Admirer

Prologue

As I walked, I kept on looking around. I'm just new to this school, so I don't know where to start.

It was so sudden. I transferred to a new school, because I couldn't take it anymore in my old school. It was so hard to fit in, there was so much bullying. Being a nerd was not really good. I don't know why, but I'm just the only one in my family who doesn't like girly stuff. Sometimes they are mistaken, that I am a lesbian, but it's okay, being a lesbian is not a crime, we are all free to, free to do what we want, as long as we don't commit any crime, free to love, and be loved.

Haytss, it was easy for us to say, but so hard to do.

We're living in a hypercritical society. That's why it's so hard, so hard to fit in.

Until now, I kept on looking around, hoping that I might see any signs. I barely see students now, maybe because some of them are now in their room.

I was about to sit on one of the benches that I saw, when I saw i girl, she was crying.

I don't know why but i just found myself walking towards her.

Maybe because I saw myself with her, when I was still in my previous school, I was always alone, lonely, no one want to make friends with me because I'm nothing, I'm just a nerd, seeking attention, for love. That's why I don't want her to experience that even though we don't know each other.

When I got close, I handed her my handkerchief. But of course it was clean.

I saw how she glitched because of shock when I handed her my handkerchief. She looked at me. That's when she accepted the handkerchief that I gave her.

"Are you okay? I mean, sorry I know that you're not." I said to her. That made me more confused.

I heard her laugh because of what I asked.

"I'm fine. My boyfriend just broke up with me."

I can feel the tremor in her voice, probably not okay.

"Your new here?" she asked me.

"Ahm yes, I've been circling around here a while back. I'm looking for principal's office." I answered.

Then something came to my mind.

"Can you show me where the principal's office is?" I asked the person who was there, and I could tell that I was suddenly feeling a little bit of a chill with her.

"It's a little bit far from here. Let me guide you to the principal's office."

I didn't say anything, I just followed her, afraid that I might be lost there.

As we walked, I looked at her face.

I can't believe that a woman who is beautiful like this will end up broken-hearted.

I can't really believe it, she's so pretty for that, she looks like a freaking goddess, not like me, her nose was beautiful, pinkish lips. I looked at her body, she had a model body. Her hair was in a bond, and also her eyes and eyelashes were nice.

"What's your name?" she suddenly asked me.

"Ryla Marie Santiago, but you can call me Ryla or Marie. Any of those two as long as it made you happy," I joked.

She laughs because of my sudden joke, and I must say that I feel comfortable with her. I think we can become close friend.

"I'm Denise Mercado." She introduced herself while she gestured her hand for a shake.

I accepted her hands and then handed them.

Not that long ago, when we arrived at the principal's office, Denise and I bid goodbye to each other, because she had a class to attend, but before she left, she told me that we were both in 12 grade, but her strand was ABM.

I'm happy to know that they were in the same grade.

I knocked twice before entering. As soon as I entered, the principal smiled at me, I looked at the name plate hanging on the right side of her principal's uniform.

Mrs. Marquez

I read it noiselessly.

"You must be the transferee." she said and motioned me to sit in the visitor's chair.

"Yes Mrs Prinipal."

When Mrs. Marquezz told me all the rules and regulations here in my new school, she gave me everything I needed. After that she said that I can go out now to find my room, not far from here.

While walking in the hallway, I heard a voice, a man's voice, and he was singing.

Heart beats fast colors and promises

How to be brave?

How can I love when I'm afraid?

To fall watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

When I heard that song, I immediately followed the voice of the man. I know who sang that song and I know who the girl sang that. I don't know that it caan be that good when a man sings that song.

One step clooooseerrr

I have died every day waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid i will find you

When I got close, I saw a man, not just an ordinary man, a Greek God, he was so handsome, his jaw line was in a good shape, those eyes of his that maybe many women would faint just to let those ayes stared at them, and her lips, oh s**t they looked so f*****g nice.

How can a man be so handsome yet a nice singer?

For a thousand years I loved you for a thousand moreeee

I'm just quite on this side, silently admiring him, enjoying his voice until he finishes the song.

I hurriedly leave that place when I notice that he was now fixing all of his things, and about to leave, being afraid of getting caught. I hurriedly leave that place without looking back.

I just continued finding my room. Not that long when I saw it, then i walked fast to get in.

The students and teacher inside that room directly notice me.

"Who are you?" I guess this is our teacher.

"I'm the new student ma'am." I respond respectfully.

"Okay, introduce yourself."

I hastily go in front of the class to introduce myself even though I'm a bit nervous.

"Hi, I'm Ryla Marie Santiago. You can all call me Ryla or Marie. Just call me any of those two, which will make you all comfortable."

They were clapping together. As a sign that they accepted me as a classmate.

For me.

So, it's her? I thought she was kind of pretty.

Ugly Nerd

Look at her outfit, she looks like a lesbian.

I heard them whispering to each other.

I thought they would accept me. I thought it was normal for me to hear that. I thought I'm used to it. But I'm still hurt

I sat there at the back to not get more attention.

I'm not really an introverted person, I'm actually a talkative person, but only to my close friend or family, although i don't have friends.

I was silent. Until the end of class in the morning, I was silent. The voice of that man always lingered on my mind.

And I can only say one thing.

I will be his biggest fan if the time comes that he will be a famous singer.

I will admire here silently.

I'll be one of his many admirer.