Alice Cove

CHAPTER NINETEEN

19.

The day went fast, I didn’t see Josh, I didn’t see Brody, I barely even spoke to Candy she was on the phones non stop and I had my head down in my computer replying to emails. We pretty much only looked up if someone was checking in, checking out or had a query.

Not before long it was an hour to go and I had finished all my work, I swung around to see Candy playing candy crush on her computer.

“What are you doing?” I laughed at her.

“Nothing,” she gave me a mischievous look and closed the app down.

I shook my head at her.

“What I’m finished!” She raised her eyebrows.

Darlene had already left the office for the day and we were shutting up.

“You and Dan got plans tonight?” I asked her.

Her cheeks went red, “maybe.”

I laughed, “go.”

“What?” She looked at me confused.

I shrugged, “you got plans, I’ll man the phones and lock up.”

She looked out the window, “I saw Josh’s car has been here all day.”

I rolled my eyes, “don’t make me take it back.”

She put her hands up in defeat, “thank you.”

She closed up all the open windows on her computer.

I knew that Josh was still here, but I wasn’t racing to see him. I knew what would happen. He’d be the sexy and caring cowboy he always was and sweep me off my feet making everything so much harder once again.

Couple minutes later Candy was embracing me in a bear hug and out the door. I sat in silence, just staring at the phone, waiting for it to ring, there was nothing else to do.

I thought about everything. About how and when I was going to break up with Josh. And the doubts I still had. About the future, even though my mind lived so much in the past, I still had a future. What would it be like with each of them?

Josh. Would we get married, with all of our friends there? Then maybe take over the Dawson Farm, have a bunch of babies. Maybe I’d have twins again. Then I would be a stay at home mum, helping out around the house and with the horses, Josh would work out the back on the farm, teaching our kids how to ride horses and do the daily chores. We’d spend weekends having picnics and playing by the lake. We’d grow old together, sitting on the porch in our rocking chairs, watching our kids take over the family business.

Brody. Would we work here side by side together for the rest of our lives? End up like Jesse and Steph, completely in love and happy with the easy beach life we created, maybe move away and find some young people to take over our jobs and let the circle of life begin again, maybe I’d finally be able to go back home and live in the suburbs close to my parents and my mum would have her dream of being able to help with the grandkids.

Which one sounded better? I didn’t know the answer. But I’d be content with either, but also know neither of them would be without their struggles. I had been through so much, but I knew life wouldn’t give me a picture perfect ending like I finally deserved.

I snapped out of my day dream and looked back at the phone, wondering if I was so in depth with my imagination that I missed calls. I hadn’t. But the time was 5.12, I should’ve closed up 12 minutes ago.

Damn my imagination. I switched the phones over and turned off all the lights, and went out to lock the doors behind me.

“I thought maybe you ran away,” I heard Josh walk up behind me as I closed the door.

“I was day dreaming,” I said as I officially locked up.

He chuckled, giving me a kiss, “why am I not surprised?”

I rolled my eyes at him as we started walking back to my van.

He slung an arm over my shoulder as we walked, “did you see Brody at the office at all today?”

My eyes grew large at his name, “no I didn’t actually, why’s that?”

“I don’t know, I tried looking for him today and couldn’t find him. And his trucks gone now.”

Strange, Brody doesn’t usually leave without letting the office know.

“No idea.”

“Hmph,” I could tell Josh was concerned about Brody. And that annoyed me, if only he knew.

“So did you wait for me all day?” I asked, smiling up at Brody.

He beamed down at me, happy that I noticed, “not going to lie, I was knackered and slept past lunch, but yes, I did. I just missed you so much.”

His arm around me tightened.

It wasn’t long and we got back to the van, I opened the annex and threw my stuff onto my bed before grabbing a beer for us both. I grabbed myself a jumper because it was cold and we sat out under the gazebo.

“So what did you get up to while I was gone?” Josh asked.

I shrugged, “not much.”

Lie

“What about you? How was the city?” I asked.

He thought for a moment, “not bad. Got all the business done I needed to. I should’ve brought you with me.”

I smiled.

“Next time?” I wasn’t sure if that was an offer or a statement.

“Sure.”

Another lie.

“So,” I went to change the subject, “you spent all this time here without me, so surely you have plans for dinner tonight?”

His did his half smile, it was so cute, “of course I do.”

“Care to tell me?” I asked, playing into his game.

He shook his head really fast, light in his eyes, he was playful like a child. It made me think of Brody, I hadn’t seen that, he was serious in how he showed his feelings for me. Would I miss the silly side?

“You’ll have to wait and see,” he grinned.

I rolled my eyes at him, “you are too cute.”

“We’ll sort that out in an hour or so anyway,” he said, taking a sip of his beer before putting it on the table.

He then grabbed my chair and pulled it towards his so our knees were touching.

I leant in and gave him a kiss.

“I love you,” he told me.

I smiled, “I love you too.”

Even though I had someone else on my mind as well, it was still easy to be with Josh. And the butterflies had come back.

Did that make me the worst person ever?

After a couple of drinks Josh went inside and gathered what we needed and we headed down to the beach for dinner.

He laid out a blanket for us and then went into the esky he prepared and brought everything out and set it up.

He had made little sandwiches, along with cheeses and meats with some crackers and dip and made us a little picnic along with a couple bottles of Prosecco.

“This is cute,” I mused, grateful he put so much effort in.

“Well I thought I better do something while my sugar momma works,” he joked.

I rolled my eyes at him.

We ate and chatted about our week for a while, laughing and joking, we fell straight back into how we were and it was lovely. I completely forget about everything else.

I didn’t want to let him go.

After it got too dark and we were well and truly sloshed mixing beer and wine we headed back to my place.

As soon as I packed everything away Josh pounced.

Before I had a chance to even turn back to him fully his hands held onto my jaw and he pushed his face into mine, our lips crashed together and I could help but put my tongue out in search for his, they danced together as Josh walked backward towards the bed, he sat down and I sat on his lap as I pushed us closer together, I moved my neck to the other side as I deepened our kiss. I don’t know why, maybe it was the alcohol, or missing him, or my big task to do but I needed him. I needed him so badly.

Josh held onto my hips so tightly that it was painful but I grinded my pelvis against him as I felt him grow stronger beneath me. We didn’t need to say anything, we were both on the same page.

He fought the urge to fall backwards as I leant all my weight into him, ruffling his hair with my roaming hands.

I was growing more and more hungry for him as I pulled his shirt over his head and then my lips were straight back onto his, this time he gave in and fell back so I was completely on him. I sat up just for a moment to take my shirt off and I was back on him, skin to skin. I was in control but I wasn’t stopping.

Josh hastily pulled at his pants trying to get them down while I was still on top of him exploring. As soon as he got his pants off I felt his d**k spring up to attention against my underwear.

I wasted not time and slid my underwear to the side and sat straight back down onto Josh, his member entering me with ease as I was so wet.

“Ah f**k,” Josh moaned, not ready.

But it didn’t take him long to get in motion and he was bouncing me up and down on his with force as we clung to each other. We were both deprived and it didn’t take us like to race to the finish line, a complete dead heat.

I rolled off of Josh, not even getting a chance to clean up as he pulled me up against him and we both passed out from exhaustion.