Pushing Limits

Hurt

"What are you, Cy? Are you short of food and your body is like that? I don't think that's right."

Oli irritatedly said while still having difficulty speaking because her mouth was still full of the noodles she was eating. I gave him a smile hearing his humor. Is it possible to lack food Solids?

I just shook my head and stopped smiling and proceeded in finishing the sandwich that I bought. I also can't deny that Oli is right. I also notice the change in my body because my formerly really thin body has probably become even smaller. Maybe my body is still changing at work and stress at school. It doesn't matter because I know the consequences of all this tiredness.

"Cy, I can't go home with you tomorrow, can I? Because that old man has something else to do."

He even complained while putting away what he had eaten. And I also know that the old man he is referring to is the teacher he hates who he often complains about every time we talk, because he is rude and doesn't teach but he does a lot of work. I just nodded. Oli and I don't really go home together very often because I'm always straight to the coffee shop.

"Okay class, So I've been telling you for a long time that I'll give you the requirements for this subject."

Ma’am Rodriguez cut the silence. The Philosophy teacher of our class. He said that we will group ourselves into 6 groups each as this will be our group in the project that he will give.

"Remember that this is not just a project but this will be the last requirement of mine in this whole grading. So don't make everything a game. Dismiss"

That's all he said and took the book he was carrying and left. While my classmates were quickly making noise while looking for their group mates. In such cases, I know what is happening. If there are groupings, I am often the one in charge of the missing group because no one chooses me or the teacher himself will force the groups to include me. I stayed like a rock in my seat in the hope that someone would invite me to join their group but a few minutes ago I didn't show up. So I decided to stand up and put away my belongings just to say goodbye to Ms. Rodriguez that if possible I will do the project alone.

 "Cy, you're just in our group." Said Jomar.

He was clutching his bag while his friends were behind him. I looked at his face with a smile on my face and waited for my answer. I looked around first and saw that some were leaving because maybe they already had groups. Who am I to shop and act? I'm grateful enough to have somebody welcome me in their group than the usual “alone” I am.

I happily nodded to Jomar even though some of his friends looked down on me. Especially his female friend. --- I was very tired walking down the road approaching the Solidads' house, only a short distance away I saw three cars parked in front of it.

The usual alone car of Sir Levi is now not alone. It immediately formed in my mind that it is possible that the mga Solidad. Because a car of theirs was there. I just chose to go through the "back door" so as not to disturb the guests of the Solidads because of the noise coming from there I knew immediately that I can not show a dirty look and just look intrusive.

Mother Celia and I were shocked because when I entered, she could almost drop the vegetables she was carrying. I don’t know where he came from.

"It's good that you came. Can you help me in the kitchen first because Letty is still not coming back." S

he nearly wept while saying that. I felt sorry for him because he looked really stressed with what was happening.

"All right Nana, I'll just change."

She thanked me and climbed up while carrying vegetables. I thought it was those Solids in the living room, but in the distance I saw a few faces I did not know, and Sir Levi, next to At Celest? I'm still rolling my eyes to see if what I'm seeing is right because I can't recognize Ate Celest with her new hair color now. I hurried straight up the stairs so that they would not notice me.

But when I looked back at the place where they were, Sir Levi and I caught sight of each other. It was as if I was stoned by that stare. I'm sure he thinks it's embarrassing for me to show up to guests because I look like I'm just a beggar entering the house.

 "London was so great. The ambiance was so romantic, I bet it was more great if I was with you Levi-oh"

Ate Celest's words were interrupted when I dropped the teaspoons on the plate causing it to create noise. I grew cold as I stood when I noticed that all eyes were now focused on me, I quickly adjusted it and I could hear Sir Levi's smirk. I continued what I was doing as if nothing had happened.

"So as I was saying, you guys- should be there. It was a perfect place for a couple like you. Levi is so busy."

I couldn't help but listen to what Ate Celest was saying as I was very careful about putting the glasses down on her-her place. There’s a man and a woman I’m not familiar with who are with them right now at the dinner table. The man was so serious and in a grim while the woman looks young and carefree but in her complexion and appearance it is also obvious that her status in life is not just that.

