SHADOWS OF THE PAST

Chapter 11

I can safely say, I'm a miserable man. Cavin has been coming to check on like I'm a mad man.

Currently he's in the kitchen doing God knows what, I tried looking for her the morning after she left, but I didn't find her. I knew if Lukas was with her he would have came to tell me off, it's been a week and yet nothing. Valery came here yesterday and I swear to God I almost strungled her. I was so close I'm afraid I don't know what held me back, I think she realised I was serious, she was scared but good, she needs to be scared.

I know how conniving she can be, now I understood what Bella meant when she said I didn't deny my love for her, unfortunately, she doesn't understand. Valery might be my first love, but she's my past for a reason, she's the reason Bellas father is dead, she cried r**e and like a foolish love struck puppy, i went to her resque, unknown that it was a plot, and now I'm paying the price.

"dude, come on. Clean yourself up"

He said throwing the empty can of beer in the trash can. I don't care how I look. Until I have her back in my arms, I won't ever be okay.

I lost her once, I know how miserable it is, but it hurts now because I'm actually innocent, but how do I even begin to prove it when there's a supposed child on the way, yes she came here bragging about how she's pregnant and all that s**t she said. A

"f**k!"

"n****r come on, you think she would want to see you like this?"

"if she wanted me, she would have came back"

As if on cue, my phone rang, I looked at it and didn't answer. It rang again but I didn't answer.

"would you answer that" I tossed it over to him, I'm not picking anything up. If it's not mibellas calls.

"hello...." he answered.

"who is this?" I obviously couldn't hear the end of the the call so I rested my head on the couch and closed my eyes, this had been my bed because I can't sleep in our room, I get nightmares, I see her in my dreams walking away from me. And I can't put myself to sleep in our room without her next to me, I can't.

"ooh, hold on" he walked towards me "man, I think you gonna want to take this"

I slapped his hand away "I told you I don't want to talk to anyone man"

"carl-"

"dude-"... "Travis -" I swear I heart stopped for a second.

I quickly stood up and grabbed the phone.

"baby?"

"Travis I need you?" her voice broke at the end, hearing her crying hurt me, but then again, I'm hearing her voice for the first time in almost a week, I don't know how to feel.

"baby what's wrong" I'm already on my feet heading to our bedroom to put some shoes on.

"I need you please"

"baby you know you don't have to ask twice, where are you?"

"net care"

I stopped dead on my tracks trying to digest what she said. I was about to ask what wrong when she spoke.

"I need you please" then she hang up.

I found myself driving like a maniac with cavin busy shouting at me to slow down while he dialed Lukas' number.

"he's not picking up, damnit de Luka, slow down man"

"don't tell me to slow down damnit, my wife is in the hospital so don't tell me s**t okay"

"we'll, technically... She's not your wife because."

"f**k you, you dont need to remind me of that, I f****d up, but I'm going to make it right"

I parked at the entrance and ran to the receptionist.

"hey... I'm looking for Isabella de Luka, I think she was admitted?"

She typed her name in the system.

"I'm sorry we don't have anyone by that name"

"try Jenkins, Isabella Jenkins?"

She typed.

"yoh man, I'm glad you here" I turned and April and Jeff were here.

"shes in the ICU section man, she needs you" I felt myself turning cold.

I dint even ask where that was, I went for the stairs and rang, if you ask me why I didn't take the elevator I couldn't possibly be able to answer you. After a flight if stairs, I finally made it to the ICU Unit.

I was about to ask the receptionist where she was when I saw a person that looks like her standing on the passage hanging her head. She looked to be in distress.

"Bella?" I slowly walked towards her.

She raised her head and looked at me, her eyes read, dimming the blue in them. She rang to me and threw herself on.

"it's okay baby, it's okay I'm here"

"Travis I'm scared, I'm so sacred"

I could feel my t-shirt getting wet, she was crying but what is wrong.