The Real Us (A world of werewolves series)

Chapter 17: Painful truths

The pack had cleaned up the mess back at that awful place and cheered when we got back to the pack house and told them the news.

Everyone was cheering and drinking in the evening with our victory, and after I had eaten some of the party food-yes, there was party food-Jason led me back into his bedroom.

I noticed that some of Claire’s clothes were still on the floor, including her underwear and tried to shake off the strong emotions it filled me with.

I was about to question him about it, but he stopped me with a kiss.

Claire had already found herself another mate and seemed to have forgotten all about her love for Jason just hours earlier. I was happy with that, and she was happy to tell me all about Jason and how rough he was in the bedroom with her.

“He would pin me down to the bed and kiss me all over, sometimes he would force my legs open and lick me there before forcing his c**k deep inside me. Oh Josie, he was a proper animal, f*****g me hard and covering my mouth if I tried to suggest something else. It was amazing, the best s*x I’ve ever had, you have got to try it.” She had said to me just before we ended up in his room.

Jason was nothing but gentle and tender with me as he kissed me gently down my neck and ran his hands up and down my thighs, each time getting closer toward my aching centre.

I shivered with desire when he finally undressed me and lay me back on to the bed. He gently squeezed my breasts sucking and kissing my n*****s until they were hard and aroused.

He was teasingly slow through all of this and as his tongue found its way between my thighs, I almost cried when he finally stopped circling the edges of my wet p***y with his tongue and kissed my clit, licking it over and over.

He finally pushed himself into me slowly and teasingly pushing in deep and moving out again, so slow I was almost begging him to be rough while he grinned cheekily at me and carried on as he was.

I couldn’t stand it no more and decided to get his wolf’s attention. Looking deep into his eyes, I whispered, “Come on Jason, f**k me like I’m your b***h and put me in my place. You know I love being dominated.”

Jason growled, his wolf taking over that tiny portion of humanity he had and really f****d me, no more making love, just hard, fast and lots of sweating as he started mounting me hard and deep making us both come quickly after so much teasing.

He collapsed beside me and pulled me into a hug while we tried to get our breath back.

Strangely, I didn’t have any problems being intimate with Jason, and I truly believed it was because he was my true mate, my soulmate.

His leg was left with just a scar after he had changed a few times, and the same was for me on my stomach. Putting his hand there, he said, “Josie, I love you darling, and I’d normally be very happy to give you rough if that’s what you want, but not while you’re pregnant. I could hurt the baby. There are things about me you don’t know, and one of them is my lack of control when it comes to s*x. Please don’t talk like that again, not until the baby is born anyway.”

I rested my hand on top of his on my belly and asked, “So what happened between you and your ex, the one before Claire.”

He sighed and looked up at the ceiling before answering. “We met at a pack meeting between us and another pack. They needed my help because she wasn’t coping very well with the changes and as soon as I held her in my arms to calm her down, we both just fell in love I guess, or at least I thought it was love.

I didn’t always like how she flirted with the other wolves, but I let it go because I knew she loved me and I wanted to trust her—“

“Let me guess, she cheated on you?”

He looked down at me with sad eyes and nodded.

“She had been doing it for a few months. We were living together, but I never smelt other wolves on her because she always made sure to shower and scrub herself red raw before I got back, well, that’s what she said in the hospital anyway. Apparently there were only four, but I think she lied about that.”

I looked at him confused and said, “Hospital? Did you try to kill her?”

He laughed quietly and answered, “No, when I did find out she was cheating, it was through her phone. I wasn’t ready to confront her about it yet and so when she wanted to make love I thought I’d spend one last night with her, but...well...it didn’t really go to plan. Trust me Josie, don’t ever have s*x with me when I’m angry, an angry werewolf during s*x is dangerous. I...Uhh, ended up breaking her pelvis.” He coughed guiltily and looked away.

I laid there stunned for a moment before answering, “Thanks for the tip. So, you visited her in hospital then?”

“Yeah, how could I not when I was responsible. I still loved her, but I also had to explain why I was so angry that night and lost control. She forgave me and wanted me back, but I just couldn’t forgive her in return, so I left after she was well again.”

“I think that’s the sweetest and most tragic story I’ve ever heard,” I said, wrapping my arm round his waist.

“I didn’t know what love was until I met you though, how’s that for romantic?” He whispered sarcastically and leaned down to kiss me.

“Can I ask you something else?” I whispered, pulling back from the kiss slightly.

