FORGIVE ME

whispering

Bella p.o.v

The bags I was carrying was very heavy , damn I felt my whole body is paining because of last night.

If there was another girl , she would have cried and curse her fate but I cannot even do that , after all the things I have done , I don't think God will ever forgive me for my sin .

I was just few distance away from the grocery store when I heard a little girl voice calling me out .

" Hiee excuse me mam " I turned around at the voice and saw the little girl whom I was fighting for a chocolate for no reason ran after me .

I narrowed my eyes at her and saw her father was standing at a distance as she ran toward me.

" Your chocolate" she said breathlessly.

" What " I asked her not harsly but my tone wasn't polite .

" Your chocolate mam " she offered me the chocolate.

Why the hell this little spoil girl have to be cute .

" Didn't you wanted it " I asked curious.

" I did " She look at the chocolate innocently then look back at her father than at me .

" Abbu said we shouldn't fight over things , Allah S.w.t loves those people who give up argument so here take it " She smiled showing me her cute dimples .

To the say truth I was surprised hearing her say these words to me , I cannot believe a child like her age can talk with so much maturity.

I was speechless.

" Umm it's okay , you take it I won't mind " I told her a smile crept on my lips unknowingly.

" Really " Her big brown eyes widen with happiness.

I shrugged  and turn to walk away " Thank you " I heard her say .

Maybe she is not a spoil brat kid after all .

I didn't turned around just walk away from her.

BASHIR P.O.V

" Abbu " She ran toward me and I pulled her in my arms.

" Abbu see she gave up the chocolate " My princess smiled brightly at me.

" You are happy " I asked her.

She nodded several times " Then it's enough for me " I kissed her cheek and walk toward my car and took her home .

BELLA P.O.V.

I reach my home or the place where I get punish for my sin everyday , I shook my head and sigh , I grab the keys from my purse and got inside.

The home was empty , He is not home which means I can have some peace for a moment .

I put the grocery at the fridge then I made coffee for myself and went inside my room , I stand in front of the window as Blake  memory flash in front of my eyes.

I was standing in my luxurious Apartment as Blake walk in holding two mug of coffee for both of us .

" Thinking about me beautiful " He whispered in my ear as I shiver at our closeness.

I turned around and saw him holding two mug of coffee for me while giving me a breathtaking smile.

My heart skip a beat at his smile .

" As a matter of fact , yes I am thinking about you " I took the mug from his hand .

He put the mug on the table and hug me from behind " And what are you thinking about me "

I turned around and faced him " That how can I be so lucky to have you " I whispered and kiss him .

He smiled at me " Promise me that you won't leave me " I asked him .

" I promise " .... He smiled and deepen our kiss .

I closed my eyes at the memory, I wanted those memory to stop but instead someone eles face flash in front of my eyes and the mug from my hand left and broken into pieces.

Guilt erupted in my chest as I started feeling suffocated, her eyes , her eyes were haunting me from 2 years I wanted to kill myself .

I grab my hair as I sat down .

" You are a curse to me "

" I wish you haven't born "

" Go away "

" You are a murderer "

" You will never be happy "

All those voices started whispering in my ear making me insane .

" Stop " I whispered.

" You were a cursed to me "

" Stop " I grab my hair so tight that I felt it will come our from my scalp.

" You are a murderer"

" I  wish you were never born "

"STOP "

" STOP "

" STOP"

I screamed as I started breathing heavily.

" Someone help me, please someone help me , I will die please save me save me Blake please come back save me I drowning, save me " I cried getting desperate as I curled on the floor like a kid.

THIRD P.O.V.

Bashir tucked Amira to bed as she sleep soundly, He kissed her forehead and slowly walked out from her room.

He went back to his room and prayed his Isha prayer .

He would have gone to masjid but He cannot leave Amira alone .

 Noor constantly poking her to get married but he doesn't want to He is scared that what if that women won't love Amira like a daughter He cannot bear Amira to suffer in pain , may be He will hire someone to take care of Amira .

He prayed for his daughter, his friends , his family , and He prayed to Allah for all the suffering souls and prayed that Allah forgive all of us since Allah is the most forgiving Allah forgive everyone who repents sincerely for they sin even though there sins are higher than a mountain.

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