Drive Him Crazy

Regret and Satisfaction

Sebastian

I was watching her....just drinking and watching her. Like prey. The more i drank the more i wanted her...the more i wanted to take her and pleasure her.

She was gone for a while with her date but when she returned lets just say i was very drunk. Drunk on spirits and on how i wanted to feel her body and explore it...

I want mate....but you need to reject her...you will cause her too much pain...and i will never forgive you for that....she is good and her wolf is pure

I blocked my wolf out....he was making me feel guilty and angry with his harsh but true words.

Im not a bad guy...but this is the consequence of my lifestyle and choices of having Victoria as Luna. If i chose my mate Victoria would probably kill her...and that shewolf is a crazy b***h. She is wild in bed but no doubt wild in person if anyone dare challenge her. It wasnt Victoria's fault that i met my mate and i could never take the title away from Victoria without my mate being threatened. I would have to exile Victoria and make her rogue which will not go down well. I dont want to put my mate in danger like that, she doesnt deserve her happily ever after to be filled with danger and a cheating mate. Iv never been faithful and i dont think i can be easily even if love is involved.

Love...i have to reject her because i love her....i love her because she is my mate...my wolf loves her...but we love her enough to let her go...i love her....my heart loves her.

I watch as she walks away from her friends and i follow her.

She walks into a bedroom and closes the door behind her.

i contemplate going in and after a few minutes of pacing and deciding i open the door.

She is in the bathroom so i wait next to door leaning on the wall to hold me up in my drunk state.

thoughts of us being alone in this room make my mind race with lust as my man down under wants to feel her...i try keep my composure as she walks out the bathroom and looks at me.

''Hi again...'' she says casually.

This just sets me off....playing hard to get...i love the challenge but i dont have patience for games because of the circumstances

''You look so tasty...'' i say while licking his lips as stalk stalks closer to her not being able to take my eye's off her body and my man down under growing harder and harder at her vulnerability. Iv seduced many before....and always get my way.

She giggles and pushes me away...this drives me crazy.

Her back towards me

My wolf starts howling as the lust pushes me further and further over the edge

''Your driving my wolf crazy and i cant seem to think of anything other than your sweet lips on mine...'' I say as i softly touch the sides of her arms feeling the sparks from our bond making me almost loose control.

All she does is stand there ... frozen.... not saying anything and not reacting...but feeling my touch dare i say enjoying it. I smell her arousal and its laced with fear.

I lean down to her neck breathing in her Opium scent...kissing her gently and making my way down her neck to her shoulder and sweet spot.

A low growl leaves her lips and i know her wolf doesnt like what i am doing.

I stop and wait for her to say something...the air tensing as i pull away.

''Just reject me and get it over and done with...dont make it harder than it already is'' she whispers and then i notice the sadness in her voice...she starts crying.

I have to be honest with her...i take a deep breath.

''I already have a mate...and although it is not love, i am not a good match for you. You are a good girl...and i could never give you the loyalty or love youd expect from your Mate...I want you to have the freedom to love someone who will give you unconditional love...not heartbreak which i can only give you''

Her reply is instant

''You dont even know me...yet you presume to know what i want and how our mated relationship will be...its not a fairytale that you can just predict'' she retort as more tears stream down her cheeks.

''I have to rejec....'' I start as she suddenly flings into my arms and kisses me passionately and after a few moments she has her arms around my neck and i become over powered with lust...for my mate...

I turn us around and push her up against the wall as my hands are feeling all over her back...our lips still not parting.

You need to do it now...we both want her too much and if we let this go further it will be 100 times worse so stooooppppp or i will make you.....

My wolf shouts

I then stop...and look at her a little afraid of whats about to happen and too caught up in the moment of wanting her fully so my wolf takes over as my eye's turn red.

I Sebastian Donovan reject you Ave as my my mate and Luna...

She gasps and turns pale. I just stand there in shock not knowing what to say...just knowing iv made a decision ill probably regret for the rest of my life but need to do...for her.

She runs past me and locks herself in the bathroom.

I hear her break down and i feel her pain.

My heart feels broken and cold...

Im an Alpha and i never show weakness but my mate is my Achilles heel and i allow myself a lone tear to escape...but only for her.

I touch my lips that tasted her sweet lips...the sweetest lips ive ever had...that belonged to me...and ill never taste them again. I will never forget the taste of her.

I am broken...but satisfied that my decision is for her...for her happiness above my own.