“Sure,” he murmured against my lips before kissing me again. He started to slide his hand between my legs before I gently pushed him away, laughing. “Hey, let me ask then. So, what happened to your parents and why do you have more wolf than human in you?”

He suddenly pulled away from me and the warmth in his eyes from moments ago was replaced with a dark, cold look. It took him a while, like it wasn’t something he’d ever shared with anyone before, but finally he started talking.

“They loved each other and decided to have a baby, typical love story. They were both werewolves, so naturally, when I was born I should have been a purebred werewolf. They weren’t even sure how I survived to full term, you know we can’t go longer than a month without changing and most pregnancies don’t make it full term, unless I was the reason even as a unborn baby somehow? Sam told you about my little gift? You can change back and forth safely near me?” When I nodded he said, “it’s the same for pregnant females, anyway, the DNA in me should have been 50/50 with the human, but for some reason it was more like twenty percent human and eighty percent wolf, which has never happened before, which is why I’m more wolf-like with everything, including sex.”

He shifted to his side to face me and carried on. “Any other wolf wouldn’t have been a danger to my ex if he lost control, but I’m stronger physically as well as an Alpha wolf, so it’s different for me. Even when I have s*x with you, I do it because I want to get you pregnant. After all, that’s the only reason animals mate right?”

He looked at my face fall and laughed, “Darling, don’t get me wrong, I love being inside you and touching you. I still have human in me, but I also have the urge to get you pregnant too. If I didn’t enjoy it I wouldn’t have just done it with you seeing as you’re already pregnant,” he winked, and started to kiss me again.

I pushed him back and kept my hand on his chest when I asked, “So, where are your parents now?” His eyes clouded over with anger when he replied, “They were killed by stupid f*****g werewolf hunter wannabes. They broke into our home when I was ten and my father got me to hide in a wash basket. I could hear them both screaming down the stairs. Those bastards tried to stake them like a f*****g vampire and when they couldn’t get the stake through their hearts, they left them tied up and burned them alive. Blaze was the one who came and saved me. Now you know everything about me, can we please try to think of something more cheerful?” He asked, looking at me.

I stared into those eyes and kissed him deeply, opening my legs suggestively and giving him a few hours of happy time in bed.

Months had passed, and my belly was big and round now. I was at the stage of wanting to just hurry up and see my baby. I even suggested trying castor oil, as apparently that could help start labour.

I was already eight and a half months pregnant, but Jason was having none of it. He was extremely protective of me now, constantly giving me massages when I was suffering with backaches, refusing to let me walk for hours like I used to and growling and glaring at anyone who so much as nudged me on the few occasions we went to the town.

A couple of times I had to slap his arm when he growled too loudly and got strange looks. I was starting to get annoyed with his overprotectiveness and was frustrated with being so restricted with what I could do.

Jane and Michael were back from their holiday and I updated her on everything including our fight with Angelo and his pack and how he’d clawed my stomach.

I wished I had said nothing because she was as bad as Jason with the protectiveness. Lately, though, me and Michael had gotten a little closer and I decided to make a plan with him.

Seeing him leave their room I ran or rather waddled over to him and grabbed his arm, “Michael, I need your help with Jane.” He looked at me suspiciously and answered, “What kind of help?”

“I need you to take her mind off me. Take her out for romantic meals, the cinema, s*x, anything. I can’t stand her overprotectiveness anymore, and it’s bad enough having Jason joined at my hip. Will you help?”

He came over to me and asked, “Where’s Jason now?”

“I told him I needed the toilet quickly,” I replied, and looked away from his gaze, blushing without really knowing why.

It wasn’t long before I found out. He pressed up against me and quietly said, “I think you look so sexy pregnant, and If he hadn’t interrupted us last time it could have been my baby inside you.” He had an edge of a growl at the last sentence, and I could see the hardness of him through his jeans.

Shocked, I Looked up and hissed, “What the hell is wrong with you Michael, you’re acting really weird. You love Jane, not me.”

Looking into my eyes, I felt his dominance wash over me as he whispered, “Try me, I’m sure I could love you without being too overprotective like Jason, better yet let me kill the baby and get you pregnant with mine.”

I slapped his face hard and staggered back as the wolf in him took over. He stalked towards me and pinned me up against the wall.

Before I knew what was happening, he had his hand up my dress and grabbed my crotch.

I grabbed his hand and tried to push him off, but it may as well have been a brick wall I was fighting against.

