Taming The Spy Alpha (18+)

Chapter 33—Loiter With My Girl

(Snow's POV)

~Flashback~

The vendor finished cooking the waffles and included a soda with the order.Given that the sun is currently at a very high altitude, it is sufficient to refresh the day.

I need to be happy with him in order to avoid breaking the mood, so I don't want to feel the tension or think about the fact that I'm breaking up with Sebastian today.so that I won't have to deal with it for the rest of my life and that it will only hurt once.

I won't have any choice but to deal with it; I need to learn to cope better and have enough time to think about what's going on and what I need to do to keep up with my emotions. I don't want to chase after something that isn't worthy of being pursued, and this is something I also wanted to do.

"Are you possibly going to another place after this girl?" he said.

I responded, "No, I don't want to go somewhere else. I just want to spend the time together with you Sebastian. It's precious for me, and I will always think about it wisely, that you are certainly the man that I wanted to be with me, all along."

"No, I don't want to go somewhere else."

The vendor put the waffles on a stick and topped them with cheese, mayonnaise, and cheese. It looked delicious, made me hungry just by looking at it, made me want to eat it, made me feel so full, but I haven't eaten it yet.

"Here is your order, Miss, Sir; please enjoy your dessert for today and thank you for purchasing!" the vendor said, smiling gracefully at us and beaming with happiness.

I responded, "Thank you also, I am glad it is finished already, thank you for your hard work, we really do appreciate it, and I hope you will have more customers sooner."

"I wish you all the best for being a couple until then and I wish that happiness will rule down in your relationship," he said.

"It's pleasure to have the compliment coming from a beautiful woman like you, your boy is definitely lucky to have you," he said.

When I heard the man wish that for Sebastian and myself, I felt sad because it only made me remember something I was going to do, something wrong, and when I did it again, like I did today, I felt guilty for nothing.

"Mister, thank you, and we wish you the best of luck with your business as well; it's great that you're selling this." Sebastian grinned broadly as he addressed the vendor, "My girl, really really loves waffles, that's what makes her fond of it, it's just pleasing to the eyes she says, and maybe that's why I am really not going to forget this day."

It also takes a while for us to do this; the last time I was here, I couldn't remember much about it, and it seems like I'm also a little bit busy.

He said, "Let's sit at the table, baby, with your waffle and cola."

He is also handling his waffles. We are like a young couple dating. I am glad that this is happening, but I wish it would never end; it is like a fairy tale.A fairy tale that I don't want to keep, a fairy tale that is too good to be true, a fairy tale that is too hard to keep, and a fairy tale that I don't want to keep any longer.

Something about this is making me feel guilty because he is like a prince that I have left behind, a prince who doesn't deserve to be treated like this, a prince who is the one that I wanted to leave as soon as possible because we are not suitable for each other, and

He took my hand as we sat on the table near the caravan and said, "My lady, you should sit first."

He always impressed me with his gentleness, and I'll always remember that about him.I am just happy this way, and I have always been happier than I expected, that I am here with him, doing these things right now. I know that this will end sooner, but I should be prepared for it. I have no answer to my own question sometimes because I just feel bad that I can't work up with my own problems.

I wanted to be free, and I wanted to take the responsibility that I could have for myself and for other people to truly understand me.

"Sebastian, how are your school assignments going?"

Naturally, I need to act like I am his girl because I will spend this day with him regardless of what, so I asked with such concern for him.

"It was a little stressful as I think it is, but I think I can handle it, it's not really that bad as I thought, I am still thinking if I will be able to finish it as soon as possible so that I can help you with your own problems as well in school, like you know, let's answer it together, but yes, of course I get it, nobody should know about our secret relationship, it should be hidden as usual, I don't know if this is something that I need to work with, sometimes it's really hard to deal with people especially when they have their own minds to deal with.

Yeah, being busy is the worst, I don't know, but time really does make things worse, and it makes me anxious.I need to be free with what I am thinking lately so that I will be able to be free to what I am doing as well, baby. I just wanted to be the one that is going to rule my time in a nice and easy way. However, I don't want to think badly about what I can't do and what I can't do.

I just can't. He is the most accurate description of him, and I liked that he is like that. He is easy to be with, and he is easy to get all of the things that are easier for me to handle as well. He talks to me like a man with courage, the man who has a lot of words to offer to you and is literally not spoiling you over. He also knows how to make a topic and how to make the conversation more entertaining so that the two of you will have a proper talk as the time passesBecause I don't want to waste my time on something that won't make me happy, I'm considering whether or not this is truly the right decision.

I have become more attached to Sebastian, and if I am going to be able to leave this relationship—which is what I really want right now—it is something that I need to manifest because I have no other idea what peace brings for me. I wanted to know myself and the real side of the world. Leaving Sebastian is harder than I think it is.

I may not be trying to break up with him because of Leo, but rather because I still need to mature and learn more about who I am. I will lose myself if I have someone with me who will stop me from growing, so I need to be the one who has a lot of ideas to think about, who is optimistic about life, and who has a lot of opportunities to advance.

Sebastian is a man who will help you get through anything. Anyone can befriend him, and they'll be glad they did. Sebastian has always been someone who has a lot of courage inside of himself. He doesn't think about negative things; rather, he thinks about what makes him happy and sticks to it. That's what he wanted to do, and that's what he's wanted to get since then, and that's why I liked him.

After the hectic days they've had, Snow and Sebastian have a lot to talk about and are hanging out with Snow.

Sebastian is sure to have a good time with his girlfriend because he has been missing her a lot and they have had a lot of time to talk about what they've been up to.

