Seeing double

7 YearsAgo

"Please don't do this!" i screamed but he didn't listen. a fist to the fact and a knee to the stomach.

"You made me do this. You lied to me!" he hissed into my ear "You were seen coming out of the hospital, with HIM!"

"It isn't what you think! Yes i was there with him..." all the air left me with the next kick to the side, i dropped to floor shaking and crying. "I didnt... I wasnt... Its not what you think"

"Its not what i think is it not" He got down to my level and his face came earily close to mine, i looked away and dropped my head. Burning pain spread across my scalp as he yanked my hair to violently twist my face to his, "Explain to me why you felt the need to go to the hospital with HIM when I am your boyfriend? Thats MY baby your carrying not his!" spittle landed on my face but i tried my best not to flinch at the sensation or at how close his face was to mine the feral look in his eyes made me cower and he yanked on my hair again and this time i felt a rip.

"Your hurting me. Please stop" I whimpered "I told you my appointment was for then and you didn't listen you told me it was just routine and that you wouldn't take the time off work to go to a mundane routine appointment. So my brother got his friend to take me. That's what you saw" i was trying my best to not panic and control my breathing but i couldn't stop the whimpering and my hand went to my belly instinctively.

"Why was his f*****g hands on you?!" he all but screamed at me as he pulled me right into his face before throwing me down to the floor, he got up and started pacing around in front of me. I curled into a ball trying to be as small as possible while he was like this. "ANSWER ME!" i flinched and screamed as his foot landed in my side again. "f*****g answer me".

I slowly pushed the upper half of my body up despite my whole body screaming at me "I called him. I was getting the scan and the nurse turned the screen away and went quiet." I sobbed then i couldn't hold it back anymore "She left and while she was away i tried to call you 10 times."

"Don't blame this on me" he seethed, i flinched "I'm not. im not. But i called my brother and he called Jake because he was at work at the hospital. He came in the room at the same time as the nurse, she looked at me. And i could tell. I could just tell something was wrong." i was sobbing and my body was screaming at me to stop as the pain and sobbing was making it hard to catch my breath. He looked at me as if he was bored so i carried on. "She appologised. She said the baby isn't developing properly. It has developed without a skull. I cant remember the name of it but she's sending me to a specialist." i almost whispered the whole thing. It hurt my heart to think the baby i wanted for so long. The baby i thought we both wanted for so long wasn't going to make it. I sat there for a long time, waiting. For what i wasn't sure but then as i started to move he came for me. I screamed and tried to scramble out of his reach but he got me and tackled me to the floor. He started hitting me everywhere and eventually i was numb to the pain. The pain of his hits. The pain of his words.

"You're useless. You cant give me a child you're f*****g defective. If the baby wasn't supposed to be terminated i would get rid of it now myself." That was all i heard before everything went black, and i descended into sweet sweet nothing.