Coming Out

5. Do You Want to Stare At Me All Day?

Sarah's Point of view:

"Ms. Sarah please wake up. You have to get up for school or you'll be late." That was the first thing I heard as I woke up. Karla, my caretaker, gave me a small smile as she looked at me.

She didn't have to say that twice since I was up from the bed in a matter of seconds. I disliked being late for school. It wasn't because I hated detention – well that too – but the real reason was that I enjoyed taking classes.

I made my way to the bathroom where I readied myself for a shower.

It only took me a while for the shower and after the soothing shower, I brushed my teeth before dressing myself in a pale floral dress with matching flats. I liked the dress Karla had picked out for me today as I exited the bathroom with a satisfied smile on my face.

Going over to my vanity, I made my hair and put on light makeup.

After I was completely ready for school, I went downstairs for breakfast.

Just like always, when I got to the dining room, my breakfast was already on the table and my parents were nowhere to be seen. It wasn't surprising anymore since I had gotten used to their sudden business trips and work excuses.

I sighed whilst sitting on a chair. "Your parents told me that they were going to be away for the week, Ma'am." Karla spoke with a sad smile as I nodded in response.

Karla had been taking care of me since I was 7. My parents hired her as a nanny but then she became my caretaker because my parents were rarely at home because of their jobs.

She didn't have a family of her own back then and that was part of the reason why she had agreed to take care of me and even live with us. She would always tell me that my parents and I were the only ones closest to a family for her. Karla was now close to the age of 60 and I could tell that she would sooner or later be too old to take care of me.

"Thank you, Karla." I smiled at her as I tanked her. She really was such a wonderful person and I really adored her. Karla bowed her head a little before leaving me to my breakfast. I sighed to myself before turning to the plate of scrambled eggs and toast.

My parents never inform me that they would be leaving for a business trip and I would always find out from Karla.

I ate my breakfast silently, taking in the loneliness that surrounded me. My eyes trail to the clock on the wall, and I sigh again as I push away the half-eaten plate.

"Karla, I'm leaving!"

"Okay, drive carefully and have a good day, ma'am!"

I heard Karla call back to me as I pick up my bag from one of the dining table chairs. I guess Karla brought it down for me so I wouldn't forget.

Walking over to the front door, I picked up my car keys from the key bowl, before exiting the house.

Going over to my car parked in the driveway, I shivered slightly because of the coldness in the air.

I should've worn a jacket.

I unlocked my car before getting in and immediately starting it up. School was just a few minutes away from my house so it didn't take long for me to get there.

Putting the car in drive, I drove out of the driveway and onto the road.

It literally took me a few minutes to get to the school building, and I used those few minutes to just think about a lot of things. One of them was the person that I saw just as I drove into the parking lot of the school.

I seriously can't believe I took her for a 'him'. I feel so embarrassed. I mean yeah, she has an extremely boyish charm about her and she did look really handsome and appealing, but – Wait what? Oh God, I'm complimenting her for her looks now.

I parked my car across from Jack's and slowly got out of it, praying internally that she wouldn't talk to me.

Who knew what I'd actually say to her?

I couldn't stop myself from glancing at her though, as I saw her standing beside her car looking as if she was waiting for someone.

I watched a girl get out of the passenger's side which made Jack sigh. I knew that it was none of my business but I was so curious at that moment.

Not wanting that curiosity to get the best of me, I just began to walk towards the double doors to our building.

But you know how you want to do something but it doesn't go as planned.

That was what happened when I heard a familiar voice calling back to me. I just wanted to walk into the building without Jack noticing me but that's just clearly impossible right. I mean look at me.

Not helping.

Jack saw the direction I was walking towards and she came towards me immediately with the girl trailing behind her.

Soon they both were standing in front of me and I was nervous as hell. I didn't know why I felt that way, but I knew one thing, it was because of Jack. She made me feel so nervous and so excited at the same time.

"Hi Sarah." Jack greeted me with a large smile which instantly made me smile as well. I could even see two dimples, showing their presence in her cheeks.

"Hey." I didn't know why but my eyes glanced towards the girl beside Jack, who was squinting her eyes at me as if scrutinizing me.

I think Jack kind of knew I wanted to know who this girl was, which is why she immediately spoke. "Oh yeah Sarah since you've already met my older sister, you should also meet my younger sister."

She smiled before pointing towards her sister and continuing, "Sarah, this is Ravenna, my little sister and Ravenna this is Sarah, my friend." I didn't know why I felt so happy knowing that she introduced me as her friend, even when I had just slapped her the other day. Well, it was her mistake for complimenting my underwear like that.

Who does that even?

"Hi, nice to meet you." I smiled while extending my hand out for her to shake.

But she just whispered something in Jack's ear and left. Wow, and there goes my confidence. I didn't want to badmouth someone but she seemed like a real jerk. The least she could do was shake my hand.

