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If I did something in the past to not deserve the happiness I wanted, then I would be really unfortunate. All I could remember was making other people happy but myself. I could not think of any reason to deserve what was happening to me. My life did not have any direction, but becoming a mother taught me how to sacrifice for the sake of my family. But now I am scared. Afraid to reach my limits. Give up because I have given my all. Every day I wake up pushing myself to do more. It felt like I had been in this battle by myself like I was going to lose my mind. But who’s going to keep this family together if I leave? Who would take care of the twins the way I take care of them? We were breaking apart and the biggest enemy was ourselves.
It happened six months ago after the twins’ doctor’
