Hate me, love me, kiss me

Chapter 2: Hate me

I've been in and out of consciousness, most times I can't seem to stay awake for more then two minutes. I don't really remember much of what happened or why I'm here. Some times I feel like my body is going to overheat, or a million fire ants are chomping at my skin. Today is one of those days, I can't stop itching the surface of my skin, but I feel like it's deeper than just the surface- like it's in my blood, or deeper, the cells in my body- no, even deeper, my DNA feels like each one is being broken into shreds. I can feel my body screaming but I don't hear anything, not clearly.

"She's burning up!" The muffled voice says. I felt cold hands wrap around my arms,

"Hold her down." After a few minutes of those cold hands, I stop feeling the vibrations of my screaming. I think I've finished.  

I open my eyes, but I still can't hear anything. I look around, I'm tired of sleeping, please let me be awake a little longer. Stetson has his hands in his pockets looking out the large window, his hair is a mess. 

"Stetson." I tried saying- but it's a bit hard when I can't hear myself. He turns around and smiles, his mouth moves but no sound- am I deaf? I point to my ear and shake my head- he nods and mouths "O". He takes his hand and grabs something out of my ear- suddenly the room fills up with noise. I can hear the hustle and bustle in the hallway, the intercom overhead, the birds chirping and stetson asking, 

"How are you doing?" I chuckle. A tear falling from my eye,

"I can't move my legs, or my hip." I said. I look at him with tears swelling in my eyes,

"Am I dying?" Carter leans his head down, that is all the conformation I need. 

*Glass shattering* I look over at the door and notice carter with a bouquet of flowers, that's when I notice a set of flowers to the left of me. How long have I been here? The glass was a vase he was holding, why did he break. 

"Tell me it isn't true." Carter said. 

"What are you doing here brother?" Stetson says in a rough voice. My heart was racing, don't fight here, please. I felt a sting in my heart, sh*t don't do this now, I want to be awake a little longer. I felt the surface of my skin hitting up again, but I tell myself I'm not ready. 

"Stop!" I yelled, trying to fight this pain. 

"It wasn't Carters fault. It was my own-" I started screaming when the burning got to intense, my head was throbbing. I began crying and I could feel the veins in my neck locking up- please stop! 

...

A few days later 

I once again woke up without any noise in my ears, I take out the things in them- they're ear plugs. I throw them away from me. I look down at my legs. Move, come one, wiggle a toe or something! I throw my arms down and give out, why won't they move? 

"I'm so sorry." Carter says. I look up at him, how long has he been standing there? Even though he lured me out past the barrier, I really thought I was going to help them escape. Instead I was deceived into a torture chamber. Somehow, I'm not mad. Not even the slightest with him, I just want him to forgive himself, this is the most emotion I've ever seen from Carter. He's always so, mad not once have I ever seen a real smile from him. I reach my hand out to touch him face, make him feel like he isn't alone. He grabs my hand,

"Why won't you just hate me already?" He asks.

"Because, no one deserves Hate, carter. Not even you." He shakes his head,

"If only you knew half of the things I've done to you, you wouldn't say that." He says. I don't believe him, I know he's a good person, eventually everything that he has done will catch up to him. Right now, I like this side of him, the vulnerable, kind man that shows how much he cares. I don't know how much longer he will be like this so I want to take in as much as I can.

 I could hear footsteps running in the hall, Carter drops my hand and turns towards the window. I saw Alan's head peak around the corner, I've wondered where he was. His chest moving rapidly, has he been running this whole time? He smiles and struts in here making me laugh. Until he sees Carter, every muscle in his body tenses, he asks the same things Stetson did.

"Don't Alan. You have no Idea how much he's hurting. He knows what he did was his own act of selfishness. Leave it at that." His eyes are telling me everything I need to know, everything I've heard before. 'You don't know the real us'  I know I don't. Doesn't give them the right to pick on each other, they were there being tortured because of me. Stetson could have had his mark removed from his neck if I didn't get there. It was my fault he was there in the first place. 

