There was a deafening silence.
They were just all just looking at me as if I have grown two heads. And Kuya Yvo’s stone face-like reaction didn’t help.
Yung kaba ko, abot New York!
I felt Azalea’s hand hold mine under the table, I know that she’s trying to comfort me. Despite of her bitchy attitude when it comes to Paris, hindi mabubura nito ang katotohanan na we care for each other like sisters. And I know that she just wants what's best for me, and ganun din ako sakanya.
The awkward silence was lessened when the waiters served our food.
The tension slowly vanished. It was Kuya Thyme who finally decided to say something.
“You are not kidding right?” he asked in an unsure voice. He stared at me as if he is trying to read me.
I swallowed hard and shook my head.
“Mukha ba syang nagbibiro?” Masungit na sabi ni Ate Saf. She started to mix the sauce of her pasta to the pasta noodles. “Cassie will never joke about her lovelife, just so you know.” she added and raised her eyebrow.
Kuya Rue’s jaw almost dropped to the floor.
“How did this happen?!” he asked in worried voice. Halatang di makapaniwala.
“Leigh.. why him?” Reed shook his head. He looks disappointed.
I bit my lip, I did not say anything..I want to hear what everyone has to say before I give them my side.
“I haven’t met the guy yet but based on what I heard about what happened before.. I don’t like him.” Kuya Evans said before he sipped on his mango juice.” I nervously played with my fingers as I waited for him to continue . “But if you like him and you are happy with him.. go ahead. He better not hurt you though or I’ll make him regret meeting you.” he gave me a brotherly smile that melt my heart and somehow lessened the heaviness of my chest.
“I have nothing against it either. I know Kuya Paris, he is a good man.”Nix said and winked at me but Azalea snorted.
“You are just biased because of Milan!”
“And you are also biased because you like Kuya Silas as if he is your own brother!” Nix countered. But he paused, then his eyes turned wide, he immediately turned to look at me, he must have realized what he just said.
Another awkward silence, and for the second time all eyes are on me. Maybe curious sila sa reaksyon ko. Akala siguro nila na affected pa ako pag nabanggit ang pangalan ni Silas.
Are they expecting na iiyak ako or masisira ang mood dahil nabanggit si Silas? Naka move on na ako, but it seem like hindi sila kombinsido.
“I’m sorry.” Nix broke the silence and I just smiled at him.
I reached for my drink and took a sip. I need to explain the details to them para maunawaan nila.
I sat straight and cleared my throat. So I told them everything and thankfully they just listened without interrupting me.
“To summarize, For three years Paris and I got to know each other. We have been friends since then and became close until he started to court me. Paris was the one who was there with me at the lowest days in my life and he taught me to be happy again, to forgive and move on.”
I sighed.
“This is my life and I am old enough to decide for myself. I am not asking for anyone’s permission when it comes to my relationship but having your approval means a lot to me.” I said bravely. “But whatever your decision is.. I am just asking for you guys to at least respect him, be civil if makikita nyo sya na kasama ko..and please don’t mention the past. I have forgiven him already, sana kayo din.
Kuya Thyme shook his head and looked away, he seems like he is not happy with what I have said but he decided not to say anything.
Kuya Rue took a sip on his drink then he sighed. Reed’s brows furrowed but like Kuya Thyme, he didn't say anything.
I looked at Ate Saf, she smiled at me.
“As long as you are happy.” she nodded at me and I smiled back.
“You are right.” Kuya Yvo started. Mabilis akong napatingin sakanya.
“It’s your life, and nasa tamang edad ka na. Do whatever that will make you happy, but just make sure that it is what you really want..and you’re not just forcing yourself to be happy because he’s your safest choice.” he said before he reached for his utensils to eat.
My lips parted, I blinked several times. What is he implying? Na pilit lang ang pagiging masaya ko? Why does it seem like he is saying na I am just settling to Paris kasi he is my only choice?
“What are you trying to say, Kuya Yvo?” I want to hear it from him.
“It’s for you to figure it out.” makahulugan nyang sabi at nag simula bang kumain. Nagkatinginan kami ni Yckos, malungkot sng ngiting binigay nito saakin.
To say that I am bothered is an understatement. My feelings are torn with the result of my confession! I mean, okay sige I am happy because no one reacted in a bad way.. walang nagalit or pinigilan ako pero at the same time, no one is really supportive about it. Kuya is okay with it but he is still not a fan of Paris, Ate Saf is supportive but she’s neutral with Paris, While Nix..should I count him? Obviously it is fine with him because of Milan.
Speaking of Milan, we are okay now..we’ve seen each other a lot of times and hangout, because she’s a bit clingy sister to Paris and Rome. She is a certified spoiled brat because her brothers and her parents but if you get the chance to know her well, you will discover that she’s kind and sift hearted. We haven’t talked about Nix during the times that we hangout so I don’t know what their score is! All I know is that she’s sing
Anyways, going back to my cousins..the rest of , , she’s atlthe guys will let me do whatever I want..but that doesn’t mean they are okay with Paris.
I know my cousins though, they will be civil to Paris for me.
And for now, okay na yun. One step at a time..mag wawarm up din sila kay Paris eventually, because Paris is a good man.
I am walking around Fort Bonifacio and just came from a Salon when I felt like being watched. Pasimple akong tumingin sa likod ko pero walang kung ano man na kahina hinala.
I know BGC is safe, so there’s a small chance na may snatcher or holdaper sa paligid plus, katanghaliang tapat..
I tilted my head and continued walking.. baka napaparanoid lang ako. Pero iba talaga ang pakiramdam ko.. I feel like I’m being followed..
Malakaking hakbang ang ginawa ko, I’m planning to walk hangang Central Square Mall but I changed my mind, I’ll just take a cab. Huminto ako sa corner kung saan may mga humihintong taxi and waited there.
”Cassiopeia.”
Mabilis ang pag lingon na ginawa ko. My eyes widened when I recognized the person who called me.
”Ikaw nga.” Nakangisi nyang sabi bago humalukipkip at pinsadahan ako ng tingin mula ulo hangang paa.
Until now she’s still rude like before, I mentally shook my head.
”Sancha.” Tango ko sakanya.
I have forgiven Sancha already but I still don’t like her. Not because of Silas, but because of her attitude in general.