He breathed in my ear, “Oh come on you little b***h, you are so loving this just as I think you loved what Angelo did to you, I—“

Before he could finish he was slammed up against the wall by Jason, his hand wrapped round Michael’s throat and holding him off the floor. “What the f**k are you doing?” Jason’s voice was dangerously quiet; if Michael didn’t answer carefully, I knew he was a dead man if he wasn’t already.

I could almost feel Jason losing himself completely to the wolf. Jane came running over to me, hugging me tightly while I held my belly, and we waited to see what would happen next.

Michaels eyes were full of fear, but he didn’t back down, instead he angrily answered, “I was going to f**k her sweet, tight little p***y. You should have seen her grab my hand and push my fingers inside her, she was loving it, moaning and begging for my—“

Jason punched him hard in the face over and over again, each blow more ferocious and harder than the last.

Blaze rushed over and yelled at Jason to control himself as Michael’s face became almost unrecognisable with blood from a broken nose and jaw, some teeth too I’m sure and two huge swollen black eyes while he remained unconscious.

I had never seen such damage made so quickly. Jason finally stopped punching him and wiped his bloody knuckles on Michael’s white t-shirt. He was about to walk away when Michael woke and tried to open his eyes, turning, Jason went back over to him and kicked him in the stomach, back, head, and anywhere he could before finally kicking him between his legs hard, although not hard enough to cause internal bleeding.

Even in his ferocious attack he controlled himself, I realised as he finally walked away and came over to us, his jaw clenching with the effort of having to control his rage.

Jane hadn’t said a word, didn’t even look at Michael as she quietly walked back down the hall and into the living room to give us privacy and no doubt come to terms with everything and what she thought she had known about her mate. He had always seemed a bit off around me, I think his wolf side struggled a lot more than the others when it came to me being an omega.

“You ok darling?” Jason whispered, holding my face in his hands and kissing me gently on the lips.

“I am now,” I whispered back and wrapped my arms round his waist, holding on tightly, trying very hard not to cry right there and then.

It seemed that once you had been abused you seemed to have a sign on your head saying ‘I’m a victim, take me, I won’t fight back’ though I knew it was more likely me being an omega. Michael struggled with it a lot when I was in heat.

I had been told that omegas usually suffered awful abuse in the wrong hands, the wolf wanting to dominate and unleash his anger on the omega.

The reason we were called peacemakers wasn’t sweet, not even for real wolves. It was a brutal title to have, as to have peace among the pack was to vent all your frustration and problems onto the omega.

Jason took me back to my room and very reluctantly left me in Blaze’s care while he went and did things I’m sure I wouldn’t want to know about to Michael in that awful torture room.

I had fallen asleep and woke up to Blaze and Jason quietly talking before Blaze left the room.

I had to hold in my shock when I saw Jason covered in blood from head to foot, but he must have caught my look. “Sorry, darling, I’ll just go clean up, and we can talk.” He said, heading for the shower room.

He came back out in just his boxers, blonde hair wet and messy, and a white towel around his shoulders with blood stains on. He had that cold look in his eyes that always gave me the chills.

I was starting to realise it meant the wolf was there, predator looking for prey, and yet sometimes, i could swear there was something else in there too.

Sitting beside me on the bed, he quietly asked, “What happened between you two?”

I repeated to him what had happened, but I could tell he wasn’t sure whether to believe me or not, and that hurt me more than the attack itself.

“You don’t believe me,” I whispered as a statement.

“It’s not that, don’t be silly, Josie,” he replied, slowly getting angrier.

I couldn’t believe his attitude and I wanted to tear his throat out right then, I stayed calm and quiet when I answered, “So this is all my fault then. I suppose it was my fault when Angelo and his pack raped and sexually attacked me, too.”

The tears slowly slid down my face as I tried to hide them, but Jason always seemed to read me so easily and pulled me into a tight hug, soothing me and whispering sorry over and over.

I looked up at him and realised that he was crying too. I don’t think I had ever really seen him cry before.

“Why are you crying?” I asked, trying to hold in the sudden burst of giggle’s that wanted to escape me as we both sat here crying like idiots.

“Sorry, I believe you honestly, I just wish I had been there to protect you. It always seems that I’m never there when you actually need me.”

I laid my head against his shoulder and asked, “Want to go for a run?”

We went and changed and played around for a bit in wolf form, nipping and pouncing and just generally forgetting our human life for a while. He tried to teach me how to hunt, I failed miserably and he had to catch his own meal.

