Maeve
The incidents the night of Jordan’s birthday, the morning after, and the day of the interview hang in the air between us like thunder clouds for over two weeks.
After I pushed him back so vehemently, Nael chose to give me space… that I started to hate after about eight days. I was hurt and really confused for some time, right around when the interview took place, and not in the mood or simply able to talk to him about anything that didn’t serve a purpose. That wasn’t focused on a task that needed to be achieved.
Because for a shameful second, right after he said it, I was relieved. Me, I thought. It’s me. I don’t have to share him, don’t have to give this up. Then the anger came when I realized the way he was eyeing me. Like I was a raw egg teetering on the edge of the kitchen co
