Taming The Spy Alpha (18+)

Chapter 16—Revolving Backwards

(Sebastian's POV)

I should go somewhere else far away from her, I don't know if my feelings should stay with her or not because I think that it is getting worst. I feel like there's a lot of suspicious things that she does, and I suspected her as a she-wolf.

I know that it is not really good, I know that this should not happened if I am not letting her to marry me so fast like a wind flowing by me in the streets when I walk down few meters away from my house.

I don't want to contemplate too much but it is just so depressing that I cannot tell her what I think of her. I know that she has a lot to tell me but she can't, I don't want to invalidate her feelings as well, I know that she have that kind of a good thing to have for herself and she is always been trying to be the person that will make herself feel the happiest one.

"Snow, are you doing alright?" I asked, as she was looking at me like she have something to tell me. Her looks were terrifying at the same time and I don't know what she is aiming to do with it, I don't want her to feel that I am not really impressed by what she is doing and that I don't want her to think so badly of herself, there is always distinction of how things is perceived. I don't want to be the one that will make her suffer too, so I must hear her voice and rant so that I will know what is her motive right now, I don't want to be the reason why she is not going well right now because I know how depressing it could be. I don't want her to overthink too much about it, as much as possible.

"Are you a wolf?" she asked.

The moment that she asked me, my whole body was triggered and was in fear because I didn't expected such question coming from her. Why did she knew that I am a wolf? Why is she asking me that? Does that mean that she's a she-wolf anyways? Because if that's the case, then that's the reason why the both of us can hear the senses that the both of us do, the instincts and anything else was just really distinct to each other.

I don't want to shout at her or anything, but this is the first time that a woman made me fear of her because I don't know what is her motive. I don't know if she is a hunter or a wolf too, she knows that I am not really that good at handling people but I am trying to think that maybe she is the one that will give me the time to consider it as well.

"Why are you asking me that Snow? I am not a wolf, that's crazy, why do you think that I am a wolf? That's absorb, I don't even know if I am going to think that you are out of your mind or not because I don't really know much about wolves," I said, obviously lying about it in front of her face because I don't want her to think that I am tricking her down. I know that she is a wolf, that's the case why she is asking but I don't know if she is having a second thought about it.

Maybe, she is trying to find her mate and she had me.

That's really a big coincidence because we just met in the bar and the both of us didn't even know each other.

Either way, she's always been the girl who is very weird, she asked me the first time that we met if ever I believed in God or not.

Her questions are entertaining and mind-blowing at the same time, she was a comedian as well and she knows exactly how to make you laugh.

She is always been the one who needs the time to take over into this world.

"Snow, you always ask about extraordinary questions that is very out to the world and I don't know why you are having such question inside your mind. You know me better, and you should always think that I am not really comfortable with people who asked me about the things that I don't know about."

She looked at some once again and smiled, the normal way and she was normal again without the fear that she is having for herself, I don't want her to think that I am not having it all.

"You know what Seb, I know that you are in fear, I'm just joking, " she said and laughed.

I sighed a lot as she said that, I didn't even know what to react anymore, it's just not really the moment that I am anticipating for, it is just too much already and I know that it's not normal anymore.

Being too courageous with what is happening lately, I know that she might just be joking, but it's a good thing that I didn't tell her that I am indeed a wolf, there's a wolf in me, I just used to have such kind of a secret and I am good at keeping it.

Being a wolf into this new modern world is hard, I can't even imagine myself feeling lost at any sort of ways that I can remember.

I don't want to make myself feel that I am always having the problem, that's just not healthy for me anymore. I don't know if I should make myself feel right or not, but there is something distinct that I must do.

People tend to know that there are kind of moments that they cannot believe, those are the wolves, vampires, witches and such.

But in my life, I don't know what is my past, I was just having a good time with everything else but it is not good anymore, I feel so lost.