20. Confused
1095 Words
Chorong's POV
Class is over and I was in charge of cleaning again.
I'll start working as a part time cashier at Tiffany Eonnie's convenience store tomorrow.
Walking along the school grounds, I saw guys practicing in our school gym. I peeped to see who they were.
Glad it's the guys of M and not Grease's side kicks.
They saw me passing so I bowed. I was about to leave when...
"You're Park Chorong, right?" the Canadian-Chinese guy asked. His name is Henry, I am sure of it. Well, they became quite famous after that practice game.
But it's surprising. How did they know my name?
I point at myself asking.
"Who else? Is there anyone around you?" Another guy uttered, and I am sure again that his name is Baekhyun. His prominent jawline shouldn't be forgotten.
I bowed. "Annyeonghaseyo!"
"Come! Watch us!" Baekhyun invited.
I shook my head, but he and that cute looking tall guy named Zelo pulled me to enter the gym and let me seat in the bench beside their stuff.
"It's good to have a girl watching. We get more inspired." Henry said and gave wink.
Uhmmm.. is this guy really like this? Full of confidence? Well, he is from the States
"Hyung, stop it." Zelo tapped his shoulders.
Minseok went beside Henry. "You know what, it's my first time seeing Tao giving attention to a girl. He never even smiles to any girl except you. You are really something."
"Yah!" There goes Kyungsoo, the smallest one. He threw the ball towards Henry. "Let's go back to practice!"
Then Minseok went in front of me and gave me a salute before running back to the center of the court.
I stood up and bowed.
"Seriously? You're leaving?" Henry said that in English. Wow! I envy the accent.
I nodded. "Mianhaeyo. I need to study for a test tomorrow."
"Maybe that's why Tao's late." Zelo reckoned.
"Eyyyyy!" All of them protested.
So they don't think Tao studies? I suddenly became curious if he really does study or not. But his grades are pretty good though. He reads a lot as well, but I haven't seen him copy notes and read our lectures.
"Won't you wait for Tao?" Kyungsoo asked.
I shooky head. "Thanks for treating me well. I will watch you guys next time for sure. That's a promise!" I even raised my right hand.
"Give me a pinky swear." Baekhyun took my little finger for a pinky swear. "Promise to cheer for us in the real game next week."
"Ne!" I said brightly and bowed again. "See you next time."
I walked home. This will be the last time that I'll walk home as well. I'll be using the bus as soon as I start working.
The scene in our classroom this afternoon flashed back to my mind.
Jinjja! I can't believe Tao just ignored Namjoo. He helped me when I was bullied by Kris in the cafeteria before, why didn't he help her?
Hmm. Yeah, he said he helped me because it was too noisy, but this time was also too noisy and they bullied her in front of him.
Doesn't he have a heart?
I shook my head. I'll give him a minus.
That made me chuckled. Who am I to grade him by the way?
You know what, it's my first time seeing Tao giving attention to a girl. He never even smiles to any girl except you. You are really something.
Seriously? Minseok isn't joking?
He meant that... Tao didn't help Namjoo because he only cares about me, and not any other girl?
Huh! Maybe he just said tjat necause he wants me to think ppsitively of Tao after what happened this afternoon.
But.. how would he know what happened when they haven't even seen each other yet? Tao was late, right?
But.. maybe the rumor spread already.
But.. how will he know that I felt bad about Tao not doing anything during that situation?
But..he actually saved me again when I was about to get slapped by that girl named Minah. He went in the middle to receive it instead, right?
Haist! If only Grease didn't arrive and said things that made confused.
Wait.
That put me in a halt.
That's the right word.
He makes me confused.
NO! Why does he make me confuse?
For what?
I am sure of my feelings.
I like Tao, right? I have thia big crush on him since the first time I saw him.
Why did I say I'm confused?
Does that mean...
I also like Kris?
NO!!!! ANDWE!!! I DON'T LIKE HIM! WHY WOULD I LIKE THAT STUPID BASTARD?!
But..
But..
"Aaaaaaargh! IT'S SO CONFUSING!"
"Yah! You're so noisy!"
Ow? Who's that?
"Yah! Chorong-ah!"
It's Tao.
Why does he always pop up from nowhere? Is he a mushroom or something?
And I didn't realize I verbalized that.
Heol. Embarrassing.
Tao waved approaching me. "Why are you so noisy?"
"Huh?"
He stopped in front of me. "And what are you thinking that you suddenly shouted? You were also like that in the infirmary last time."
I faked a smile. I, actually, don't know what to say. "Eobseo (Nothing). Just the lecture this afternoon."
"Why?" He looked at me with concern eyes. "Was it hard for you to understand it? I can spare a time to teach you."
Really. I'm not used to Tao being like this.
I kept quiet. The situation this afternoon still bothers me that I don't have the sweet bone to talk to him in a kind manner right now.
I continued walking. He followed me. We walked side by side.
walk...
walk...
walk...
walk...
Curiousity kills! I can't take this anymore.
"Zi Tao"
"hmm?" he answered lowering his head and offering his ear to listen.
"Why didn't you even give a finger to Namjoo?" I asked trying not to sound annoyed.
He didn't answer.
Now, I can't hide my annoyance. "Don't you have sympathy? She was treated badly by those girls right before your eyes and you pretended nothing happe----"
"Cause my attention is just for you!" He cut me. Then he went away.
He also sounded really annoyed saying that.
My mouth was left open, hanging in shocked as I watch his back until he disappeared.
What am I supposed to do?
Why do I feel troubled when he said that and confirmed what his friends told me?
Why do I feel ambivalent?
I feel happy...
and unhappy.
I'm supposed to jump and down at this moment.
Why do I feel uneasy?
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