BLESSED

Chapter 2

As I imagined, as soon as I placed the pizza on the table and sat down, all I could see were hands trying to grab as many slices of pizza as they could, leaving me with 2, that’s enough.

“ At least you left some for me this time!” They all giggle slightly and starting eating their food, we all chit chat while eating and then decide to watch a movie, is Sunday and we have nothing better to do than staying at home, warm and cozy.

I and Ami start preparing the popcorns and blankets, while we’re doing that, the boys were in the living room building a fort.

When we were finished with what we were doing, Tyler and Mark called us saying they finished too,     what a timing…

Ami and I head to the living room to find the boys already inside the fort, they really did a good job here.

We all get into our ‘sits’ I’m on Tyler’s lap and Ami is on Mark’s lap, the movie starts and we start to eat the popcorns, me and Ami decided to divide the popcorns into 2 bowls, one is on my lap and the other on Ami’s.

The movies start and everyone is paying attention to it, some jokes are made and we all laugh, I like it when we’re all together, me, my best friends, and my boyfriend.

Even when things with Ty are complicated, we still hang out together, we made a little promise to each other, ‘whatever happens between us, we’ll always be together’ as that’s how it has been, I like it.

Ty places his hand on my tight and I feel a heat between my legs.

“ Are you wet for me already, love?” He whispers in my ear and a low moan leaves my lips. Ami and Mark are asleep next to us.

He picks me up and kisses me with need, not passion, never passion.

As he opens the door and locks it, he starts taking off my clothes.

“ I love you,” he whispers once again. And his hand slides inside my panties touching my sensitive spot.

And as Rupi Kaur said in MILK AND HONEY, one of my favorite books.

“ This is where you must 

understand the difference 

between want and need

you may want that boy

but you certainly

don’t need him”

And she is totally right.

*1 week later*

Ami and I stayed in the house this last week, I haven't felt well these last days and Ami has been helping me a lot, I don’t think I would have survived without her.

Ty said that he wasn't able to come and help because he was busy with sorting, and Mark is going to have an exam in college.

Today’s morning was peaceful in the beginning, I woke up with the warm sun hitting my skin, the window was slightly opened, letting the hot air in, making the curtains flow.

I picked my phone to see what time was it, 9:47 am. Lazily I got out of bed and went directly to the bathroom. After pleasuring myself with the showerhead and washing my body, I started feeling sick and dizzy.

As I quickly put my hair in a ponytail I run to the toilet and vomit, I text Ami asking her with she was awake, she immediately replied ‘yes’, and I asked if she could come here in the bathroom.

Now the rest of the day is being a mess, after texting Ami, she quickly came and saw me sitting on the floor next to the toilet, she took care of me and helped me to feel better.

“ When’s your period supposed to come?” She asks out of the blue as if realization hit her.

“ I do not know, let me see.” I pick my phone and open the app that I use to control my period. “ Is late…” I look up at her and her expression falls. 

“ What?” I ask confused.

“ I'm going to buy you a pregnancy test.” She announces and quickly leaves the room, does she really think that I’m pregnant?

Now that I think about it, all of the times I and Tyler had s*x this last week, we didn't use protections and now I feel sick… oh no.

After about half an hour of me lost in my thoughts, Ami comes back with a pregnancy test, I quickly stand up of the bed and go to the bathroom.

I did the test… is done, now all I have to do is wait. I walk back to the room and find Ami pacing around, this time she's the one lost in her thoughts.

“ Do you really think I’m pregnant?” I query, She stops walking and turns to me.

“ Yes.”

“ How do you think Ty will react?” I’m scared of her answer.

“ Badly”

“ f**k…” I swear and pull my hair in frustration.

“ I didn't want to make you worry, I’ll always be here for you and I’m sure Mark will too.” She speaks as she gets closer to me. “ But as your best friend, I have to say that, Tyler just wants you for s*x and I’m sure you know it too.” I nod, I wanted to talk, to defend him, but I can't because she’s right.

“ I’ll go see the results of the test, it should be ready by now.” Once again, I just nod. Is it that clear that Tyler doesn't love me? Was I the only one that was blinded by his words? 

He will leave me if I’m pregnant.

“ Camilla… I think you should see this…” she speaks Lous enough so that I can hear her. 

I run to the bathroom and Ami shows me the test, it has 2 lines on it.

“ What does it mean?” I quickly ask. She grabs the little box where the tests were before and starts reading out loud.

“ 1 line means negative, and 2 means…” she lets her voice fade and turns to me.

“ Positive…”  we both say at the same time.

And now I feel like my feet were taken from the ground and I’m falling. It can’t be! I grab the other two tests, all with the same result.

Tyler is going to leave me and I don't know if Ami will really be here, she has her dreams and life. My family abandoned me when I told them that I wanted to move out. 

When I talked to them about Tyler, they told me that he didn’t love me and I shouldn’t fall for his lies, but I did. And now is too late to go back.

I’m all alone, with a little human being on my tummy. 

And we’re all alone.