Jason let me be rough with him, but he wasn’t as rough back like he usually was. He nipped my ears and grabbed the scruff of my neck, but he never tried to pull me down to the floor or pounce on me, just let me do it all to him.

At one point, I got frustrated with him, whining at him to play back with me. The only answer I received was a low growl meaning no and a lick on my nose. I slapped his snout with my paw and sulked off with my tail between my legs. I knew why he was being careful, what with my swollen belly and all, but it was still annoying.

As Jason changed back, I laid on my side so that I didn’t crush my big furry belly and watched.

He stood up beautiful and naked and put on just his boxers before coming over to sit opposite me.

“Come on, darling, why don’t you change back and watch a few films with me?” I growled and slammed my head on my paws stubbornly. I didn’t want to change back, didn’t want to remember, to have those sympathetic looks, no it was much better here in the forest surrounded by the nature.

“I’m not leaving you until you come back with me—“

I got up and padded over to him happily before he finished, “I mean in human form Josie, where’s that gorgeous body of yours?” he smiled, stroking my head.

I tilted my head sideways and looked up at him, confused. Last time he had told me he found wolves more beautiful than the human body and I’d learned looks didn’t mean all that much to his wolf brain.

He read my body language and answered, “Don’t get me wrong darling, you are very beautiful right now too, and I’d be quite happy to do a few things to you, but I’m sure that would be weird for you and anyone else that saw me mating with a full wolf, besides, I know your only doing it because you want to hide.”

I looked back at him shocked, but also turned on by what he had just said. The wolf side of me liked the idea of him touching her, but my human side did indeed find it quite weird, although was curious. I mean, we were werewolves and not actual wolves, we retained our human intelligence.

I didn’t want to change back though, so I went over to him and nudged his private parts with my nose and licked him there over the fabric.

He moaned softly, parting his knees and pressed his groin against my face before pushing my head away and breathing, “don’t you even think about it Josie, you’re in wolf form, so you’ll find me a lot bigger if I go inside you... which I’m not.” He quickly added.

I shook my head sideways and gestured for him to move his boxers, when he didn’t, I grabbed hold of the side of them with my teeth and pulled them down, making him laugh and slap me away.

I didn’t mind giving a bit of foreplay, as he was in human form, so I didn’t need to feel too weird, as I couldn’t see myself, and I knew as wolf-like as Jason was he would never try to have s*x with me in wolf form, it wouldn’t bother him to do it, but he knew others wouldn’t be very comfortable with that idea and even if I were to ask, he wouldn’t, the only part of his wolf self that he wasn’t comfortable sharing even if he did love me completely, even this, me being wolf, probably wasn't something he'd ever done before. I would just have to work on it. I never was good at ignoring my random and mostly dumb ideas.

When I growled at him, he knew I was serious, so he got onto his knees and got out his hard thick erection with his hand.

“This what you want darling?” he grinned, holding it out suggestively and stroking himself.

I ran over to him and began to lick it repeatedly while he groaned. While I licked him, he wrapped his hand around himself, moving it back and forth, getting faster and more urgent with every lick and pull, and as I enjoyed the taste and scent of him he came crying out and spilled onto my tongue and the woody floor.

Before he could move away, I licked the tip of him where he spurted more come, and began cleaning him up, resulting in more moans and him rubbing himself against my face before I moved back and sat down staring at him smugly.

“Just because you seduced me doesn’t mean you get your own way, sweetie. Look, how about you change back, and I take you out for a romantic dinner and cinema afterwards? It will be our first proper date.”

He got up off the floor and dressed himself fully. Wearing a light blue t-shirt and dark blue jeans he was looking very hot.

The t-shirt showed off his muscles and his gorgeous piercing blue eyes that he changed them back to.

His golden blonde hair was messy and tousled looking, making me think of a beautiful fallen angel for a moment.

His skin was the perfect tone of olive, flawless skin and a cute button nose with red rosy cupid bow lips. I could have wept at the beauty of him, but instead I was wondering how the heck I had managed to make him want someone like me.

I couldn’t refuse the idea of showing him off, and he knew it, so walking over as I passed him, I snorted my annoyance and went to go change to the sound of his laughter as I stomped away.

Jane had got me ready again, so I looked good. She wasn’t doing very well about the split with Michael and his behaviour, so for a while at least she could focus on making me look nice and forget, and by the time I left she was actually smiling.