I plopped myself on the grass below as I looked at the sea before me. I walked for about ten minutes. I had intended to walk to the trees but an invisible rope inside my chest kept pulling me to return to the house. My chest grew tighter with every step I took until I just couldn’t move another step.
I looked behind me to see how far I had walked. Although the house was still in view I had walked a good distance. But the line of trees was still probably half a mile ahead of me.
I felt so ashamed of how I have been acting. Yes, I was a virgin and had barely experienced anything sexually adventurous. Maybe some of me was gay because I had never felt attracted to women before. Ella captivated me. Not just her amazing talent as a painter but her personality as well. But I feel equal attrac
