Taming The Spy Alpha (18+)

Chapter 17—Seek Out

Sebastian didn't know exactly what he is going to do afterwards with the moments that he is together with Snow, he know that she is just playing around or something. He thinks that he should know her more rather than making it as a game, he thinks that there is no specific rule with the things that he does together with her, he wants to be with her no matter what.

He always thought that Snow is attractive as some way, he was already falling for her, and he didn't even notice that it is already happening. He don't want to make himself feel miserable as well, it was because he knows that it will not be a good help for him, he just wanted to make himself feel better at all times, he wanted to feel intense and she is making him feel like that in some way. He also have a lot of things to mind about.

He wanted to go back to the world wherein he felt like he is free from his own misery, he don't want to make himself feel that there's a lot of sadness in his life because it's not the thing that he aims to do, he wanted to be with a woman, a Luna to begin with.

But since he knew that he had to begin with a woman that he didn't even know of in the first place, he felt like it was a big blessing to have Snow around him.

“Sebastian, if you were given a chance, will you be able to marry me in church or something? Somewhere where all of it is not a play anymore, like you'll marry me forresl without any kind of doubt, because I was really curious about it lately and I think that it's a good question somehow, I am always been thinking about it though. I hope that you will consider my feelings for you even if you are not going to love me back it's okay, it's not really that bad either way and I know that you are just having fun with your own company, no need to think badly of me as well because I know that it's not really easy to rule a company of your own," Snow said.

Snow liked Sebastian as always since their past life as his Luna.

She dedicated her life for him and wanted to get him feel that all of the moments is going well. She was happy together with him when they are still together, all of the things that they do is always been a great deal of their own, they wanted to feel that it was worthy to be in love.

“Maybe, I think that it will be a great idea to do that if I am fallen in love with a woman only. I don't have the right to say yes because you are not even mine to begin with, we are only marrying for your sake and it's not about me, that will benefit with this things, it's you who will always benefit about this, don't make me feel guilty about this because I don't think that it will help. I don't like to bother things up too with what I do, because that's just not it. If you need someone to talk to I am always here for you as your helping hand, but not someone who you can always come together with if our contract ends," Sebastian added.

He was very fierce with what he said towards Snow, he wanted to make her feel that she should not expect too much from him as it will not be a good help either way, he wanted to make her feel that there is no other way that she will make him fall for her as it is not about that, it is all about the deal. She also wanted to clarify to him about what could she possibly do to make him feel that she is open for everything else that she is going to do with her own future, she wanted to build the love that she wanted together with him and as much as possible, make an act about it and be the kind of a woman who will justify her own actions as much a possible.

“Thank you for understanding me Snow, I know that it is hard, but trust me you are going to get well with it, you know what exactly you are going to do later right? Just call me if you need something and you need to be someone who wants to improve herself with the things that the world is showing upon her, you are not going to make this moment to be put on waste, and I know that. For sure, you are happy because you will finally feel that you are always been relieved to have yourself and just be happy, “ Sebastian added, trying to feel her as much as possible. He doesn't want her to feel that she is left behind, he knows what exactly it feels to be behind with the things that he wanted to do.

Perhaps, there is a lot of adjustments that Sebastian needs to have.

The both of them lived together, Sebastian is a rich man, and he is always been a rich man with a lot of ambition inside his mind, he wanted to make her feel that she is indeed at home.

“Do you know that there is distinction with how people behave with one another? I guess that we are in that level, I don't really know but I am hoping that you will get well, you know what it is," Snow said.

“Of course, we are both married in papers, at least let us be more realistic too and find ways on how we can deal with this one, it is all about the discipline that we need to have for ourselves. We should not be discouraged too with what life is going to offer towards us because it is not going to help us at all," Sebastian added.

“I like to be realistic as always, it gives me more freedom to be the right one. I don't want to lie about other stuffs because it is not just good at all, I like to make myself feel that I am doing my best without anyone's help. I don't want to bring myself the sadness that I don't want to face as well, people need to think that it should be something that is more important for us, being able to love and being able to receive happiness from others and giving it back towards the others is a good thing,” Snow said.

"As the time goes by, you know what is the real ones and that is going to be the basis on what you should be focusing in life more, and it is your own happiness that you should fulfill as always.“