Queen of The Damned

Chapter Eight

(Blue's P.O.V.) TRIGGER WARNING!!!

“Go ahead and eat princess. I’ll answer all your questions afterwards.” That's what he said to me, so calmly. How the hell could he be so calm while I'm having an internal crisis.

My heart started pounding at the remembrance of his eyes, blood red eyes, that low growl. It was like a switch went off in his head and he went primitive, turning into a beast thing, hunting his first meal in weeks, excited by the chase. The thought alone sent a shiver down my spine. What did he want from me? Did he think I wouldn't keep his secret? Who would I tell? Who would even believe me? After some time of sitting in silence Matt let out a small sigh. He reached for my head but I flinched, my eyes widened with scenarios running a muck in my head. Tears threatened to escape my eyes but I couldn't care less at the moment. I didn't care if he seen his victory, he broke me....he won but I still would not let them fall. His hand fell back to his side, his eyes looked pained. The look on his face sent pain in my chest, even though I was terrified I didn't want him to feel sad. I shook my head vigorously side to side, I refuse to be a case of Stockholm syndrome. He was my enemy, the bad guy, the villain and I will not fall for his tricks. He reached for the pizza boxes and opened one, pulled out a slice and moaned "still warm". I watched him take a few bites, my mouth gaped open and drooling at the sight of food, the smell was intoxicating. My stomach gave a small growl indicating I haven't ate in a few days. I thought back to my last meal, it was before I left West Virginia I had half of a peanut butter sandwich, that was almost three days ago. I looked at Matt then down to the pizza, I did this several times before snatching a slice and scooting away from him until my side hit a wall. I felt like a prisoner who was just granted food for the first time in days, I was scared he would take it away. I ate quickly without taking my eyes off of my pizza, I didn't even get to enjoy the flavor because I was eating so fast. Before I knew it the slice was gone. I heard a small chuckle come from Matt as he stared at me.

He gave another sigh "Look Blue, I wanted to tell you honestly. It just never felt like the right timing. I couldn't just walk up to you and say 'Hey I'm Matt oh and by the way I'm a werewolf and you're my mate'. You would have took off running." I clutched my pillow tighter thinking 'Yeah the right time. You mean when I'm strung up as you're devouring my flesh'.......Wait....What did he just say?....He looked over at me and my irritated face, slid a box of pizza in my direction, I looked at it for a few seconds 'is he trying to fatten me up before eating me?' I weighed out the pros and cons of eating 'Pro I wont be hungry and this is one hell of a last meal. Con I'll be more tasty to him.' The pros won, I swiftly took another piece of pizza. Eating it just a bit more slowly then before, trying to savor the taste before my demise.

"Blue please give me the chance to make this right. I know I scared you and lied to you, but let me set things right." He pleaded while pouring me a cup of pop. "I promise no more lies or secrets." He reached the cup out in my direction hoping I would take it, but when I didn't it seemed as though he gave up all hope.

Irritated, but feeling confident at his loss of confidence, only one word came out of my mouth. "Mate."

"What?" He asked surprised at my sudden burst of words.

"You said mate. What does it mean." I asked spitting venom at him.

"Oh, Well we don't have to talk about that right now. We can lead up to that part." I rolled my eyes, more at myself then anyone. I have to play along to his 'game' if I wanted to get out of here alive.

"Fine." I said hiding my fear, trying to seem strong in any way I could. We talked for a little while mostly about the werewolf thing, the pack house and community, and the chores everyone has. Then a question popped into my head, it scared me to even think about it but I had to know. "W-what about Casey? I-Is she....."

"Like me?" He said completing my sentence. "Blue, she wanted to tell you, I swear. You should have seen how pissed off she was at me when I brought you here without telling you." he said chuckling. "You are the last person anyone wants to hurt, everyone who lives in this community is a werewolf, most of the town belongs to the pack, my pack." His words had me thinking.....Most of the town? Then my chest tightened as panic set in......Anna.....What if she's......BETH!.....How dare she! I feel so betrayed! Shes been with me, my entire life. How could she lie to me for that long!? HOW COULD SHE SEND ME HERE KNOWING?! Tears form in my eyes, everyone in my life has lied to me and hurt me, but Beth was the last person I'd ever expect to do something like this. "Blue? Hey you okay?"

"I-I need a m-minute to myself." I said hoping he would understand.

"Yeah sure, no problem. I'll be right outside if you need me. "He said before he got up and headed for the door, he turned around to look at me before exiting the room.

