Hate me, love me, kiss me

Closing in on little wolf pt.1

I've decided to go with a university right here in Connecticut, home of the huskies. I asked Alan to drive me while Ryan goes out to find the queen. I rest my head on the window, what did she mean by follow my heart? Alan grabs my hand, and shocks me.

"You've been in your head for awhile, is everything okay?" I look at him and smile. Follow my heart? When I look at him it flutters and I want to be with him, like all the time. 

"Break your compulsion." I said. I thought when he told me to remember that he broke but he didn't, because I only remember what he said, but I want to feel my feelings for real. He pulls over and looks at me, what are you thinking Mr. Davis? He looks in my eyes,

"Are you sure?" he asks. I nod my head, I want to feel these feelings on my own terms. He coughs and leans his hand over the steering wheel, he doesn't look like he wants to, he knows he needs to. I've known him for almost six months now. He turns his head and looks me in the eyes, I'm getting lost and every time I do, I feel like I'm willingly staring into the abyss of his eyes. 

"Serenity, you no longer need to be persuaded by my gaze. I will not from here on out not be able to impel you. You are now free from any compulsion I have put you under." He said. When he looks away I felt like the cage on my chest has been lifted, I feel like a bird that has been set free. I grab his face and kiss him, a longer kiss- except it was the excitement I once felt. Don't get me wrong, I love him but for some reason the palpitations in my heart stop. When I pull away I sit back in my chair and fake a smile. What happened just now? That was- awkward. He continues to drive, what the hell. 

We tour the University, especially the huge gymnasium. It holds 10,000 people, if my parents could see me now, would they be proud of me, or hate me? I grabbed Alan's hand as the thoughts of my parents came up. I miss them so much. I meet with volleyball coach Mrs. Rogers for a few hours, get sized for my uniform and practice with her to see which spot would support me in my volleyball career. I felt distracted, but I'm so pleased and blessed to be here at this school this summer. She's letting me practice while the camp is going on, I was to late in making a decision to get a free ride for the camp, but I'm allowed to use the gym when they're not. Alan sits on the top bleachers, watching me, why do I feel uncomfortable.

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L O V I N G Y O U

I was Invited to Alan's home for the first time since Simon showed up, granted, I never went inside. When he opens the door the first scent I picked up was dog. But he clicked a button when we got in the house and the Ac turned on.

"Don't be fooled- it's a powerful air freshener system." I giggled. That's actually clever. But does it affect the way he smells? I mean don't wolves have a powerful scent? I know some wolves can track food from a few feet under the ground. I try and shake the thought of it from my head, I'll confuse myself if I think about it too much. I place my bag on the table taking in the images of this house very carefully. it is a pretty big house, but I don't see any beds.

"Do you even sleep?" I open the fridge, 

"or eat?" He shakes his head, 

"This house is only meant for Carter, Stetson and I. Were all potential Alphas, we don't have the time or energy to think about that." I nod my head and close the fridge. This house is in need for a serious upgrade, a fresh paint job, maybe some bright colors as well. 

"but If I stay here, I'm going to need a place to stay... and eat." I said. He walks over to his counter and grabs a pair of keys.

"I won't allow you to stay here Serenity. It's too dangerous." I don't know if I was offended, or hurt, or both. I pick up my bag, so why did he let me come here. 

*phone beeps* My eyes widen, 

"I'm sorry I have to go." i said. I know he wanted to show me something but I have to go. 

"AND DON'T FOLLOW ME!" I yelled running out of his house and down the drive way. 

I run up the stairs of my house and look out my back patio, got him. I open my backdoor and see a wolf in the trap I left it. I know, I know, animal activist don't like animal trappings but, this has to be the one. I bought surveillance cameras in my home so I could know when someone- or something- was at the house. I brought it inside and set it free on the couch. 

I know what you are, just transform. But it doesn't, can it even hear me?  I notice it pacing around, is it trying to show me something? I open the back door and it runs out, but turns around last minute and looks at me. I never noticed it's color in full, but it is a gray wolf- it looks so similar to Stetson.  It begins to run in the direction. My first reaction is to follow it, I run so fast that I begin to catch up with it. We go further and further into the woods until I reach the barrier. 

"I can't go any further." I said calmly. 

"Yes you can Serenity." I heard in my voice, I squint my eyes to see if someone was nearby, but they weren't. 

"He needs you." The deep voice said again.  I place my hand through the barrier once again. It feels like every single molecule in my body is dancing- it hurts and then it doesn't. The blue barrier around my house opens for a split second, I find myself on the other side, for the very first time- how did I do that? The wolf growls and runs further into the woods, I do too. 

The wolf stops at a dark and horrifying place, I'm surrounded by nothing now, nothing but the woods and probably a few hundred wolves. I walk up to the house that has wet leaves surrounding it. Is that a creek near by? The wolf touches my hand with it's nose. 

"Welcome little wolf." A man says with a very strong accent- I can't place it. I turn my head to face him- my first reaction was to bow. He looked like royalty, my body begins to tremble. No. Not him again, please no. 

"Very well Carter. You may go. You have fulfilled you sentence." Carter? I stare at the gray wolf turning black- with emerald eyes. How could he? This man I'm pretty sure is at fault for killing my parents, almost killing me- now that he's dragged me out this far I can't go back now.