IT’S COMPLICATED

CONNECTION - (KELLY’S POV)

“You really shouldn’t text her again babe, who knows it’s for the best and by the way if she really liked you like the way you said you thought she did, she would have overlooked the fact that you don’t know how to s*x chat, I mean s*x chatting isn’t like a compulsory course to master and by the way not to sound judgmental buh she asking you for a s*x chat on the first day you guys started texting is weird as f**k, so move on, I’m sure someone better will come your way and this time around the person won’t mind that you don’t know how to s*x chat.”Emerald said through the phone, “okay best, it’s not like I didn’t know that she didn’t like me to the extent of overlooking my inabilities, I just thought that with time she will get to love me with those inabilities of mine or maybe she just asked for the s*x chat just to push me away, what do you think?”, I asked, “whether she asked you for a s*x chat to push you away or not that’s her loss, don’t disturb yourself by getting weird ideas okay?, I gotta go now, I will call you later, love you”, Emerald said as she hung up immediately without waiting for a reply, “tch love you too, at least you could have waited to hear a reply”, I yelled at the phone or Emerald, whoever!, I was frustrated buh I had no one to vent to except Emerald who is unavailable at the moment so I decided to make a video of myself that showed how sad I was buh due to the fact that I looked too good the video didn’t turn out bad as I wanted it to, infact it was too cute( yea I know I brag about my looks a lot lol it’s just to boost my confidence because I have a lot of insecurities) Buh whatever I posted it anyway, “you’re so cute Kelly”, “I want you”, “do you have a lover?”, “let’s get married already”, “I love you so much Kelly”, pim! Pim! Pim!, my phone notification kept buzzing from the compliments my friends online gave, “yea everyone wants me buh not her”, I said sadly as I dragged myself to the bathroom which I stayed in for about 30 minutes, mumbling to myself about why she doesn’t like me and why she won’t give me a chance to prove how I feel about her just because I don’t know how to s*x chat, it was quite funny buh at the same time really sad, I dried my body with my towel, came out and took out a black joggers paired with a black T-shirt and put it on after applying cologne and cream and yes black is my best color, after putting on my clothes, I went back to my phone, “huh! She texted me!!!” I screamed, I’m sure my neighbors heard, “can we meet?”, the message she sent said, “of course, we can meet”, I shouted to myself as if she could hear me”, “I really need to tell Emerald about this”, I said as I hurriedly dailed her number, “Hey chipmunk, I thought we just finished talking few minutes ago, I didn’t know you were this obsessed with me”, Emerald teased and I could tell she was cooking by the sounds of the kitchen utensils I kept hearing from the background, “sorry to disturb you best buh have got good news and I’m really too excited to wait, I feel like I might die of excess joy if I don’t tell someone about the reason behind this joy and you know I don’t have anyone to talk to except you best”, “okay pumpkin, what’s this that’s tickling your fancy?”, Emerald asked, “I love the way she keeps calling me a different nickname all the time, her boyfriend is such a lucky dude, I wonder if she’s like that with him too, I thought to myself, “so the thing is that Ashley actually texted me today and guess what it was about?”, I asked while smiling from ear to ear, “what was it about?, I’m too busy to make guesses”, Emerald said, I could sense the irritation in her voice, I would be dumb to not know that Emerald doesn’t like Ashley at all buh I know she’s only being like that because she doesn’t want me to get hurt again, she’s such a darling, “fine, I will tell you, she asked if we could meet”, I said, “huh!, just like that?, that girl is really something else, she didn’t even apologize to you for last night’s incident and she just went straight to the point that you guys should meet up and you, do you even know your worth at all?, you getting all excited over someone that obviously doesn’t care about how you feel”, Emerald yelled, I could tell she was getting even more irritated, “I didn’t really see it that way best, can you calm down first at least”, I pleaded, “I’m not upset at all, do you, I gotta go now, bye”, she said as she hung up immediately without waiting for my response, “well I guess I just have to prove to Emerald that Ashley is a nice person and she means well, I’m sure there’s a connection between us and that connection has to be love”,I said as I entered her dm and replied, “yea, sure, we can meet”, “okay, cool, I thought you wouldn’t want to have anything to do with me after last night’s incident”, she replied almost immediately, “nahh, whatever happened last night only made me even more curious about you, I really want to know more about you in person”, I texted, “okay that’s fine, either way I’m sorry if I seemed too straight forward”, she apologized, “it’s fine, where and when would you like to meet?”, I asked, “urghhh let’s meet at my place, next week, is that fine?”, she said “oh yea, that’s cool” I replied shortly, “Gwashh I’m so hungry”,I thought to myself as I yawned, “let me get something to eat”, I said to myself as I dropped my phone and left my house, shutting the door behind me.