Wild Summer

Chapter 12

One week.

It's been one week since I've seen Rome. One week since Ive been thinking about him. One week since I've seen any of them. . I didn't mind I don't feel like socializing anyways. Lila would text me and we'll go on calls and have long talks though, from time to time .You see, I have this thing where I get into, what do call this? 'Moods' I guess. Yes moods, let's call it that ,where I don't want to see or talk to anyone. All I do is stay in my room and read. I hardly eat or talk. I think Charlie was getting worried now, I even heard him talking to Mom the other night. He was whispering but I heard him.

Sighing, I roll out of bed deciding that I'll try not to be a depressed zombie today. Depressed zombie? Haha. I roll my eye at my stupid 'joke'. I head to my bathroom and stand in front of the mirror by the sink. My eyes were a dull brown. No life. I hated when this happened. My hair was a curly mess. I wasn't particularly skinny but I could see that I have lost a couple of pounds over the past week. Oh well.

Tearing my eyes from my face. I stare at my arms. I stare and stare and stare some more. Then I look away sharply and start to do my morning routine.

I wasn't particularly a sad girl. I mean I had nothing to be sad about. My dad abandoned me and now he's here again right. Yay me! My mom's awesome. I have great friends. I have money. I have a good school life. Nice house. I even have the care of my dreams. I have no reason to be this ungrateful and angry at life. What did it do to me anyway? 'Nothing' , my inner voice says.

Exactly nothing! Then why am I like this? Maybe it's because I've always felt this hallow hole in my chest. Like something was missing. Maybe someone?

Groaning miserably, I start to head down stairs after getting dressed.

"Hey Charlie", I say as bright as possible.

He looks up sharply and stares at me for about ten seconds before answering.

"Hey honey. Good morning! How are you?", he asks.

"I'm....alright", I decide to say.

"If you ever want to talk I'm here okay?", he says seriously while looking into my eyes.

"I know", I whisper.

"Come have breakfast", he says lightly.

"Going to see your friends today?", he ask sounding hopeful.

I thought for a while, maybe I should get out of the house for a bit.

"Yes I think I will", I say smiling a little.

After eating breakfast I call Lila and tell her I'm coming over.

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"Hey baby", Lila coos. She knew how I was when I was in my 'moods'. She knew what to say and what to do. That's why this girl was my b***h.

I smile. A real smile this time.

"Hi mamita", I say kissing her on the cheek.

"Ouuuuuuuuuuuu some girl to girl action!", I hear form behind Lila. Jake. Ofcourse that punk is here. Looking around Lila I see that they're all here. Jake. Emma. Sania. Kale and Rome. He was staring. Hard. His eyes travelled up my body and settled on my arms longer than necessary then they travelled up my face. Luckily I was wearing a baggy long sleeved hoodie with the words 'Suck my balls b***h' on the front. Ha yeahhh suck it.

"I'm not gay Jake. Your whole life has been a lie", I say sarcastically.

He stares. He looks so broken. Hahah

"What!", he shouts dramatically.

"But-but, but you have 'suck my balls' on your hoodie.", he says disbelief in his voice.

"So", I smirk.

"So! So?...soooo your an animal! You're unladylike. You have no manners. No respect. You kissed Lila. Your a man woman. You have to be gay",he snaps. Seems like I live to disappoint. Poor poor Jake .

Everyone burst out laughing.

"Oh come on Jake. I mean we believed her at first but after a while we concluded that she straight. She's just crazy and as you said unladylike", Emma says laughing. Rude. I'm so not unladylike.

"Well whatever", Jake snaps look long like a broken puppy. Child.

I laugh and pat him on the head.

"There, there", I coo.

"Aye girl, Lila told us you weren't feeling like your self. Are you okay?", I hear Sania say concern dripping from her voice getting all serious now. These people actually give a f*ck about me. Why though? Why would anyone for that matter care about me? Ignoring that thought, I smile sincerely.

"I'm feeling a bit better. I'll be good as new soon. After all I'm around you goons", I say playfully.

"So what's the plan for today", I ask.

"Let's just stay indoors. Watch some movies, play some video games and eat. Let's fatten you up lil mama", Lila answers looking at me from head to toe.

Such a sweetheart.

"Well alright. I'm staying over. I'll call Charlie", I mumble and start to walk away.

After talking to Charlie I head back to where the others were.

"Skii. Can we talk?".

All eyes turn to the voice. Cool and calculated. I didn't need to look to know who's voice it was. I think I'd recognize his voice anywhere.

"Sure", I say a bit hesitantly.

We both go outside. Rome stares at me for a moment. Then he says the impossible.

"Are you okay?", he asks. It was hard to tell whether he was concerned or not because his face was so...well blank.

"Yeah", I say simply. What do you care anyway? I wanted to ask but decided against it.

"Are you sure", he pressed staring into my eyes. Captivating me with those cold orbs. Dark as night yet they looked like they have seen many things. Maybe they have.

"Yes", I say.

"Show me your arm", he orders.

What! There was no way he was going to see my arm. Not like this anyways.Never. I couldn't.

"Show. Me. Your. Arm". "Now", he glares.

Sighing I raise my sleeve an inch.

"See nothing is there. What were you hoping to find?", I ask hoping he would just forget it .

"More. Raise it further up", he orders again not looking me in the eye.

I hesitantly raise it a bit further revealing tiny red marks. Well more like lines. They spread all over.

"Why", he demands now looking at me.

I quickly cover my self. Then shrug smirking.

"Be careful you actually sound like you care", I taunt playfully.

"This is serious", he snaps his voice calm not raising an inch. Impressive.

"I'm fine. It's nothing", I say and push pass him towards the others.

"Which movie do y'all wanna watch?", I ask as soon as I rented the house acting as if nothing happened. As if the boy I might possibly like didn't see right throw me. As if the someone didn't see how broken I could be. How broken I possibly was. I sat down beside Lila. I decide to rest my head in her lap instead. Much more comfortable. Shortly Rome strides in, lifts my legs up a sits down resting my leg on his lap. I froze. Everyone did. Well then. That was unexpected. I decide to ignore him.

"Well guys pick a movie", I say quickly bringing their attentions back to me.

"Let's watch Ride Along 2", Kale suggests. Ouuu I heard that this wah funny as hell.

"Yes. Great choice my man. Great choice", I say grinning. See I'm starting to feel a bit better already.