Being Enamored By Him

Hope

Sometimes you just need support from others, you don't want them to judge you, you just want them to hold you and tell you everything is gonna be okay......... sooner or later everything will be fine.....

Kabir's POV

My whole family stood their mom, dad, and bhai. They all looked tired, sad and horrified. I wanted to tell them everything that has happened between me and Naina but I didn't have it me to say it out loud. All three of them were looking at me wide-eyed waiting for me to explain or to say something about what was going on but I stood there saying nothing.

After a few minutes, what felt like hours my mom asked me in a worried but in a tired voice," what is happening Kabir? What is going on here? This whole house looks like it has been robbed! And where is Naina? You both are not answering your phones from the past 6 days beta! What is all this? And most importantly what have you done to yourself? Your eyes are soo red! Have you been crying?

I just stood there as I guess I was speechless. I seriously don't know how should I explain this to them so I didn't utter a single word until my mom stood just too close to me and stroked my cheek with her hands. I closed my eyes it felt so comforting and all of a sudden I hugged her and cried. Yes, I cried like a baby again......

"Kabir, what happened? Why are you crying? What is wrong? Where is Naina? Is she okay?" She asked worriedly and started stroking my back in a soothing way.

"Maa, she is gone... She left me..... Everything is over between us" I said after a couple of minutes composing myself. Listening to this my mom was taken aback and faced me with a look I - need- a - proper - explanation - Kabir!

I couldn't look into her eyes and I wasn't able to say anything. I was not ready to do it...... I don't know how they all would react to it but I guess I don't have much choice here. Gathering some courage and putting myself together I kept my gaze on the ground and starting telling them the whole incident that jeopardized my relationship with naina.

" Maa, two weeks ago I met Avantika," I said and looked into her eyes for a moment and regretted badly.

As her eyes widened listening to her name! she knew everything about her and not to forget about us. I remember when I told her about my relationship with Avantika she was not at all happy and the moment she met her she became all the more persistent that she is a bad influence and is not good for me. Maa always said that Avantika doesn't love me and is after my name and money. Also since I was too young to think about all this and was blinded by her fake love for me I ignored Maa's remarks every time and when I realized that Maa was indeed right it was too late! Putting all these thoughts aside and without looking at any of their directions I continued,

" I and Naina went out 2 weeks ago. We were having our dinner then out of nowhere she just came and hugged me. I introduced her to Naina but she wasn't at all interested in her instead after talking for like 15 fifteen minutes she left us. When Naina asked me about Avantika I decided not to tell her about my relationship with Avantika so I told her she was just my college friend! Naina didn't push me further on this and I was more than grateful at that time but I didn't expect Avantika to show up in my office! Out of nowhere she wanted me back in her life even after knowing that now I am not single and in fact married now. I tried to tell her about Naina and the fact that I love my wife but she didn't budge in fact she tricked me soo well that we went out for lunch just for once. Naina knew nothing about all this. Also that week I was way too stressed with my work, I was not able to give much attention to Naina. She never asked me about my sudden change in behavior in fact more than anything she respected me and gave me my space for which I am still grateful for. But on Friday all of a sudden Avantika again came in my office and was talking about how cool we both were when we were together and how wonderful it will be if get back together again and how she still loves me. In between all this, she started getting close to me and just when she kissed me Naina opened my office door and froze. After that, I guess I don't think there is much to explain she was furious and it wasn't her fault who wouldn't? She got a promotion and was sent to Canada for minimum 2 years she came to my office to tell me this but everything went wrong....." before I could say anything Maa slapped me hard. I don't know what was I expecting or feeling, I don't have words to explain what I felt at that moment. My mother has never hit me ever. But this time I deserved it more than anything. When I looked in her eyes she was crying and dad and Arav bhai was holding her.

"How could you do this to Naina Kabir? How come you never told her about Avantika?" Maa asked me in between her sobs.

"I never thought of meeting her ever again Maa. I never thought just to have her way she would stoop so low. I never cheated on Naina purposefully Maa. I can never even think of anybody else. My whole life depends on her. I love Naina more than anything in this whole entire world but just because of one stupid mistake I lost her" I said trying to reason out knowing it was no use.

"Bullshit Kabir if would have loved her you would have never let her go in the first place and you should have told her about that Avantika" Maa snapped at me angrily. I know she was right but now I cannot do anything at all. If I have a choice with a snap of a finger I would change everything that happened that day and I and Naina would still be together.

"Do me a favor Kabir just get out of my sight" My dad who was once so proud of me looked disappointed and hurt.

And what hurts me the most is I was the reason for all the distress they were facing.

"Kabir come with me. I want to talk to you" Arav bhai said to me with so much authority that for a moment I was a little sacred but nevertheless, I nodded and we went to my study to "talk".

" It's been 6 days Kabir you have not come to the office. Everything in the office is a mess. In fact, nobody is able to function properly with your absence which is unannounced" Bhai said looking out side the window without facing me. It's been six days since Naina left me! And it's been 6 days since I stepped outside this house. I have not eaten much in these last 6 days....... Everything is just soo incomplete without her that it is hurting soo damn much.....

I didn't know what I should say and also before I could think of saying anything he continued,

"I don't know about anybody Kabir but I know one thing which I am sure of is that you love Naina more than anything in this whole world I have seen it with my own eyes the way you look at her with soo much love and affection nobody can love her like that. I know Avantika, she is a b***h no doubt and I am not surprised to know because of her all of us are in a situation like this. But now Kabir I just want to ask you one question and I want you to be honest with me." Arav bhai said and I felt relieved and let out a breath I don't even know I was holding. After listening to him knowing he trusts me that I can never hurt Naina intentionally gave me hope of something better yet to come.

"You know bhai I can never lie to you no matter how serious that situation can be I can confess truth at least to you," I said with a little confidence that was left within me.

"What do you want Kabir now?" Bhai asked me in a flat voice without showing any emotion.

"What does that mean?" I asked him genuinely intrigued.

"Hm,m will you just let Naina go? Just because something wrong happened in your relationship you gonna let her go?" He asked then it hit me whatever he was saying was absolutely correct. It's been only 6 days since she left me and I am already a mess! I don't how is she? Is she also going through the same pain that I am in? Does she really meant those words that she had said? I cannot let her go like this! I need to see her atleast once or atleast I should try before letting her go!

"Bhai I do want everything to be the way it was! It's just I am not sure what I should do or how should I do?" I said sadly..

"Think about it Kabir. And don't worry about the work I am here. If anything important will come up I will call you. And Kabir switch on your phone. Vedh is calling me from the past 2-3 days. He said it is urgent so give him a call. Lastly, Kabir just take a bath you really are stinking." He said and for the first time, I laughed at his antics. He knows how to make me feel better. He is the best brother one can ever have.

"Thank you Bhai," I said to him and hugged him. From these past 6 days, I was feeling horrible without any hope. But now I think everything I gonna be fine with time. Time heals everything at the end of the day doesn't it?