Scarred and Wanted

CHAPTER 2

I did my best to quiet my breathing when I saw that it was Bianca and her crew who had come in.

“So? Did you and Dante finally make things official?” One of Bianca's friends asked excitedly.

What was her name again? Melody….I couldn’t remember. I had never really taken the time to learn their names in between the attacks on me.

“Of course we did! It was amazing! I mean I knew he wasn’t a virgin but that extra experience made it worth it!” Bianca gushed.

“So you told him it was your first time? How did he take that?” one of the other girls asked.

“Hell no! I didn’t want him to be all weird about it, so I didn't say anything.” Bianca admitted.

“Well now that he has had a taste of you he is going to be all over you to do it again.” Yet another girl added.

“So? I am happy to do anything for him, he just has to ask. I don’t want to be one of his throws. I want him to always come running back to me no matter who he has been with.” Bianca said.

“Well make sure you are worth his effort. That means we need to go shopping!” The first girl said excitedly. “Some sexy lingerie!”

“Yes absolutely! After school, yeah? You will have him drooling!” And with that they pranced out of the bathroom leaving me alone finally.

Bianca was a virgin? And she didn’t tell Dante? Why would she lie about such a thing? She had thrown away such a special thing for a jerk like Dante who happily hooked up with other girls right in front of her.

I shook my head and opened the door giving myself another quick look just in time for the first bell to ring. I ran from the bathroom and headed to my first class with barely a minute to spare. When I looked around I found that all the seats were taken except for one in the back right in the middle of The Reapers group.

Great.

I slowly walked toward the seat with my head lowered, but I caught the smirks the boys gave me. I just had to get through this day.

“Hey Dolly! Save you a seat, unless you rather sit on this throne.” Jace says hunting out his hips with a laugh that made my insides knot in the worst way.

“This seat is fine, thank you.” I say softly and sit in the vacant seat without another word.

The teacher walked in just before one of the others could get another word in, and finally, their attention drifted from me. Class went by without any interaction from the boys other than a few smirks and looks. I had no idea why these guys focused on me at all because compared to Bianca and the others I was nothing special. I wasn’t allowed to even try to look pretty, but maybe that’s why they enjoyed teasing me so much because I am so plain.

My wavy brown hair is almost getting to my waist and I have constant pink blush on my cheeks anytime I step outside. My skin is very light tan and I have a curvy figure plus big boobs which doesn't make me fit into whatsoever people were doing.

I was plus size and people were not attracted to plus sized women . Even with my diet being heavily monitored to be sure I was appealing for whatever purpose my father had for me. I still haven't lost weight.. I have some sort of disease PCOS( Poly cystic ovarian syndrome).

The doctors say I won't be able to give birth because the disease affects my ovulation cycle . Even after the doctor suggested I work out to reduce my weight so that my cycle can pick up , my father refused, he prefers me all curvy and big .

And he doesn't have to use protection on me , but he makes sure the other men that sleep with me use it.

Bianca wasn't the only one who lost her virginity recently but at least she cared about the boy who did it . My first time would never be a precious memory for me , it caused me to wake up screaming and crying since that day .

When class ended I gathered my things quickly and dashed for the door. I finally took the opportunity to unload some of my stuff into my locker. The door slammed suddenly just barely missing my fingers and I gasped and stumbled back, my heart pounding and my eyes wide.

"Dolly" . Noah said with a smile as he made his way towards me ,as he moved closer to me I took a step back and he sighed. “Stop walking away from me Dolly".

I gulped and stopped in my tracks "Good girl, now let's get

to class.” He said, wrapping an arm around my shoulder and leading me to the next class which I guess we had together.

He led me to a seat and gave the guy in the seat beside me a look causing the guy to scurry away. He took the newly vacated seat with a triumphant smile. Soon Dante walked in with Bianca draped all over him and he took the seat on the opposite side of me. He didn’t say a word to me but I could feel his intense stare on me, even though Bianca was turned toward him from the seat in front of him, going on and on about something I cared nothing about. Something was different from how the boys usually treated me, but I was confused about why. They often played tricks on me, sometimes to an unbearable limit. Now they were going out of their way to be near me, and acting almost…possessive. What game were they playing?

When the class ended and I made my way to the cafeteria, I felt the tug of someone following me. Noah and Jace tailed me toward the lunch line as I picked out an apple and milk.

"Do you ever stop eating Dolly?"Jace asks me “Or are you one of those girls that don't care about their weight?". "Do try to workout sometimes, being this chubby won't help you".

He racked his eyes down my body and shook his head in disapproval. “You have the figure to be a model but you are far too short to have a career like that, either way try to work out ".

I don’t say a word and turn my attention back to the line.

“She is far too ugly to model anyway. Look at her, she doesn’t even wear any makeup which just makes it worse. It's pathetic.” Bianca says slamming into my shoulder and moving to stand in line in front of me.

Again I said nothing and I kept my head low.

“Shut up Bianca.” Jace snaps out. “You don’t have a chance either so just keep your mouth shut if you know what’s good for you!”

I swallowed and dared to steal a glance at them. Bianca's mouth was agape, and she turned to Dante and pouted."Baby, are you going to let him talk to me like that?"

Dante shrugged and walked away with Bianca trailing behind him and whining.

“God I hate that girl. Her voice is like nails against a chalkboard. I feel bad for Dante.” I hear Noah say with a groan.

