Taming The Spy Alpha (18+)

Chapter 34—Carry The Flame

(Snow's POV)

~Flashback~

Talking to him is a suiting feeling, the feeling that I don't want it to end anymore. I wanted to keep it as always and I am wishing for it to continue, even though the time is not pausing at all. I know that there is a lot of impossible moments that I cannot do with my own life and that the things that I am doing is just limited. I can't help it either, I need to have a proper knowledge about how may I be able to continue what I wanted I. my own life so that I will know that it is going to be better than what it should be.

Although I am aware that this will be a heartbreaking experience, I am forced to carry out my plan for the sake of my own well-being.

I will do whatever it takes to be free; the time I spend with him is priceless, but I don't know if we will remain like this forever because that is impossible.

Sebastian is accustomed to treating me with respect, and he was aware of the lengths he would need to go to convince himself that he truly loves me.He will always make the days more special, and I am very pleased about that because he will always make me feel this way.

He has a lot of friends, but he prefers to be with me because he enjoys hanging out with me. Therefore, it is probably normal for us both to experience feelings simultaneously—feelings that we will continue to experience.

Sebastian, do you have a strategy for the future?Even though I am aware that I will not be his future wife, I still wanted to know how he was doing and how his life was going.He probably had a lot of goals he wanted to achieve, and I'm looking forward to helping him achieve them.

I have a lot of dreams, actually.I aspired to be a detective and fulfill my current ambitions.I won't care what I have to do right now; however, I have a lot of dreams, most of which include you. I wanted to be your husband and build a house of our own, and I will take care of you.We will share the challenges together and have children as a result of our love.What I wanted most was for us to be able to travel the world together and be content, try new things, and make more decisions that will benefit us as a married couple.

"To be with you, to make you happy, and to be content with everything that life has to offer us both," he said to me.

I could only see a few chances of having him, but it's upon me, as I heard that. He is sincere about his dream, which is pretty basic but certainly not accurate. I wanted to imagine about it.I'm the problem, and I might be the one who will break that dream about him.

Although I am aware that it is already difficult enough to endure this moment, I have no choice but to avoid being apathetic as well.I wanted to hear what he wanted to say, what he wanted to say, and what he wanted to accomplish in the future.He is more willing to take risks than I am, so he will undoubtedly prevail.

"Good for you, babe; I'm also hoping for that; we'll share the same dream, and we'll have to take risks with it."

"I will have to see that in the future and make sure that you will do that," I said.

"It might be a little bit difficult for us to acknowledge that, but we have to get through with it. I know that you are going to make it easier for us to solve our problems. After all, you are a detective."

Although I am certain that he will be a successful detective, I do not believe that I will be his wife or that he will be a successful detective.Because if I am prepared enough, I will end our relationship sooner or later.

I decided not to tell him today because I knew he would stop me and disagree with me.So, I've come up with a plan for when I can do it, and I'll tell him about it in a letter so he won't be able to hear it from me.I want it to be less painful for him because if I tell him about it right now, I'm sure he won't like it. I also don't want him to feel bad about what he's about to do because he knows how it will affect him and me.

"You know what? We both have a lot of dreams. Because you are already mine and I have had the opportunity to spend beautiful days like these with you, my dream has come true. I am just glad that I will be able to share this moment with my woman.After our busy days, it is satisfying to spend time together and ensure that everything is going to be alright.I am aware that you have thoughts that you do not want to let go of, but I am also certain that you are always satisfied with your life; all you need to do is make more progress with yourself so that you can spend more time being yourself."

"It's the fact of the matter that I wanted to have together with you, because you are special to me, Snow," he added.

"I will support you no matter what, and I will be here with you no matter what."

"Snow, do you know what makes things more difficult?"

"What is that?"

"Well, I am afraid to lose you; I don't know if I can handle that; it's just too hard to think about that as well; I don't want to think that it will happen; it's traumatizing enough for me; I don't want to lose you at all."Because of this, I will treat you as if you were my princess. You will be the one I will truly care for no matter what, and you will be the one who will make me happy," he stated.

Snow had no choice but to complete the task later, not on that day.She simply permitted herself to spend time with Sebastian.To avoid hurting him in any way, she would have to give up everything to increase its value; it would be a different issue if he were to be hurt just by how she treats him.

"Baby, I love you so much and will be glad to be here with you, loitering in this location," I said.It is the only thing I am currently manifesting, and how I wish this day would never end.