"Snow, we are finally going to graduate college earlier; all of our hard work will be worth it," we are finally going to do."I am just happy that you did it too, I am just happy that you are ready to take the risk as well as well no matter what, it's not easy sometimes," he said, holding Snow's hands as they walk through the beautiful spots in the park. There are also a lot of animals around, and they are planning to go in the mini zoo area.

"I know that it is not easy sometimes to hide our relationship, but we still did it in our own ways. I am just happy that you

She wanted to make the moment as memorable as she could, knowing that it would never happen again, and she looked at him with a bright smile as if there was no tomorrow.She had a difficult time deciding which option was superior, but she was forced to take it.She doesn't want Sebastian to ruin anything he's started.

"Snow, I have something to tell you, can you bear in some minute?"

Sebastian said this as the two of them eat lunch together in the canteen.Sebastian has a lot of willpower to admit how he really felt about Snow because there aren't many people in the area.

Snow was anxious and knew that he was confessing to her and that something was going on.She doesn't like any of the boys in her class, even though they all confessed to her how much they liked her.She only had the will to do it because she wanted her own freedom. Sebastian, on the other hand, is an exception because she is completely in love with him despite not knowing what's wrong with it or how he got his charm.

"Certainly Sebastian, what is it?"She inquired.

"Uh, actually, I liked you a lot, but I'm afraid to tell you about it. But it's better to tell you about it than to lie to myself that I don't," the woman said.

We have a lot of things to do together and share the same interests in science and everything related to it. We liked the galaxy, and we both like the stars, as well as everything related to science. So, yeah, I don't know, I like you for who you are and I'm glad you're my best friend.

I've also been thinking about this lately, and I'm torn about whether or not to tell you. However, I don't want to regret this moment in any way. I wanted to properly tell you that I am willing to sacrifice our friendship for you.

With all due respect, "I am asking you Snow, can you be my girlfriend?"

As she thought it was, the air started to get cold, making Snow's legs shake.She thought Sebastian had no feelings for her, but he was completely aware that what he felt for her was nothing and that he only views her as a friend. The wind is taking over, and she didn't think Sebastian would do that.

"Sebastian, are you real? I-I don't know what to say right now.requesting my hand in marriage?"

"Yes, it's acceptable if you specify-"

"No, I won't.I also have feelings for you, and I don't know why, but I felt the same way about it.Although it is still in its infancy, each time we spend time together, it feels as though you are my soulmate and that you are the one who always shields me from those who are harming me. This is something for which I am extremely grateful; I am just happy that way; I am happy that I am able to be with you; it was the moment that I will literally cherish, because you know, it's just that I can't take the moment for granted at all; I am just happy that way;

When Sebastian heard what Snow had to say, his demeanor changed from one of pout to one of bright smile."

"Really? I can't believe that?"

"Yeah, it's awful that I can't tell you Sebastian that, but that's what it really is," I admit.

"I am just happy that I did have the same feelings for you," Snow stated. "I have feelings for you and I can't even confess it properly towards you. I am just happy that I did."

"God, how I long for this to have been the case, but it is.I really liked you, so for the time being, I'll court you because I don't want you to make things too complicated, okay?I wanted to talk to you slowly so you could think about it more. If you decide to think about it right away, don't worry because I don't want to put you under any kind of stress.You already know that I have always been grateful that you are here with me; I don't know if that's the right term, but yes, I am just so happy right now that I want to roll down! "

"I will court you and will listen to you out until the time that you are ready to say yes. I will show you how I can be worthy to be your boy. I will accompany you through the ups and downs. You have me with you, and you shall not be scared of the things that will come. "

Sebastian cherished their friendship and wished he could tell her about his feelings for Snow since then.He is not yet ready to end their friendship because she will know he liked her, putting their friendship at risk.

He fears that she might stop hanging out with him, which is something he can't give up right now.He wanted to be by her side, look at her with his naked eyes closer than usual, and talk to her about a lot of things like he was pretending to be a lover.

"I never thought you'd actually like me; it was a little out of the question that you actually do, which is something I don't quite understand."

Sebastian said, "I just want to be real as well, I wanted to keep up with what I can do with you, and I know that it's not easy to have a relationship, so right now, I am going to court you first."

He added, "I just want to be real as well.

"He wants to treasure the realization that he has the chance to have Snow as his girlfriend. He also wanted to demonstrate to her that he is capable of carrying out his plans with her and make it happen.

"I know Sebastian, but I had no idea that you did as well.Snow stated, "Of course, you can court me as much as you want; it has nothing to do with me; I am also willing to get to know you better."

Snow was happy, but she was unable to comprehend how much happiness takes.She thought she would always have this friend, but it appears that she and he also had secret feelings for her.

They wanted to learn each other's strengths and weaknesses, and the moment they grow together, they actually make more progress in life.

"Since when did you believe that you liked Sebastian?"

"I don't know either; it just happened for a while, maybe just long enough for me to consider it."I don't want to ruin the moment, I just wanted to take my responsibilities as well," he stated.

"I don't know if it is going to be like this, I know that it will be like this, but feelings are sometimes weird I know, something that I couldn't expect to happen, it was something that I am thinking about as well."

"How about you, too?"

"I don't remember, maybe when you gave me the rose.It was strange, and I'm not sure what I was feeling at the time.Even though it was only a single rose, I felt like I was liking you more.Sebastian, I've been thinking about this lately: "I know it's a little bit hard to figure out my feelings as well, but that's what I am thinking about lately as well; my feelings sometimes shift to this and that, and I frequently have a lot of doubts as well."