GOLDEN ART

CHAPTER 2 : PAIN

Pain? Is this how it feels? Is this what Papa meant by you'll lose to gain more . I was hoping not cause it didn't make sense what or who I was getting better than my papa.

I shouldn't have asked for ice cream that night we would have been home, and none of this would have happened. Papa would still be with Mama and I . it's all my fault ,but that not the pain watching my dad get shot infront of me was the actual pain I watched my papa get shot and mama being held down by unknown men I couldn't make out what was being said but I saw mum begging and crying ,dad looked forced to his knees. He wasn't looking at his killer or enemy he was looking at mum but I've never seen this look on his face towards mama I've seen him give Ben(my boyfriend) that look but never my mother.

All I heard papa say was " Let my Angel go she doesn't have to be involved in all this she's still a child" dad said with soo much pain " I did everything you asked ,I worked with you for 17 years I never complained I stayed away from my family , why are you doing this now ?" dad asked the tall Italian looking man he looked really handsome, but why was he treating Papa like this, and what work? was dad in an organisation that's illegal? I thought he was just a poet? Well, none of that mattered now. I just wanted to leave there. My head hurts, and my legs , it was when I realised my pain that I realised we were involved in an accident . I couldn't tell what was actually happening cause I just only regained consciousness. "Papa," I called out "mama?" " What's happening?" I asked in real confusion. " Matilda ,hun could have been my angel, but now you're a dead weight that needs to be executed." I heard the tall looking, handsome Italian man say in a husky, heavily accented coverd tone." Meee!!! dead weight???? " ANTONIO!!" I heard dad growl at him " mind your language that's my daughter you're talking to, Let my baby girl go you can take me but leave Grace here to take care of my girl " dad said both in anger and pain. " Let you go?" said Antonio." I'll be damned if I let Grace have an option anymore, " said the Italian man Antonio.

"Damned?" My father almost spat out. Mum wasn't saying anything she was dead silent. She's scared, I thought . Trembling, she said in a language I didn't know she could speak. "Antonio smettila per favore falla finita io vengo con te." Mum said I didn't know what it meant I didn't want to I just wanted to go home away from this "then I'll finish it off so you'll have noting here" I began to panic finish what finish who I looked over at dad he was tired ,wounded ,pained and disgusted I don't know what really disgusts him but he looked disgusted. 'bang ,bang bang bang' I heard four gun shots I saw my dad get gunned before me , and then I saw the gun pointed at me 'bang' was that to me? I haven't lived enough with dad. I saw it again at me 'bang,' but I didn't feel it. Rather, I felt a body on me. "Dad!!!" I couldn't scream. I couldn't cry. I just passed out.

"Helpppp!!!!!"Please help my Angel please please" "I love you baby no matter how far I'll always be with you. "Everything happens for a reason. I would always be with you. "

After 2 weeks, I woke up. It was hysterical for an hour looking for mum looking for papa.Confused, I was very confused and disturbed. I was sedated after the scene I created. I woke up after a while and just stayed in bed unbothered about everything, I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to die. Why did I survive ?Why did dad protect me? Maybe I would wake up from this dream, and Papa would come get me. A real laugh, this is Papa is gone, mum too. I'm alone.

