LOVING ME IN MISERY

DEPRESSION AND PROMISES

Me and Annie got along perfectly well the bond grew stronger .my friends though we were dating .her ex was out of the picture . we worked together and made cool cash. I grew intensly in love with her she loved me too

just at that middle march 2021 one month from the day I met her

I was still running helter skelter about my Moms health issues she was getting worse at the hospital bed

.I lost sleep I was over thinking

Annie was staying over the night at my place trying to console me

on that Hateful sad Sunday night

I got a call from my sister she had been in the hospital for some days now with mom

She called me and said that mom has passed away..after all the care the spending and everything...God i am an orphan now. no one to call me and said Chi " I love you my son

why am I still alive

why am I hustling ?

why did all these happen to me

I was in tears that night

Annie was on bed sleeping

she walks into the sutting room and asks what is that matter ? I told her my mom died

I was so depressed at that moment I couldn't eat , I lost appetite for food

I lost weight and I was moody most of the time

the next morning I would have to Go and pay for expenses on how to deposit her body into the mortuary

We were awake through out the night

she kept on consoling me

she cuddled me

and gave me words of encouragement

My beautiful annie what could I have done or how could I have felt without her around.

She was like a best friend to me

I thanked God for having someone special just when I have lost someone special i

saw her as a replacement for a past glory

..The next morning I Got a call from my elder brother

my whole siblings was to travel to village hospital where my mom died

I was sad. I had my bath

and brushed my teeth .I dressed up

Annie help me with my jacket and shoes polished.. she treated me like a husband although we were casual friends

she dressed up too to return to her lodge

When i was about leaving the door

I was flabbergasted at her action

She drew my hands close to her gave me a warm hug and deep kiss straight through my lips

my eyes were gazed open as I was in shock of what just happened

she looked into my eyes and told me She loves me

I had been telling her I love her all these while we were together

but she always shys away from giving me a reply

until today...my depression subsided

She told me she have accepted to date .me

little did I know this was the beginning of love misery

a relationship that I thought was for a perfection

I was so shallow minded

all in my head was her

she promised to stand by me no matter what

she told me how I have been a source of encouragement to her

and she promised not to ever leave me

damn I was in love

could this be real

yes it is ..!!!

I hugged her again . I was running late to catch my bus

we both left and bolted the door locked

she entered a shuttle to her lodge while I left for village

while I met my elder brother in the vehicle where we planned to meet each other before comencing the journey , He was so sad

He was in tears

I had this energy from my newly found love so I didn't cry . I consoled my brother who was married with two kids... throughout the journey

Annie always called at times intervals during the journey

she cares about everything that was happening. I was so lucky to have someone look out for me

since my circle of friends whom I share my lifestory with is relatively small

I told Annie that she shouldn't worry I would call her when I return to school campus that that night

..she went through to my WhatsApp

and apologized for stressing me all these while

she confessed she also loved me from the very start but wanted to be sure of her emotions

she seems to be a very serious girl

she promised me never to leave me

she says I am the man she has been waiting for all these years

she wished she had met me before her ex boyfriend

I was caring ,understanding obedient and patient

wahhh I just logged in to w******p to bag a lot of promises from my new girlfriend that brightened up my day

today is caused and blessed I said to myself

I lost A gold and gained a gold

both ways

let Gods will be done

after I got to the hospital , we paid for all the hospital death bills

and deposit her body in the mortuary

my body stood still looking at My mom in corpse desert

I didn't cry

Thanks to Annie bad energy !!!

afterwards my sister met up with us at the hospital

My mom used to.run a small shop where she sells foodstuff before she was admitted to hospital

we went to the shop and had to deport all.properties to my elder brother house in upper town where me and him resides

some of my moms sisters also came to aid

we where just angry over her death

most especially me

I have spent a fortune out of my account to pay hospital bill and she died

I was just sitting sad

it would take a while to regain from fund loss

but I will try and win I said as I encouraged myself to be strong

after all activities we returned to upper town that evening and packed all the goods including deep freezers in a*****e in my elder brothers rented apartment

we had plans of selling off bit by bit these properties

Annie had been waiting for me to call all day

when I got home that evening

we talked for a long time

she encouraged me and still reassured .me she would be more than a mom to me

I was delighted

and for a sec I was kinda off lifted a burden off my chest

after having to pass through lot of relationship that was on false hope and never lasted

I think this is it my moms reincarnate

I would marry her as soon as I am made

good girls are hard to find these days

I still couldn't sleep that night

I had been talking to my girlfriend who usually in her funny nature makes me happy and forget my sorrow...at early hours of the next day I slept of peacefully

Annie visited the next evening she made delicious meal for me

she says I am loosing weight

I was feeling loved

I still have to wake up if I am dreaming

if this was through love

I wished it last forever I wouldn't risk loosing her

all these promises admist my depression let me hope its not on a faulty foundation