Alan talks with me, avoiding a subject that I don't know about. I begin fidgeting with my hands thinking about recent events. A thought comes in my head and my mouth finds it a good time to ask,

"Why are you looking for the ring?" I ask. I look at Alan, there was many reasons I'm sure. I don't even know what is so important about this artifact. I mean I've heard what it can do but I haven't heard Why people are looking for it. 

Alan sits in silence and I do to, this is the longest I've been awake- the nurses come in and poke me with a few needles, pinch my feet -which I can't feel-  and ask me what my pain level is. Right now, out of ten, a 7. I constantly feel hot. I mean, I know I am, just not that kind of hot.  It is the evening, I can see the city lights, which aren't that many, and think about my new life. 

"I'm turning 18 in August." I said. I graduated High school early, I had all A.P (advanced placement) classes, I had well over enough credits so I graduated with the seniors. It came as a surprise when Alan jumps on my lap and lays down. His wolf form is just as beautiful as his human form.  I begin to pet his white fur while looking out the window, this is nice- I can't feel how heavy he is so it doesn't bother me. He begins to lick my hand, which made me curious. 

"If my Body is filled with those wolves poison, can't you just suck the poison out like you did before?" He shook his head,

"I cast off my Impelling from you. Also means I can't protect you, even if I tried to suck the poison it wouldn't do anything. That's why I asked if you were sure." He told me, communicating telepathically.  I lay my head back on the pillow, I ask him how long I've been here and his words sent me in tears. I've been in here for a month.

Alan lays with me throughout the night when another heat wave comes over me. He jumps down and transforms in the chair, eventually running to get a nurse. When will this nightmare be over?

...

C R U E L T O M E 

The nurses all help to get me from my bed to a wheelchair, told me it's lovely outside, I believe them. They push me out of my room and into the garden which isn't too far from my room. The door opens with a push of a button, and I'm pushed into the garden, the nurse walks away and I ask if she can blur the windows so no one sees I'm in here. It surely is a beautiful day. 

I look around the garden, they made a creek in here? How interesting. I look down at the roses to my left, they've bloomed so beautifully. I go down to pick one, the nurse forgot to lock a wheel, the wheel chair rolls out from under me and I fall over. I hold the rose in my hand, dammit. I tried to pull my self up, but I can't move my hip, or my legs. I just lay back down my hand meeting the concrete out of anger. I look up to see if there was a camera in here, there isn't. I notice a lady in the corner of my eye and sigh, thankful she's here. I was about to ask her a question when I saw her face,

"Mom?" I ask. She smiles and bends down, grabbing my arm, pulling me up. How is she here? I saw her body being buried at the funeral, along with Dad. She walks me back to the wheelchair, she places me in it and begins to walk away,

"Wait! Where are you going, don't leave me!" I cried. She puts her index finger to her lips and disappears. My chest moves rapidly, I can feel another heat wave coming- then it just disappears. I grab a hold of my wheels and stroll to the door. What just happened?

I sit in a regular chair and eat the lunch they brought. I haven't had any visitors and it's almost one. I wonder what the Davis brothers are up too. I open the jell'o cup and begin to eat it. 

"Serenity, put that cup down right now." I get startled and nearly drop the jell'o everywhere. I turn and see my mother again. What the hell is happening? My hands are shaking, is she a ghost? Why can I see you mother? I've missed her so much. 

I put the Jell'o cup down, I remember how she used to be- a very strict no sugar diet for all of us. I place my napkin on the top of my plate signaling that I'm done. She walks in my direction and plays with my hair. I shake my head and ask,

" I thought you were dead. What are you doing here?" She smiles,

"It's your birthday, your of age now." I smile and shake my head, 

"What does that mean?" She kisses my forehead. She grabs my hand and places something in it. She begins to walk away again. This time, I know she's a ghost r something. Like the series 'star wars' how every time a Jedi dies they appear at the end of the movie as 'spirit' beings. That's what this feels like. 

I open my hand and look down at the necklace, it's a glowing teal light in a ball. What is this? It's beautiful? I heard in the room something whispering at me.

"Don't ever take it off, it will protect you from those that want you. You are different." Different? Different how? I put the necklace around my neck and hide it under my shirt- will it glow through this? I forgot today was my birthday, I always forget. I can be too busy at times to think about it- what a gift from my Dead mother. I wonder where she got it. 

