Love and Lust

Authors Note Before you Read/ Chapter 1

This is a Young-Adult book which includes s****l scenes and words.

All rights reserved.

This is a work of fiction. Any names, characters, places, and events are the product of the author's imagination.

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Hi. My name is Savannah Hastings. Before I fully exposed my first real s*x, I just wanted you to know me. First of all, I'm sorry I cut the best part on my story earlier.

I have long dark brown hair, brown eyes, small eyes, and a fair skin. I just turned 16 before the second term started at Graceous High. I'm a junior student, and I'm still a virgin back then. But not anymore. So, I am going to tell you something about me, and how I met the people who --somewhat changed me and influenced me. I'm a swimmer, and considered myself as an artist because I love music, I play guitars, I like arts, I'm somehow good in drawing, and more.

I have lots of friends in my former school, but because I'm a new student at Graceous High, I didn't have any. Until one day, in Biology class, a girl seated on my left and another one in front of me.

The girl who seated on my left is Nathalie Richards, a year older than me. She has a long black curly hair with perfectly cutted bangs, and always wore a light make-up on her face which just suits her. The first time we met, she asked me two questions: my name and, if I'm still a virgin. I don't know if anybody of you ever asked that question to anyone you just met. Go figure. She's just so... liberated. She can tell who's a virgin, and who's not. In my case, she wondered why I didn't have s*x to any of my boyfriends I had before. Then I thought about it. I realized no one had actually attempt to do it. Just making out all the time. I had two boyfriends, and none currently. She laughed at my inexperienced s****l life.

I didn't know being a virgin deserved to be laughed at compared to non-virgins. Yeah, I call them "non-virgins" and not "slut" because of my friends. They're not virgins, but they're not a slut too. I am the only virgin within the three of us.

The other girl who seated in front of me during that time, who eventually became one of my bestfriends, is Wilma Lee. Chinese girl, with beautiful long brown hair. She's chubby, but she's beautiful. She's 3 years older than me and turned out to be a married woman. She got pregnant when she was 17, and stopped school for a year. In that year, she gave birth with a beautiful baby boy named, Martin, and she got married months after the baby was born.

The three of us became friends because of break times we had in class. We always eat in the cafeteria and sometimes we ditched school just to hang out. We agreed on one thing: school was boring. Nathalie and Wilma got together well and are always having conversation about s*x. So, what I do is just listen to them and wonder how it felt. You see, these two people were like experts already, and somehow, I learned something from them. I have nothing to share because I've never done it. I learned a lot 'cause all I did was listen to them, but I never tried to practice what I learned 'cause I'm still a virgin back then, and I don't have a boyfriend.

One day we skipped school in the afternoon and went to my apartment. My sister wasn't home yet so the whole place is ours. I sat on my bed, then Nath and Wilma joined me. I wanted to ask Wilma about her husband, and what is it like to get pregnant. I'm just curious, okay! But thank Gods, Nath asked her, "Hey, Wilma. How is it like to... you know, get pregnant?"

Wilma laughed then sighed, "Well, it's hard... you won't be thinking about yourself anymore. The baby inside you gets all the attention," she said. "You two are lucky 'cause you're both single!" she added.

"At least I have a s*x life!" Nathalie said and smirked at me. They both laughed. I just smiled, but then I felt that I blushed.

"You know Savannah, s*x is good. It's great, actually. There's nothing wrong with it. But you just need to be sure to whom you wanted to lose your virginity with." Wilma said. This time, for sure, I blushed.

"How will you know if he's the one?" I asked.

She smiled, "You will never know who's the one, Savannah. Uhm, do you have a nickname or something? 'Cause your name is too long to pronounce."

"You can call me S. It's what my friends call me." I said.

"S. Cool." Nathalie said.

"As what I am saying..." Wilma continued, "Love and Lust are different, S. You have to know the difference." she finished.

I frowned at her 'cause I didn't know what exactly did she meant by that. I understood the statement literally but then I realized it was confusing. Isn't it, you make love to one person because you love him? Out of curiosity, I asked, "What's the difference then?"

Wilma answered, "Love is a feeling. Lust is a pleasure. Lust is easy to get, but Love? It's hard to find."

"Agree." Nathalie nodded. "So far, I just have Lust." she added. But I could see in her expression that she was kind of sad. I knew then that she wanted love.

I asked, "Oh... uhm, but, can you have both?"

They both looked at me. Wilma answered, "Well, yes, if you're lucky. Just like in my case, I got both. But I got them early." We chuckled.

Wilma's right. I promised myself that I would lose my virginity to the right guy. Nathalie patted my arms and said, "We're looking forward to the day you'll lose your virginity. And we want full details!" They both laughed at me again. But this time, I joined them. "Oh, boy..." I said.

Nathalie asked me, "But have you ever been kissed or make out with somebody?"

"Of course I have!" I shouted. Then I told them the story about my first kiss. "I had my first kiss with my second boyfriend. We were in my friends' house, in their living room. My friend and her girlfriend went inside my friend's room so me and my boyfriend were alone then. We were just watching tv, then suddenly, he moved closer to me and put his arms around me. I leaned on his shoulder then I clasped my hands with his. He shrugged then he looked at me. I looked at him too. Then we gazed at each other's eyes for a while... and next thing I knew, his lips were already on mine.

"I froze for a while. But then his lips didn't stop moving, still kissing me. His lips were soft, and gentle. I breathed harder then kissed him back right away. He pulled me closer to him... he touched my face and I touched his too... he bit my lower lip and I moaned. Then his hands went down and cupped my boobs... and he was about to unhook my bra on my back when my friends' parents walked in the back door." I laughed.

"You got caught?!" Nathalie chuckled. Wilma was laughing too.

Then I continued, "Good thing they entered through their back door. We heard the door shut, and quickly,we arranged ourselves to where we were before. I wiped my lips, fixed my hair and my clothes as quickly as I can. I looked at my boyfriend, and he was just sitting there, very relaxed. It was so unfair. Then suddenly, my friends' mom were standing there and saw us. We said hi then she went upstairs. That's it." I finished. Then I looked at both of them. No reaction.

Wilma smiled then said, "I think you're going to love s*x, S."

My mouth popped open, "What?! Why?! How?!" I am very disturbed on what she just said.

They laughed. "Easy there, S." Nathalie said.

"Relax. I just think you'll love it 'cause when you had your first kiss, you kissed him back right away. You liked the feeling. Other people, like me for example, when I had my first kiss, I pushed away my boyfriend when he did it." Wilma said. I blushed. I didn't know what to say.

Nathalie smiled at me, "It's okay, S. Just please reserve your virginity to 'THE ONE'." she said.

"You guys were like mentoring me, you know. Gods, good thing I am still a virgin. I don't want to be obsessed with s*x" I said.

Then together, they both said, "I know." We laughed. That was our first conversation about my planned s****l life.