The doctor came in and asked if I was OK. I nodded and he asked if I wanted to talk which I vigorously shook my head I really didn't want to talk to anyone one especially nor the police I dontvrecall everything that happened but my mum "Dr where is my mum?" it took a lot of pain to talk." Did anyone come visit?" he looked at me with pity I despise that look soo much " Yes your friends I think their names were Samantha and Bridget" he hurriedly walked out avoiding the first question just then I saw two police officers walk in " We have questions for you miss Matilda ,but before that are you OK?" asked the first officer. I nodded in response. I don't know if I was or not, but I nodded away , In a whispered tone, I asked,"Where is my mum?" they exchanged looks and said "she Filled a report against your father saying he kidnapped both of you and was saved by her husband before he could shoot at her. She's no longer in Carlifornia as the experience was too much on her. " What the hell!!!!!!!!!! why? why? why? why!!!!!!!! mum left with that man, and not only that, she covered up his mess!!!!!? I'm her daughter, friend, and child. Why did she leave me? why did she pin the blame on dad? what was his offence he was trying to protect his family with us .What's happening? I said nothing to the officers, and they left. I went outside to feel the fresh air to try to clear my head, I was trying to take all this in trying to embrace the fact that Papa is gone and mum betrayed us . I walked back into the hospital totally absent minded when a nurse approached me "good evening ma'am you're not supposed to be out of bed without supervision " I looked up and gave out a half smile she walked me back to my room . " You would have to sign these papers of death certificate for your dad ma'am. He would cremated when you are discharged, and it's in the hospital. " I looked at the papers, and all I could think of was why!? where did we go wrong? Everything was hoping on well what went wrong and why. it seems I was taking time when she nudged at me. I took the pen from her, looked at the paper, and smiled and signed it. I couldn't help it. I began to cry. I was hurt beyond measure. I was corrupted by the feelings and emotions evolving around me. Where are my friends? Where is Ben? where are they? I need to let it all out vent if possible. I hugged myself to sleep. I couldn't do much but saddle myself to sleep.

Morning came. I was still in bed unbothered ,no will no motivation I just wanted my papa. I heard ruffling feels come into the room. I didn't want to look back. I liked my position. The beautiful fragrance of roses filled my nostrils there he was my perfect boyfriend. I saw a spark of hope in me, he came over and hugged me tightly "I'm sorry I'm late mama, I told the doctor to inform me when you wake up seems he forgot " he smiled sheepishly I liked that about him he's like a big baby my big baby. We talked for a while, and he laid next to me on the little hospital bed. I was about to sleep off when his phone rang quite loudly 'Bridget' the phone rang out he excused himself to take the call. I didn't think much of it, tho when he rushed back in and said something urgent came up and he had to leave.

Alone with my thoughts again, I just laid in bed waiting for myself to be carried into the void. The smell of chocolates dairy to be precise and soy sauce. I woke up and saw my pretty friends, my little bundle of happy moments. Samantha and Bridget they looked pretty. "Mat, we're so sorry about your dad. Are you good, hunny?" that was all I needed to hear to finally have my melt down I just kept screaming and crying Bridget cried along she's a real softie this one I couldn't keep it in in-between my sobs I said "how can I be fine papa is gone and mum! she just left without a proper word or--rrr

I sniffed in a whole lot of air I needed to breathe.

After crying for an hour thirty mins they made me laugh Samantha was filling me up on the latest town gossip Bridget I noticed kept fidgeting I asked if she was good and she beamed brightly and nodded her head ,beautiful Bridget is just too pretty. It was getting late when we heard a knock on the door. Samantha and Bridgets parents had come to get them. They rushed in and hugged me so tightly and started apologising for not coming when I woke up. I'm just so happy that I have them. At least I won't have to feel overly lonely, I thought. "Mr and Mrs Carter I understand thank you for always checking up on me with your busy schedule and Mrs Carter thank you for always cleaning me up and washing my hair" Mr Carter was dad's friend and Lawyer Mrs Carter and mum weren't always on good terms I never knew why but she never treated me otherwise " Matilda you dad left a will for you. You can start school whenever as he had made down payments for your college, I would also be assigning his guard to you and a butler " I just nodded I couldn't say much just the mention of dad makes me break. It was time for them to leave. Mrs Carter gave me an earful of what to eat , whom to talk to and whom not to she was very precise about eating as I looked too pale. She did her signature goodbye by showering me with lots of kisses ?❤️. My friends left with their parents. I was left with a phone this time around.

I hope I can leave this place. I would love to put my dad to rest now.