Love and Lust

Chapter 12

The next morning, I woke up on Hunter's arms. We were both naked under his blanket. I didn't even remember how I fell asleep. I looked back at him, still sleeping. He looks so beautiful. His mouth was partly open which makes him look sexy. I don't even know why he looks sexy that way.

I wanted to see his face clearly so I turned around. "Awww." I muttered as I turned. My external felt sore.

Hunter woke up and he saw me frowning, "Hey, what's up?" he asked.

"Can't. Move." I muttered.

He chuckled. What a beautiful thing to hear in the morning. "You're sore, S." he said.

I pouted at him, "I'm aware of that." I said.

He gently pulled me closer to him and kissed me on my forehead, "I'm sorry I hurt you." he said.

I looked at him, touched his lips, and said, "It's not a big deal."

He held my hand then he smiled, "Did you like it?" he asked.

I grinned, "I loved it." I said, and I planted a kiss on his lips.

"Hmm. You loved it, huh? Well, for a record, It was my best s*x ever!" he said.

I laughed. "You're just saying that because you haven't had s*x for a long time." I said.

"What?! N-no! I-it really was the best!" he explained. He sighed and he continued, "Yea, I miss having sex... but, I don't know, I didn't just felt pleasure this time... I felt happy doing it with you."

I gazed at his eyes as he said that. Those words made my inner self melt. I am really in love with this man. Is there any possibilities he felt the same way about me? I wanted to tell him that I already love him. I wanted to ask him if he loves me too. But I'm too afraid of what he will answer.

He playfully trailed his fingers from my hips up to the side of my waist, "You know, you're the first girl that I let inside my room... and to sleep on my bed... with me." he said.

I smiled, "Why is that? Why didn't you let the others go in here?" I asked.

He hugged me, then he said, "You ask too many questions." He sighed. He got up and looked at me, "Breakfast?" He asked. He offered his hand, and I took it to get up.

We both got out of bed and Hunter let me wear his shirt, which is loose enough to cover up to my external. I was laughing at him 'cause he was completely naked.

"You should get used seeing this hot body 'cause you'll be going to see this very often." He smirked at me.

I moved closer to him and touched his chest, "I'm still not used to." I said.

I looked over the bed where we did it, and saw the blood --the sign of my virginity being gone. "I'm sorry about that." I said, while pointing at the stain.

"It's fine. I'm going to let Nora deal with that." he said.

"And who's Nora?" I asked.

He chuckled. "My new maid." he said.

"Oh. I didn't know you have a maid." I said.

"Well, you do now." He put his arms around my waist, "Care to join me in the shower?" he asked.

I put my arms around his neck and gave him a sweet kiss on the lips, "I would love to." I whispered to his mouth.

His hands went down on my behind, and he squeezed it. "I just can't get enough of you, S." he said.

This man really know how to make me shiver. I don't regret giving him all of me. It was an amazing experience doing it with him. I had so much pleasure, I loved it so much. I wanted to do it again, right now, but I'm still sore. Maybe tomorrow? Oh, God... what have he done to me? I just did it once, and I'm like being a s*x addict already!

We went inside his bathroom, it's also big of course. The sink and the bathroom counters were on the left, while the toilet was on the right. As we went further inside, a bath tub was placed in the middle. The shower room was in the end corner, and we immediately went inside.

"Don't you think it's unfair that I'm completely naked, and you're still wearing my shirt?" he winked at me.

I laughed. Then I raised my arms, "Then I think you should take it off" I said.

He grinned. Quickly, he took it off and he pinned me against the wall. I was shocked, but at the same time there's an electric shock that went through my body. His seductive eyes gazed at me which makes me shiver again. "You. Are. Mine." he mouthed against my lips.

I kissed his lips, then I look into his eyes, "Just love me, and I'll be completely yours." I said.

He froze. He looked away from me, "I-I don't know, S. I don't want any commitments. I never tried. I don't know how it works." he said.

I turned his face to look at me, "Do you love yourself?" I asked.

His lonely eyes regarded me, it took him a minute before he answer, and he sighed, "I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate being alone. It's all my fault." he said. He reached and opened the shower so water started to flow.

I hugged him. "It's not your fault. And you're not alone. You have a loving sister, and you have me." I said.

He looked at me with those sad eyes, "Do I really have you? Even though I can't give you all of me?" he asked.

I smiled, "Yes, and yes." I said. I touched his face, "I'll help you get through with this, I promise." I said.

He smiled. Finally. "I'm glad you took the dare on Railey's party." he said and we both laughed.

We then started to take a shower. We clean ourselves while making out once in a while. Good thing I brought some clean clothes with me.

After we had shower, we went straight to his dining area. There's food already served so I asked, "H-How--??"

"Oh. I texted Nora to prepare some breakfast before we went to shower." He said.

He ushered me to the end of the table, then he seated on the other end. "Do we really have to be formally seated like this?" I asked.

"What's the problem with this?" he asked.

I pouted, "You're too far from me." I said.

He laughed. "You know I wanted to be inside you again. But I can't 'cause you're still sore." he said.

My inner self began to shiver again after he said that. I wanted to tell him that I do want him inside me but, I just keep it to myself. I don't want him to think that I am greedy --which I really am.

There is a moment of silence, then he said, "Finish your meal." he ordered. So I put a mouthful slice of pancakes in my mouth.

"What are we going to do this whole day?" I asked.

He drank some milk, "Uhm, how about... let's just talk?" he asked too.

I laughed. "Seriously?!" I said. "We're talking right now." I added.

He rolled his eyes, "I mean, let's hang out. Have a chat over a movie or something. I like talking to you." he said.

And so we did. After we had our breakfast, we sat down on his living room, watching a movie while... yeah, talking. We're watching this movie entitled, '21 Jumpstreet'. He put his arms around my shoulder and I rest my head against his.

I asked him, "Where does your mother live?"

He looked at me, "With her second family. Why?" he said.

"Uhm, nothing. Does she still gives you support?" I asked again.

"Yes. She married a rich man after my dad died." He said.

There's too many questions I wanted to ask. "If she still gives you support, she's still in your life. Is there any possibilities that you could, uhm, maybe forgive her?" I asked.

He sighed. "I just agreed to let her support my financial needs in exchange for her staying away from me. I don't even ask for money, but she kept on giving me, she kept on depositing in my bank account. She kept on calling me and texting me too, you know." he said.

"You didn't answer my question." I said.

He frowned, "How about this... She cheated. She torn our family apart. She left us. She left me." he said.

I looked at him, then I held his hand, "Your mom loves you. She still cares about you." I said.

He shook his head and sighed. Maybe he's thinking about what I said. "Don't be afraid to open your heart again for her. It's the only way to make you whole." I added.

"I don't know, S." he said. Then he hugged me so tight, "Can we please not talk about her? But thank you for what you said." he added.

I looked him in the eyes, those blue lonely eyes, "Think about it, okay?" I said and he just nodded. Then I kissed him, like an 'I love you' kiss, to let him feel that I'll always be here for him.