Finally I made it to the end of the line and pulled out my money to pay for my two items, but Jace swooped in thrusting a few bills to the lunch lady. I looked at him with confusion

"What?" "You don't like it when a guy pays for your food"? Isn't that what girls fuss over all the time? You know, it's the gentlemanly thing to do and all" . Jace said with a cocky grin

"Why are you doing this?" I asked , my voice just above a whisper

He looked at me with furrowed brows. “What exactly am I doing?”

"I don't know... following me around ,buying my lunch…what do you want from me?" I asked him.

He smiled. Maybe I want a favour from you

I sigh. “What do you want?”

He tapped his chin and pretended to consider his options. "How about I just hold on to the favor for now".

I nodded and turned to walk away only for Jace and Noah to each grab one of my elbows and lead me to their table.

“W-what are you doing?” I asked frantically trying to pull away from them.

"You are sitting with us today"

"Hey you! Move over.” Jace yelled at one of the girls sitting at the table.

She quickly moved and Jace sat me in her spot

“Is this the favor?” I asked him loud enough that only he could hear.

He leaned close to me . " When I ask for my favor you will be doing more than sitting next to me for lunch ."

I gulped and fell silent, setting my hands in my lap and keeping my head low. I didn't even touch my food because I was too nervous. It felt like The Reapers were setting me up for something and my mind was panicking as the theories of what it could be ran through my head. I could feel Bianca shooting daggers at me with her eyes, so I didn’t say a word or move at all as the others laughed and joked around me. I didn’t belong here and as soon as the bell rang I grabbed my food and rushed away.

I could hear Bianca and her friends laughing and saying things about me making the others at the table laugh as well, but I didn’t stick around to hear a word. I didn’t stop when I heard someone calling out after me. All I did was run and pushed out the side doors and made my way toward the football field and leaned against a wall hidden under the bleachers.

"What are they planning? Why won't they just do it?" I thought to myself.

When I was finally alone I let the tears fall and I slid down the wall until my knees hit my chest and I buried my head in them. My body trembled as I let out everything I was feeling. I shouldn’t miss my next class because my dad would be told and he would beat me for it, but I just couldn’t handle this anymore. Why did I keep fighting to live if this was the life I had? I was beaten and r***d and tormented! This was it, I wasn’t doing it anymore.

After a few deep breaths, I let my tears dry and I thought about how to do it. There were so many ways, but I had to be sure it wouldn’t go wrong. Jumping wasn’t guaranteed sometimes, so that was out. Jumping in front of a car could result in a few broken bones but I could still possibly live, so that was out too. I thought hard and paced as I did until it hit me. My dad had a gun in his office. He had threatened me with it before and as far as I saw he didn’t even bother to lock it away, probably because he knew I would never go in there.

But I was desperate and I would be dead so what did it matter if I went in? I could do it right there so he would have to clean up the mess of what he led me to. I was never a spiteful person but something about killing myself in his chair and him finding me and having to deal with the fall out of my death made me smile. I wish I could see his face when he found me and how he planned to explain it away. I had to go now though while he wasn’t home to be sure I couldn’t be stopped. With one last breath to boost my resolve, I stepped out from my hiding place and began walking across the field to the front of the school where my bike was parked.

My mind was focused on one thing so I didn’t care who saw me leaving and I mounted my bike not even feeling bad when I knocked several over.

“Hey Dolly where’s the fire?” Axel’s voice rang out from the direction of the front steps of the school.

I ignored him and turned my bike around and jumped on. There were footsteps coming toward me so I took off as fast as I could. My focus zeroed in with determination and I pumped my legs as fast as I could not even bother to wait for cars to pass. So what if they hit me, I would just get back up and keep going until this was done.

“Dolly!! Hey, slow down girl!” I heard someone yell at me but I didn't turn or slow down.

I heard a string of curses and the sound of brakes as I weaved through a chaotic crosswalk without looking or stopping. When I finally made it home I didn’t even slow down before tumbling off my bike and running to my door.

“Dammit Dolly slow down will you!” Someone yelled from behind me while I fumbled with my keys.

Several foot falls could be heard behind me and someone pulled my arm to make me turn to them. My chest rose and fell as I tried to calm myself.

“What the hell was that? You could have been killed! What is wrong with you?” Dante said, tightening his grip on my arm.

“Let me go!” I growled at him, pulling my arm out of his grip.

With one more try, I got my key inside and I burst through the door and headed straight to my father’s office. I opened several drawers and slammed them back in place in frustration when I couldn't find what I’m looking for.

“Where is it?” I asked desperately under my breath.

Finally, I found it in the last drawer and I stood there looking at it for a few moments before I reached in and wrapped my hand around the cool metal. My heart was pounding as I felt the weight of it in my hands. I slowly pulled it all the way out and kept my eyes locked on it.

"Dolly...Rayna,what are you doing?" Jace asked , I lifted my eyes to him and pointed the gun at the four boys I had grown to hate over the last 3 years .

“Get out!” I screamed holding the gun and pointing it right at them.

I wouldn’t shoot them because I wasn’t a murderer. I didn’t want anyone to get hurt except me.

“Ok Dolly we can talk about this…” Jace said softly, stepping closer to me.

“My name isn’t Dolly !” I screamed at him.

“Sorry. Rayna, just calm down okay?” He said keeping his hands raised and slowly moved closer.

“Get away Jace or I swear I will shoot you. Get the hell out of all of you! You’ve done enough! You all have! Just leave me alone!” I screamed, tightening my eyes.

Shots ring out and I gasped as darkness fell around me.

That darkness wasn't the darkness of peace, it was one that brought back all the memories I had buried deeply.