I shot up and ran to the bathroom across the room, once inside I locked the door. Tears still streaming down my face, searching through drawers for anything sharp, anything at all. I just needed the pain to stop, the pain of betrayal from the one person I could trust with my life, Beth. In my search I finally found what I was looking for, a razor blade. He had an entire box of them for what I don't know nor did I care. I sat down on the floor silently crying to myself.

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(Matt's P.O.V.)

With my back leaned against the wall outside of my room I see Casey walking up to me with a worried look.

"How is she?" she asked

"She needed a minute to herself. I screwed up Cas and I don't know how to fix it." I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration.

"How much does she know about us?"

"As much as she would let me tell her, so not nearly half of it" I hit the back of my head off the wall pissed at myself. "I was hoping today would have ended better. How the hell did it turn bad so fast?"

"Shea disrespecting you, and blurting out 'pack house'." Casey was right. It was Shea, she's the reason I scared Blue. I could feel my wolf grow furious at the reminder, he wanted Shea gone, now.

"Where is she?" I demanded at Casey

"She's in the kitchen." There was no hesitation in her voice, she wanted Shea gone just as much as I did. I made my way to the the kitchen to see Shea sitting on the counter laughing with a few other girls.

"Well if it isn't alpha." she said with a grin licking a sucker, "Did you finally realize the human isn't your mate?"

I let out a loud roar sending everyone's faces pale. My wolf took control to let out some anger "Get out." I stated.

"What?" Shea said in shock.

"Get out of my house and get out of my pack."

"Matt you can't be serious? I have done nothing wrong?!" She pleaded. I let out another roar,

"LIES! YOU DISRESPECTED YOUR FUTURE LUNA!"

"I refuse to leave!" she said hissing back at me.

"Then challenge me. If you win then you will become alpha, if I win, you die. Make your decision." The shock on her face told me what her decision was. "Get out." I said before turning around to go back to Blue. "If I see you here again I will show you no mercy." My wolf finished what he had to say but just before he returned control back over to me, he sensed something.

"Mate." he said while sniffing the air.

"What? What is it?" I questioned. He let out a growl and took off running to the room where we left Blue. We were panting, racing as fast as we could to our mate. When we reached the door she’s no where to be seen, we could hear water running the in the bathroom. "What do you smell?" I asked my wolf who has been unusually quiet.

"Blood."

We reached for the door knob but it was locked, we knocked a few times and listened for a response. When there wasn't one we hit the door with our shoulder, "Blue!" my wolf growled "BLUE!" we continued to hit the door until it finally came off its hinges. Where we saw a very startled Blue sitting on the floor, her face stained with tears looking up at us, her shirt, pants and the floor had drops of blood on them. She was covering her wrist with her hand. We just stood there in shock. We moved as slow as we could trying not to scare her any further, She backed away with every step we took. We were at our limit with patience, we sat down next her, her eyes still wide with fear. "You need to take control Matt, She is still afraid of me." my wolf said and with just those words I was in control, I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and we just sat like that for a few seconds. She leaned into my chest, her body shaking with every sob, she was still crying. I looked up at the door feeling a familiar presence, it was Casey. Her eyes wide from the scene before her, she couldn't pry her eyes away from Blues wrists. I looked down to get a better look at them for myself, I gently placed my hand on top of hers and lifted it off her wrist. The sight of three deep and still bleeding cuts sends a pain to my chest. I held her even tighter, until she was to exhausted from crying to keep her eyes open, after a few seconds making sure she was fully asleep. I picked her up in my arms and carried her to the bed where I laid her down.

"Hey Casey?" I asked in an almost whisper.

"Yeah?"

"Can you go get the house doctor? I want these treated before she wakes up."

"Yeah of course." Casey quickly walks out of the room. When I knew she had left I opened the mind-link.

"James" I said in a sad tone. "I need you."

"Sure Matt, I'm on my way."

James quickly enters the room. "What's.....Oh...shit" He said looking down at Blue. "What the hell happened?"

"She did it to herself James. How do I stop this? What the hell am I suppose to do? I can't sit by and watch the woman I love mutilate herself, it will literally kill me."

"I guess the only thing to do is ask her why she does it in the first place. Try to be understanding and don't rush the process. Give her some space, throw out any temptation, treat it like an addiction."

"Its not an addiction" a small broken voice said. I look down to see Blue rolled over facing away from us. How long was she awake for? How much did she hear?

