. Nothing can come in between our friendship.” I expressed myself.

“Do not be good with me, Stacy. I do not deserve this. I have broken promises. I had forgotten everything. I was supposed to remember our friendship and respect it. But I failed miserably.” He says in guilt to me.

“It is okay, Simon. Trust me.”

Before I could opine further. He says, “Give me punishment. I deserve that. You are the best thing that happened to me. But this does not give me the liberty to marry you. I know you would never have expected this. But trust me, all I want is joy and happiness in your life.”

“I regret whatever I said to you prior. Please omit it. And forget whatever I said to you.

Just remember whatever I am telling you now.” Simon says to me, holding my hands.

“Shut up! And just listen to me. I still consider you my best friend. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. I am glad to have you in my life. You are a blessing in my life. You have always held me at my worst. And I know you will do so in the future. If you are at your worst now, then let me hold you now. You do not need to be sorry for anything. And now just let it be. Just relax.” Saying this to him, I brought a glass of wine for him. Simon shared the glass of wine with me too. We ended up drinking it together.