My heart was beating wildly in my heart, I could no longer control its frequency anymore.
“You, you can’t do this, we, we just…..” I stammered, I don't know how I can convince him. “This is just a marriage of convenience, we don’t need to do anything, if you’re craving a woman’s touch….. you can get it somewhere else, not me”, I continued.
I haven’t even told anyone i was slept with a stranger and that i don’t remember his face or the moment, I felt like I was r***d, my virginity was taken from me. Thinking of that time, I felt a little scared, I was really afraid of doing that kind of thing with a man again, Just the thought only of someone touching me terrifies the f**k out of me, I don’t think I’d ever be ready for that.
He didn’t say anything to me, he stared at me with a glimmer of
