Chapter 2
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JAX POV
"It's been... four games without Jax causing trouble. Congrats, buddy, that's a season record!"
Knox flips the number on the locker room wall from three to four, looking irritatingly pleased with himself. He steps back to admire his creation. It has been 4 days since our last incident, the sign reads.
He said he was going to make a sign.
I didn't think he'd actually make a sign.
"Are you serious?" I ask, my tone dark. "You actually spent real American dollars on this?"
I just recorded a shutout game against Miami on home ice tonight. Which should feel good, does feel good, though everything about hockey has felt kind of muted lately. Fresh from the shower post-game, the thing I feel most is the familiar ache of muscles along my back, the ones that scream at me when the New England cold seeps into my bones.
Probably doesn't help that I'm supposed to be meeting my agent Rick after this.
That never puts me in a good mood.
"Blame the team for giving me all this disposable income," Knox grins. "Blame my talent for the team wanting me so bad... just like the ladies do. But there's enough Knox to go around."
Knox is the Bay Blades' forward, a cocky young bastard who thinks he's god's gift to hockey, and irritatingly really is almost that good. Blond, blue-eyed, with a smile that's gotten him out of more trouble than I can count.
"Never refer to yourself in the third person again." I glare at him, and he has the decency to look a little afraid. "Captain, are you going to put a stop to this nonsense?" I call across the locker room.
Sullivan, our team captain, strolls over and crosses his arms. He's got that Southern charm that makes women melt and opponents underestimate him. "Huh. Didn't think he'd actually make a sign."
Sullivan has been on the Bay Blades even longer than I have. Except Sullivan does everything right. In a locker room full of big egos, he's the level-headed, mature leader.
Half of our female fans are obsessed with him; the bucket load of charm and the slight Southern drawl probably help. Even if I don't believe on principle that hockey should be played somewhere hot enough to melt a rink in winter. Hockey is about suffering through freezing your ass off, and no one can convince me otherwise.
I roll my eyes, ignoring Knox's snickering. "Yeah, let's all praise Knox for his dedication and follow-through with this project."
Sullivan fixes me with his gaze. "Well, ain't there some truth to it, Glacier? You've been starting a lot of s**t lately, and you won't tell us why."
I frown down at my black sneakers, lacing them up with more-than-necessary focus. My dark hair is still damp from the shower, falling in waves past my shoulders. I twist it absently, tying it back with the leather cord I keep around my wrist.
This is not where I wanted the conversation to go. Because our captain is right.
I'm lucky I'm not a baseball player, there's not nearly enough fighting in baseball to get me interested in that sport anyway because I've blown way past three strikes by now.
There were the times I missed practice.
And the time I bailed on media availability.
And the time I told a prying paparazzi to shove his camera somewhere that I won't repeat not after Coach Reed yelled at me for twenty minutes. Jesus, the sound is still ringing in my ears.
The team's front office is getting sick of my s**t, I know that. I want to fix that. Except where hockey was once my total priority, now I'm questioning how it fits into my life.
What it's taken from me.
Sure, I've never been the most warm and fuzzy guy. Sullivan once described me as "slightly warmer than a polar bear in a walk-in freezer." That, along with my role as goalie, was enough for the stupid nickname to stick: Glacier.
But I count Sullivan, Knox, and our defensive enforcer Dmitri as some of my absolute closest friends in the world. Before last year, I'd have gone to war for this team, for my brothers-in-arms. Unlike most of the guys on the team, I'm New England born and raised. Winning a cup with this team is my ultimate dream.
Was my ultimate dream.
I'm a private person. Too private, probably. That's why I haven't told my teammates the truth of it all.
Last year, I got off the ice after a game to find fifteen missed calls.
Fifteen missed calls telling me my sister Jess was three hundred miles away back home in northern Maine in the hospital.
I wasn't there. Hadn't been there for a while. All because I was chasing my hockey dreams with this team.
And that's something I now live with every day.
I grab my water bottle and rise to my feet. The muscles in my back protest, and I roll my shoulders, feeling the ink shift under my compression shirt. The tattoos tell stories, the rocky Maine coastline, a lighthouse, a whale tail, all wrapped around my arms and chest. My sister has a matching one on her ankle.
"All right, enough discussing my various flaws. I have to go meet my agent, which somehow will be even less of a good time. See you at practice."
Sullivan softly taps his hand on my shoulder as I pass, his voice lowering. "I've been your friend for over a decade now, man. You know you can tell me what's wrong whenever you're ready."
Fuck, I feel bad brushing him off. But I won't share it, or don't want to, or just plain old can't.
"Got it, Captain," I say gruffly, "but I'm fine," and I feel his hand fall as I leave.
At this point, I'm used to the routine.
Step one: I f**k up.
Step two: I get an angry phone call from Rick, which turns into an angry visit.
Step three: I tell Rick it won't happen again.
Rinse and repeat.
Rick has been my agent for my entire career. I like the guy. He's a tough negotiator with enough morals to not be a total asshole. It was smooth sailing until a year ago.
And now I'm Rick's least favorite client.
I glance down the hallway outside the locker room. Where the hell is he? I don't want to be stuck here all night. I want him to get his lecture over with so I can go home, turn on whatever old movie is playing on TCM, and crash. Maybe call Jess to make sure she's okay. Again.
"Hi, Jax!"
I hear my name being called and turn around.
And then I do a double take, like a f*****g cartoon character. Because the person who's walking toward me is...
Well, it's sure as hell not Rick.
He's damn sure not a young woman who is....holy s**t. I've never thought the word beautiful was insufficient before. It always seemed just fine to me. Just another word in the dictionary, one I'd casually use on various women in the distant past.
But suddenly it sounds like a random collection of letters in my head that can't do justice to the woman walking toward me.
She's got curves that her professional blouse and pencil skirt can't hide doesn't seem like she's trying to hide them, either. Her dark curly hair is pulled back in a sleek ponytail that bounces as she walks. Her skin is warm brown, and her eyes glitter pale blue, bright against it. She smiles, and I can't look away from the dimples that appear on her cheeks, who actually has honest to god dimples?
She's clutching a notebook and an iced coffee.
She can't be much over five foot four. A full foot shorter than me, my brain unhelpfully supplies.
My stare falls to her shoes. They're a pair of sunflower-yellow heels.
The Bay Blades' arena is made up of cold, hard colors: storm blue, steel gray, ice white. My stare catches on this flash of warmth. Bright things don't belong here.
Fucking hell. Focus up. No creeping on strangers.
"Something wrong?" the woman says, a smile playing on her lips.
My momentary distraction by her presence is punctured.
Well, it's happened. Rick has officially gotten tired of my bullshit and is sending out his junior agents to deal with me instead.
"Who are you?" I ask, maybe a little too blunt.
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