I set the glass down in Sir Levi's place which was now in his frequent position. The two hands held each other as his lips seemed to kiss it.

"Cut the crap Celest. We're here for business."

The man I didn't know said coldly and hard. Reason for me to raise my head at the tone of his speech. The woman looked pale and shocked. She smiled and laughed like she was constipated.

"Ahhh, Ate Celest Next time. Erato is also B-busy with the Company."

She look so nervous whiles saying that. And he changed the subject and Ate Celest and I talked about things that I no longer understood.

"You should rest."

That voice I heard was so faint that I looked at the source to make sure I was hearing correctly. The two of us caught sight of each other and I could hardly swallow the blockage in my throat because it looked like he was saying that. I couldn't speak and put the last glass on and Celest and left the table. WeakeningI leaned over the sink while squeezing and feeling my chest. Is it possible that your heart is hurting for an inexplicable reason?

"Hija are you okay? Are you too tired? Or he just let you rest."

I could feel mother Celia holding my arm.

"Nana Celia, I'm fine. I'll bring those."

Me, when I saw a dish he was carrying. I don’t know how many days Ate Celest has been here in Mar De Vena. I'm not used to seeing him come home alone and not with his parents. I got home exactly early today because the coffee shop was closed. Regular employees have an outing and I just didn't go because I preferred to rest.

I was also unable to hang out in front of the mansion for a long time and read a book so that’s what I did when I got home early. I saw the car stop in front of the mansion. Sister Celest's slender and perfectly shaped body was what I saw.

The new color of her hair really matters to her. He became even more mestizo and I think he looked even more beautiful in my eyes. He didn't notice me here because I was a bit covered with thick vegetation. I stared at her walking inside.

When he disappeared from my sight I turned my reflection to the window from the mansion. I looked at myself and briefly lowered the book I was holding.

Nothing has changed yet. The distance of my body to the matured body of sister Celest. Wearing a t-shirt and shorts, I looked even more skeletal in my clothes. It seemed like a sudden idea that I would stop what I was planning to do and go upstairs to change clothes.

I wore a racer back top that almost rotted in my attire. The court of my body came out but it was still not like Aunt Celest's body as if it was deliberately curved. My collar bones are even showing! I combed my hair with my fingers and squeezed my cheek and it immediately turned red.

I bit my pale lips and in the end I was just saddened by what I did. I look like a stick man, I don't seem to be doing all this on my own. I picked up my sketch pad and walked out my door. Even though it was a bit dark the hallway of the second floor I walked straight towards the office door.

 I looked up at my head there and a twinge of nervousness in my chest to see him there and seriously focused on his laptop. Before I could even think of stepping back, he saw me. I almost jumped in panic but I was no longer on my own to show up completely to him. His eyes are looking amused seeing me.

While I was embarrassed and could not look at him. I saw how his lips parted as he trail his sight towards me.

 "Yes?"

I bit my lip. I slowly walked towards him. I even watched what he was doing. But when he saw me looking at it he immediately closed his laptop and arranged his desk as if he was done with what he was doing.

"Uhm, nothing. I'll just let you see if I did it right."

He tilted his head a bit. He stood up in his chair and attempted to take the sketchpad in my hand.

 "Levi- Oh Cyreese?"

 I gasped when I heard Sister Celest's voice. Why am I here?

"Celest."

"Do you ... need something from Levi?"

"Yes-"

"None!"

I’m cutting to whatever he has to say.

"Sure you have."

Celest's face was confused as she looked back and forth between the two of us.

 "Come on let me see."

None of my own I hid the sketch pad behind me and shook. Dark eyes wrinkled his forehead at my posture.

"Well, whatever it is ... Uhm, can it wait? We have some important matters to do."

 He looks at Levi. I stopped and was stoned at what I heard. I turned to Levi and saw that he didn't seem to understand what Celest had said.

"O-okay."

I stormed my way out without looking back. I still heard Levi's weak voice but I no longer understood that. Just that day I just fell asleep and they still did not leave the office. That hurt. A bit.