*Ava* The third hour of rain drums against the roof of the beach house, a low, insistent rhythm that has become the backdrop to everything. I sit at the small kitchen table with my laptop open, a cold mug of coffee at my elbow, scrolling through the same Pelicans internal directory I've already searched twice. The names blur. I know these people. I've taped their ankles and stitched their foreheads and cleared them for play after concussions that made their wives cry in the waiting room. The rain lets up for ten seconds, then comes back harder. Through the window over the sink, the ocean is a smear of grey, no horizon line where the water stops and the sky begins. Rasmus moves behind me, bare feet on the tile, the refrigerator door opening and closing. A knife against a cutting board. H

