When I Was Your Woman

The lost angel.

Racchi force herself to sleep again but she failed. Her heart is full of pain and hatred. She cannot stop her mind from remembering the things happened after the incident in Biel's residence. The time when she got home while staring at the pregnancy kit that she supposed to give to Xander.

"Baby, we can make this. I will be your Mom and Dad. I'm sorry if I cannot give you a complete family but I promise, I will love you with all my heart and my soul. We both have same fate, our fathers left us. But despite it, we will live happily. We will live as if we are complete. Momma Lily will love you too. Also aunt Richie, Aunt Rusty and Aunt Rachel. Your cousins will play with you and will protect you if someone bullies you. I will never let anyone harm or hurt you. Even if I cannot give you every material things you want, I can assure you that I can give all the emotional support you need". Racchi smiled while crying and cried while smiling upon telling it to her 5 weeks old baby.

No one in her family knows yet that she was pregnant and no one knew what she had been through. In her mind, her sisters had there own problems and she doesnt want to add to it. Her Mom is so weak that she cant afford to spill the good and the bad news so she chose to keep it to her own for now. Besides, she is in the city so they cannot see her growing tummy. But she can't keep it forever, she will plan on when she will tell the truth to them.

Racchi stands up to get water to drink for she cant take her emotions anymore while remembering those things. She feels suffocated and her visions gets cloudy because of the tears that falling from her eyes. After drinking, she thought she will feel better but she is wrong. It is in this kind of situation- she going to the kitchen to drink water from crying and talking with her child when someone broke her little apartment and abducted her.

Three men broke her door and forcely get her, tie her hands backward, cover her eyes with black cloth and punch her stomach. It aches too much that she cried. "No. Please, don't hit my stomach. Hurt me wherever you want but not my baby. Please."

Then one man said "That's exactly what we are told to do. To kill the child you are carrying".

"No, you can't do that. Who told you to do it? Please don't do it to my child. This child is all I have right now. Please. Please I'm begging you. Please." Racchi plead lots of times not to hurt her child but the men she is with seemed not hearing anything.

She felt she is being dragged to get into a car. She used all her strenght not to get in but no matter how much she does, her strenght is nothing compared to the three men around her. She was hit again in her stomach that makes her feel so weak and lost her consciousness.

When she wakes up, she can feel her stomach aches so much. "Ahhh. It hurts. Help me. Please." She wanted to touch her tummy to somehow ease the pain she is feeling but she can't because her hands are tied. She cannot see where she was because she is blindfolded. "Who are you? If Xander knows what you did to me and to our child, he will kill all of you. I swear".

The man answered that made her sweat more and made her hurt hundred times more than she felt when she was hit twice in her stomach. "Hahahahah..Do you really think Xander loves you or that bastard in you? If he do, then why does he wanted to kill that little life you are carrying?"

It was like a bomb that explodes within her. She can't swallow and take the reality that Xander is the one who did this. He is the one who wanted to get rid of her child. Of their child. "No, he loves me. I know he do. He can't do this to me. He doesn't know I'm pregnant. I...I haven't told him yet. It was...it was Mrs. Biel who knows it."

"How can you be so sure that he did not hear you when you spoke with Mrs. Biel?" asked the other man.

"If he heard me....if he heard me....., he would have been so happy knowing the truth. The truth that we are having a child. He would have come to me and hug me and thank me for giving him a child". Racchi is shouting and crying while saying those words to the unknown men. She is shaking not knowing if it's because of the pain she is feeling in her lower part or of the pain because of knowing the fact that Xander is the one who wants to kill their child. Whatever it is, she is almost lost, lost for words, strenght and sanity.

She cried and cried until no more tears fall from her eyes. She felt a hot liquid from her thighs and she knows that she is bleeding. She don't know what to do and don't know when would the pain she is feeling will last. She can't accept that she will lost her child. But no matter what she will do, she is so helpless, so weak and so much in pain.

She was in her deep thoughts and deep pain when she heard footsteps toward her. "It's okay Ms. Miller. It will be better this way. It will be better if there is no anything that can remind you of Mr. Biel. Or any string that will attach you to him. He is not for you and you are definitely not for Him. Even if you keep this child alive, it will always remind you that the man you loves the most, did not love you and in fact want to kill your own child" said the man.

Racchi answered "Plea..se, I need this...child. If.....you let us go, I promise.... I won't let him know. I promise.....I will be out of his sight.....and out of....his life. I......will live with my child alone. I wont.....ask any help or support from him. I wont tell my kid who......is his father. Just...let us..go. I promise". She kept gasping for air while saying because she can't take the pain anymore. The more she talked, the more it hurts.

"Even if we will let you go for now, we doubt if your child can still survive. You're bleeding now and in no time, you will lost your child. Sorry Ms. Miller, but we have to do this". Then a heavy punch hit her stomach again.

"Aaargghhhhh" Racchi exclaimed. She was crawling in pain. She wanted to cry but no more tears will fall. Then she said to herself "Mr. Xander Biel, from this day, I will promise to heavens and hell that you will regret hurting me. I promise from my wrecked soul and shattered heart that I will let you pay a hundred folds of what you did to me. On this day forward, I will let you regret making me alive from here and from now".

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