CATALINA Miguel wanted me to leave him alone. And that I will. He has always been like this, just when I think he's opening up, he suddenly goes back to being….well…. Miguel. I've started to ask myself if I was too invested in him and making a fool of myself. Would I blame myself? There was nothing else to do in this huge house and he wouldn't let me go out. I needed to spread my wings and try out other things, meet other people. Miguel had just come back and was preparing to head out again so I started a conversation with Andrés. “You're close to Miguel huh?” “Yes.” “So he won't fire you for talking to me.” “Probably.” Why was he answering in monosyllables? Almost like his boss. “Can I ask you something?” “Yes.” “How do you use a gun?” Andrés actually looked at me and burst out

