Taming The Spy Alpha (18+)

Chapter 12—Where Should We Go?

(Sebastian's POV)

I felt an extraordinary feeling that I shouldn't be feeling right now and it is getting really weird, I don't want to have such feelings like this, and I think that it's better for me to have this moment going like how it should be, I don't want to bring myself into this kind of misery.

I am with Snow, and I feel like there is something that I need to do to make her even more happy. I don't want her to be just like that, I don't want her to think that I didn't put effort.

We are both arranged marriage, and I know that our marriage is fake as it is, she wanted to usee for something else and I must not trust her.

I don't really like to trust anyone, I don't want to believe through their fantasies. I don't want to belong to the squad wherein I will fall in love with the woman that is about to betray me, because I feel like sooner, she is going to betray me, I don't know what should I do about it, but I am going to try my best to avoid being a victim. I don't want to resort myself into that type of a thing, that will never be happening in my life.

"Snow, I wanted to ask you something, what are you going to do in the future after we are both separated?" I asked her, I just wanted to be more practical to her so that she will not be shocked by what I am asking her. It is better to be truthful either way so that she will not think that I am trying to make her fell bad because I am not. I am trying not to be thean with courage and perseverance.

"I don't know really Seb, I am not seeing a future with someone else, but you," she added.

I am shocked when she said that, we are both just a complete strangers and it will be really weird if she keeps on going with what she is saying right now, it is never been good to do that, it will only make me feel triggered because I feel weirded out.

"Are you really sure about that? Aren't you supposed to marry someone else and not me? I mean, it's already a part of the plan to marry with contract but you cannot stay with me, that's the things, and I hope you will understand about that because it is never been a funny way to ask someone to marry them after having a lot of troubles lately, and I know that you are also trying your best but it should not matter to me, I hope that you will understand my situation."

"I am really sorry about that Sebastian, I am just trying to hear out myself for now and I can't stop myself for feeling this. I am trying to get rid of this as much as possible, and I will try my best, don't worry, " she added.

She guaranteed me that she will her own worth and to not bother me at all, that's the thing that I am asking at her right now and I. hoping that she will respect my personal space, I don't want to be the one that you are going to blame.

"Of course, our marriage is not even legal at all, it's only legal in papers, we need to be free someday so that's why I am asking you about this right now, that's the sense that I am going to continue, " I added.