"Blue....I-I'm so sorry, I never wanted this to happen." I told her placing my hand on her shoulder.

"I'm gunna give you two some privacy" James said then walked out of the room.

"You didn't do it Matt." She said to me with pain in her voice.

"Then who? Please tell me what to do to make it better"

"I....." She was interrupted by Casey and the doctor. Her eyes dropped at the sight of Casey and Casey did the same.

"Hey Blue? The doctor is going to have a look at your arm, is that okay?" I asked while rubbing her shoulder. All she did was nod her head so I did the same to the Doc. He walked over and sat next to the bed.

"Okay, can I have you sit up a little so I can get a good look?"

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(Blue's P.O.V)

I sat up in the bed and turned my body around to face the doctor, when he gave me a small smile I put my arms out on my lap with my palms facing up.

"Oh my, I knew about the three but these ones....are they new?" He asked me. I shook my head in response, feeling guilty and judged.

"What other ones?" Matt asked while trying to look over my shoulder.

"It's nothing alpha." the doc. gave me a quick wink and I gave a small smile in return. "Well lets patch these up they will be better in no time." He said before pulling out a needle and some thread, the sight of it made my body shake.

"NO!" I screamed trying to move away from the doctor but Matt had a grip on my shoulders.

"Hey! Whoa Blue its okay. You need a few stitches I promise it wont hurt" Matt tried to calm me down but something clicked in my head.

(FLASH BACK Blue Age 11)

"LET ME OUT PLEASE!" I screamed, pleading from the inside of a locked closet kicking and hitting the door over and over. "I won't say it again I promise!" I heard foot steps outside of the door and the latch open, I felt so thankful that I was heard. Until both of the foster parents had a hold of me. The woman had their arms wrapped around my body pinning my arms to my side, while the man had a handful of my hair, and a needle with thread in the other.

"This will teach you to keep your mouth shut!" The woman said, bringing one of her hands up to hold my jaw closed. The man began pushing the needle through my bottom lip and up and out of the top lip. My muffled screams went unheard and unnoticed. They were laughing at my pain taking enjoyment out of my suffering. I was pushed back into the closet when they were done, I heard the door lock behind me. I brought my shaking hand up to my mouth and could feel the thread lacing my lips together. I cried in silence until Beth came at the end of the week.

(PRESENT TIME)

"Please! I'm sorry!" I screamed clutching onto Matt's shirt, tears streaming down my checks. Casey comes over to me and places my head on her chest while rubbing my back, I sat and cried in her arms as the doctor walked over with Matt to the door.

"This girl has been through a lot of pain, I can only imagine the things she's endured. We will try again when she is sleeping." Matt just nodded his head in response. "Here at least put some gauze and ointment on the cuts." Matt took the equipment from the doctor and walked over to me.

"B-Blue, can I see your wrists?" I hesitantly held out my arm for Matt at his request. Between him and Casey there wouldn't be a single thing I could do to fight them off, so I complied. I watched as Matt delicately put ointment on me and then wrapped my wrist. "Casey." Matt continued, "Don't let Shea back into this community." I was shocked at the new information.

"Why? What did she do?" I asked even though I knew it wasn't any of my business. Casey and Matt both shared a look before looking back to me.

"Blue um, you see....How do I put this?" Casey said stumbling for words.

"It's her fault I scared you. It's her fault I chased you, and its her fault you hurt yourself." Matt said with anger in his voice.

"B-but she didn't do anything." I said

"Blue...she disrespected the alpha and the luna that alone is punishable by death. Matt let her off easy with banishment."

"Luna? Like the moon? Why is disrespecting the moon such a big deal?" I asked honestly but they both just chuckled at me.

"Blue the luna is like the female alpha, she is the alphas mate." Matt said smiling at me. "You are the future luna Blue." With just those few words my head went spinning. Questions running in my head they made me feel dizzy, sick even.

"I-I c-can't be l-luna I'm human!"

"We aren't sure how it happened either Blue. You're the first in recorded history." Casey said to me with a smile on her face like it's no big deal.

"B-But if I'm luna then t-that means me a-and Matt...." Matt gave me a small smile. Does that mean the entire time he has been nice to me is just because His wolf thing told him too? WHAT A JERK! Matt seemed to sense my irritation.

"Blue? Remember if you have questions I'm here to answer them." He said still smiling at me, how dare he pretend to be nice to me. I don't need his pity and frankly I don't need anymore trouble.

“I'm leaving for Arizona”