Today has been slow, I feel like I've been in here for a year. I constantly stare at the necklace wondering what it has to offer me. Out of no where my leg starts to tingle, I get excited and repetitively push the call button. Three nurses rush into my room. I keep yelling at them that something is happening, I can feel it tingling. They get excited and call the doctor, the doctor pokes in spots, it hurts- and that's a good sign. I nearly cry tears of Joy. Was it because of this necklace? 

I can't wait to go home, well, sort of. I don't ever want to be alone in that house again, I just have no Idea where the brothers are. I remember telling Alan about where I think the ring is, could he be following that lead? 

I remember it being at my Grandmothers home, but not even I remember where that is. I walk down the cool street, I may have persuaded the nurse to let me take a walk downtown for a little while. The evening is so beautiful when no ones out. Just the air, me, and the traffic lights blinking red. I put my hands in my pockets, it feels so nice to walk again. I walk by a giant house hoping it might trigger a memory but I have got nothing. I walk by a few more and still nothing.

I ended up at the nursing home my grandmother used to be, they might have a record or something I could use.The slider doors open and I am consumed by a bright light- so I close my eyes and blink a few times. The second slider doors open. I walk up to the front desk and hang my head over staring at the files right in front of me. This almost seems to easy, everyone gone like this, the bright lights, not having to push a button. Where am I? I look up on the wall, what used to be a bright wallpaper is now a beige color- the white being pulled away. What the fu- a bell rings on the counter and a wheelchair rolls itself from the storage closet. The place begins to tip and I hold onto the desk, which has now turned into a brown leather chair. A giant hole emits from the side and enormous winds wreck this place apart, I look down and the whole is now eating parts of the house. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING? Out of nowhere everything stops and I fall to the side of the house. Furniture falling towards me, I scream and move aside. 

I get up and walk down on the side of the house, this once bright place turned dark real quick. I begin to hear echoed screams down the hall,

"Hello?" I called out. 

The one thing I never thought I'd be saying, especially watching countless horror movies. I look through each opened door, beds are flipped and blood painted on walls. Where am I? 

Finally, I reach the end of the hall and notice the name on the wall,  Terri Jackson. I glide my hand over her name tag and enter her room. She has drawings all over the wall, symbols, names, and the ring in the center of it. I could hear breathing behind. I saw Nan on her knees breathing heavily as she holds her chest. A heart attack?

"Poison." She said. Can she hear me? 

I walk over to her and try to touch her but my hands fall right through her. I watch her fall over and suppress my gasp by covering my mouth with my hands. A  warm tear falls down my cheek and onto my shirt. 

"Come here child." She says, I'm assuming to me. She smiles and looks at me,

"You've come of age now. What you just did was peal apart the layers of a false reality exposing what this place was really like. It was being run by demons, this place is killing off people like us." I shake my head, my brother told me she died peaceful, but he probably didn't even know. I felt another tear down my cheek. I'm glad I get to see her go and say good bye.

"Nan, What is happening to me? Why am I able to see all of this?" I was interrupted by a door being thrown in my direction, something with red glowing eyes laughs and everything slows down.

"Go, and take this. Never come back and always keep your head up my dear. You are always protected, follow your heart but also, never trust anybody. Don't let a single soul touch that ring." I look down at her hand as she gives me the ring. I kiss her forehead for that moment she is physically with me. No wonder why this place is so desolate, it isn't really here. 

I run as fast as I can through a door my Nan made, everything falling apart around me. I can hear that thing behind me, feel it's footsteps on the ground. I see the double doors just a head of me and I bolt. I touch my hand on the glass and everything returns back to the white room I was in. I look around, whoa. I quickly exit the building and down the stairs. I look down at the ring, this is the exact ring I saw in the picture- the band wrapped around the ladies finger. Was that Lady my Grandmother? 

I slip the ring inside my boot, making sure it hits the bottom. I bring my long blonde hair into a ponytail and walk back to the hospital. 

Walking back I realize that I might not be as different than the rest of the world around me. I realized that, I'm- I'm not the person I thought I was.