Chapter 17Kai
When Toby tells me about his plan, I miss half of what he’s saying. I’m stuck staring at him. “Okay,” I hear myself say somewhere far away, my mind latched on to a single thought: I’m no longer inexperienced when it comes to s*x. It’s official now.
Looking back, I always knew—or hoped—that he would be my first in bed. The wait wasn’t easy, especially these past few days, but I’m glad I never caved. Imagine if I had slept with Franklin just before discovering that Toby wants me. I don’t think my first experience with Franklin would have been pleasant. He couldn’t even accept my wishes today, didn’t care what I wanted. I’m happy things turned out the way they did. Having oral s*x with Toby was incredible. And I think—and hope—that this was just the start.
All I can do is loo