I was about to take my hand back, after that slight embarrassment, but then Jack held it gently. Just her holding my hand like that made me feel the goosebumps rise on my skin. It was as though I just had a jolt of electricity pass through me.

She smiled before speaking, "Sorry for her manners. She's just shy."

Her hand left my own and I felt weirded by how much I wanted her to hold my hand again.

What was even happening to me?

"Um, should we go in now? Or do you want to stand here all-day, staring at me? But you know either way I'll be happy to be in your company." I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I heard what Jack had said and I was blushing again. Oh, her power to make me blush.

Clearly, she was flirting with me and I liked it. I just didn't know why I liked talking to her.

"O-Okay." I berated myself up for stuttering while turning to walk towards the double doors. Jack fell in step with me as we entered the building, and I silently prayed that she wouldn't start another conversation with me. I knew that I wouldn't be able to keep myself from not blushing.

Thankfully, we just walked to our class after getting inside the building, which was history, and we both had that class together.

Jack's Point of view:

I shouldn't have flirted with Sarah like that. I'm such a cheese ball. This day just couldn't get any worse. Now she isn't even looking my way anymore.

The day started crappy right from the morning because I woke up late and then I had a fight with Ravenna on some useless nonsense she kept blabbing about. And on top of that I forgot to bring my cellphone to school.

But when I got to school and saw the most angelic figure ever, I realized that maybe this day just began a bit crazy. But then again, I just had to flirt with her. Now she isn't talking and we're just outside our class.

Without saying a single word, she just went inside and sat at her usual place in the front while I went to sit in the back of the class, beside the window.

Just as I had sat down, I began to stare at Sarah, in hopes that she might look back at me or – I don't know – do something. After a moment of me being a creep for staring at Sarah, the students began to pile into the class followed by the teacher.

The history teacher was, no doubt, so damn boring. I didn't know why dates were so important to him.

Maybe because he's the history teacher, duh.

And now my brain was being sarcastic with me. Wow, what else could happen today.

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I gathered my things after that boring class had finally ended. After, putting everything I owned back in my bag, I stood up from my seat and looked over to Sarah's desk.

I wanted to take her to her next class, but she wasn't in class anymore.

Maybe she's avoiding me because of the casual flirting.

Great, as if anything crappier couldn't happen.

When I came out of the class, I saw Aaron standing by the lockers waiting for me. He had his eyes closed and I think he was thinking about something.

And this here was the time for revenge.

I walked towards him slowly so he wouldn't know I was approaching him. When I was only two feet away from him, I sucked in a large breath of air before exclaiming with all my might, getting a few passing students' attention.

"HEY AARON. WATCHA' DOING?"

What I wasn't expecting was for him to be so surprised that he'd actually fall after jumping slightly. I couldn't help but laugh at the priceless way he had jolted up in surprise before falling flat on his butt.

He just sat there glaring at me while I laughed my butt off. I think he wasn't in a good mood either as he kept glaring at me. Feeling somewhat a bit guilty and because my laughing fit was done, I extended a hand out for him.

He took it and stood up before dusting his clothes. He gave me a pout which immediately made me take back the feeling of guilt. "That wasn't nice, Jack."

"Oh yeah. And when you scared the hell out of me yesterday it was nice." I raised an eyebrow at him which didn't do anything for his pout to leave his face.

"But you have to admit, you falling to the ground was really hilarious." He gave me a glare as I gave him a pat on my shoulder before beginning to walk towards the direction of my next class.

"So, what's up?" He asked while walking beside me.

"Nothing. I'm just having a crappy day and then I made it worst when I flirted with Sarah and now, she isn't talking to me. No, scratch that, I'm sure she's avoiding me, so yeah."

"Dude. You flirted with Sarah?" He asked me with excitement and surprise mixed together.

"Um, I don't know if it was like legit flirting, but yeah. I practically asked her if she wanted to stand in the parking lot with me and stare at me all day." And now that I was recalling my actual words, I realized how cringey and cheesy I sounded. Oh Lord.

"I guess, that is flirting. But maybe she's just playing hard to get." He laughed before speaking, which didn't make the situation any better for me.

"Yeah right. As if she's even a lesbian. I know from personal experience that all the pretty girls I start liking are always straight." And now I just began to feel the harshness of reality come to me. It was no secret – well, it actually was – but every girl I ever liked through out middle school always ended up being straight. It didn't make anything better that I had no one that knew how gay on a scale of 1 – 10 I really was.

That scale clearly didn't have the word 'super' on it.

"I don't know but she hasn't ever liked or dated anyone. But maybe you're the first person that she really likes."

"Or maybe she's disgusted by me." I pointed out as I recalled that time when she literally slapped me. Oh wait, that time was just yesterday!

"Aw, don't be like that, I bet she really likes you and you make her feel different."

I hope he's right.