FREEDOM

3

After school

I purposely waited for the other children to come home and waited in class. There was something I wanted to make sure beforehand. It's been a long time since I went to school here. Exactly a month I have been here, mingling with other students, having many acquaintances and teachers of various characters. And another thing that made me more curious, the cardboard box containing the stationery in the cupboard that I mentioned earlier. I looked back at the box, took the book I had seen before.

'03 April, rain. Today I went home early. I didn't want to go home. The other friends also chose to go home. I think we can have fun together. Am I going too far? Am I the only one who is excited about getting to know them? Is it too greedy to think that you will continue to be with them? I don't want to separate and come back alone.. '

'May 06, there is an upperclassman that I'm interested in. At that time, he and a friend carried a ladder to the barn, on a sunny morning. His face in the light that made me focus on him, 'so handsome' I thought. But can someone like him accept a geeky girl like me? Short and uninteresting. But holding back is not what I like' I smiled subconsciously, this person is so sincere when he loves someone.

Wait- I've never even been in love. How can I be sure it's love? I read the next page again. Ahh.. This time there is no date.

'I miss them, my brothers.. They really feel far away. It's my fault.. it's my fault, right? Until they chose someone else as a role model, they never listened to me. Of course, I was the one against them... the first time, I lost them... '

'I tried, damn it! I'm trying... as best as I can, as best I can. But he wants more from me, leveling a generation.. can't you. .think about my feelings a little? Can't you see I'm trying to help you? Is it all meaningless? Why do you keep setting me a bad example, as if everything I have is only negative? It hurts so much..'

'From now on, the sky won't continue to be cloudy without rain, thunder on a sunny day or endless downpours. Thank you Lord, you are always by my side. Sorry for continuing to disobey your orders, I don't want to ask for more. But can you make my heart stronger? To keep all this heartache to myself, You have taken my hearing you, but my heart can still hear things I never wanted to hear'

'Lord, stop nightmares like that. Although this heart feels crushed by his words, it hurts when something bad happens to him. He who usually worries about other people has no one to worry about. I still can't stop loving him. I won't complain anymore about how he treats me, I'll go back to how I used to be. Assuming all of that is my provision so that this heart is not easily influenced, please... take care of him always.'

That's the last story on this record, or you could say it's like a diary. But really, her feelings... have been conveyed to me. I returned the book to its place and took another book, looking for interesting reading again.

'Thank you for living all this time, you've been through a lot by yourself. Thank you, thank you very much. Because it has made me have several people who can relieve my anxiety for a moment, people who make me give up everything that I have just to stay together. I'm so happy..'

TESS!

'Eh?! Why..'

I touched my watery eyes. We were weird. I don't understand. It feels very sad here. My chest is also a little tight. I had better go home now.

"Mia Ichika, it's okay... you've struggled, wherever you are now. I hope you're happy, and later we can meet.. I don't mind giving a part of my life to you"

I said, unconsciously talking to the box, then went out of the class and chose to go home soon. Zen, your life is only in your father's hands. You forgot about it.

***

"Ed, have you ever been in love? How did it feel? Do you think love can come even if they never met?" Zen said to the person who was busy preparing the dinner.

"You don't usually talk about things like that, Zen. Did someone catch your eye at school?" Said a man who had just arrived,

"Bonne nuit ma chere~" Sentarou immediately kissed Zen on the lips after a flash.

Please note, overseas has become commonplace with a scene like this, so don't be too shocked and think all kinds of things OK?

"Ahh, dad, when did you arrive? Why didn't you tell me?!" Zen said, a little surprised by the arrival of his father.

Well, don't go to the father who is the other person who is just silent with a slightly sullen face, making Ed, who was with his father longer, just smile knowingly.

Zen could only sigh, "Welcome, Daddy.." A short kiss landed on his father's cheek.

"Zenn! I miss you so much!" The father said hysterically, ignoring the fact that he was now out of character. //it's not the father that's the problem, the author's the one who's the problem_-// Sentarou throws a lot of kisses on his son's face, overwhelming the son.

"Enough pa.. I want to eat, ugh.." Even though the child was uncomfortable,

Sentarou still kissed him, of course, because they had not been together for a whole month. Is it natural that Sentarou misses his son so much?

As the kiss started to creep up his neck, Zen pushed his father's face away to stop him. Taking a tissue to wipe his slightly wet face due to his father's actions, he sighed tiredly. This always happens. Zen couldn't do anything if his father didn't want to listen to him. Even so, Sentarou is still a father figure for him, so he can do nothing but provide fanservice to an author who is in a moral crisis.