The Alpha's Curvy Mate

Chapter 15

Clar

It all happened so fast. I barely even blinked and Nick is already beside me, holding me by the waist that I was pulled from my seat.

“Mine” he sneered at Jace.

Jace looked afraid for a split second and then his face relaxed. “Alpha, good morning. Apologies, I was just keeping Clarity here company. She seems so sad earlier” he winked at me, riling up Nick.

“Back off” Nick spat. Jace held up his hands as a sign of surrender and retreated out of the kitchen but not before shouting back to me “Clar, see you tomorrow, yeah? I’ll wait”

I swear I saw smoke come out of Nick’s ears. He dragged me out of the kitchen and carried me to our room. As soon as he shut and locked the door of our room, he threw me on the bed.

“Enough of this Clar, I can’t take it anymore” he crashed his lips on mine. The sparks that ignited from the kiss is making me dizzy. I immediately responded and I felt him sigh and smile. He began to roam his hands on my thighs as he moved his lips from my lips to my ears, nipping and sucking. I moaned at the sensation.

He then pressed his stiff erection on my clothed core and I whimpered at the contact. “You’re mine, Clarity” he huskily whispered against my ear. I shuddered at his words. “No one will ever touch you except me, no one will look at you lovingly but me, no one Clarity. You’re mine, all mine” he breathes at my neck and dove straight to my lips, nipping and biting at my lower lip as he gripped my waist hard and shoved his shorts-clad erection in my core. I tried holding my moans in but when his other hand brushed just above my p***y, I lost it completely.

He let my lips go as I panted heavily, he then trailed kisses down to my jaw, to my neck, my throat, and finally, he sunk his teeth into my cleavage, sucking and nipping, making my hips buck as he continues to leave a mark everywhere. He then abruptly stopped and looked me in the eyes, his orbs are glowing, flickering from black to blue, a signal that his wolf is close to surfacing.

“Baby, please, are you still mine?” he whispered, his voice so small and unsure. He then lightly brushed my hair away from my face, his palm resting on my cheeks. I wanted to say yes, of course, I still love him and he is my mate for goddess’ sake. But my heart is broken. I have issues that need repairing, I... I’m back to square one, the Clarity that keeps her eyes trained down, my consciousness eating me alive. How could I ever compete with that? With what he had?

“How could you ask me that, Nick? When you aren’t mine in the first place? You’re hers, you belong to Madeline. You gave her what’s mine, you permitted me to overthink and you gave her permission to think that she is above me and I will never get what you gave her, you did this, Nick. How dare you ask me if I’m yours when I did nothing but to love you as more than I love myself when all this time it was you that will never be mine” I was a sobbing mess when I finished my speech to him, I poured my heart and soul to him, he knows my insecurities and my doubts but then again he failed me, he failed this bond.

He was looking down, his hands were now on either side of me, he was breathing deeply. “Maybe you should be with her, she can be your chosen mate,” I mumbled lowly. His ears perked up and when his eyes meet mine, they were blazing with anger “Don’t you say that. You are my mate, you belong to me and I belong to you. Don’t you dare say that bullshit because I will never choose her over you” he snapped back at me?

Unable to control my anger, I pushed him away and I climbed off the bed. “Oh, you will never choose her over me? That’s f*****g rich, Nick. That’s exactly what you did. You knew you have a mate, you knew you belong to someone because you f*****g guessed it, you’re a wolf. You broke this bond the minute you decided that it was worth wrecking a future with someone who’s destined to be with you for a quick f**k. Oh, I’m sorry, TWO fucks.” I screamed at him, my bold boiling. Out of anger, I snapped at him words that I never thought I would say, “I Clarity Johnson of the Valiant Moon pack, reject you, Nick King, to be my f*****g mate”

The pain coursed throughout my body but my anger did not falter. I looked at Nick, challenging him to accept my rejection. I half-expected him to sneer at me and tell me this is what he wants all along, for me to reject him so he can be free but I thought wrong. In a flash, there he was, on his knees, begging for my forgiveness.

“No, Clar. No... please baby. You don’t mean that. You’re just angry” he cried while hugging my knees. He was sobbing uncontrollably. I lightly pushed him away but he won’t budge. He then looked up and as his glassy eyes meet mine, I realized that I don’t mean what I said. I ran my hands through his hair and sighed.

“I can’t look at you right now, it’s too painful.” I quietly said to him. Reluctantly, he nodded and stood up.

“I understand. I’ll give you time but please know that I’m so sorry and I won’t do anything like that ever again. You’re all I want, Clar. That thing that happened between us were mistakes. I was desperate to find you, she was there consoling me. The second one was even a messier mistake, both of us drunk out of our minds but know that I love you, Clar. I love you so much, I can’t even think about letting you go” he then kissed me on my forehead and entered the bathroom.

I halfheartedly packed some of my clothes into a bag so I can move them to the guestroom. Can I forgive him? Can we get past through this?