Human to Luna

Mistakes

Jack

I was passed out when I felt a body move next to me. I internally groaned and chastised myself for yet another f**k up. I never wanted to be the kind of werewolf that slept around, I wanted my mate, I craved my mate. It wasn't like I wasn't looking, but most days I was busy running my pack, and even more recently doing recon on the rogues that were scattered across what felt like half of Montana. I had accomplished nothing which didn't help my feeling of failure right now. I was 25 and even my own little brother seemed to more progressed in life then myself. Admittingly his pack was smaller, but I still couldn't help feel a bit jealous of him. 

I slowly opened my eyes unsure of what was about to welcome me. The she-wolf still seemed to be sleeping, I had to admit she was hot, and I was a guy; a guy that wasn't even sure if the moon goddess was even planning on giving me my supposed other half. When I was younger I hadn't wanted to mate young, but now I think they might have taken my words too seriously. As an Alpha I knew my pack needed a Luna, as did I. I needed help, I was stretched too thin, and expecting my pack members to pick up where I fail was a disservice to them. It made us weak, and weakness was something I never accepted. I held everyone to a certain regard, and that included myself as their Alpha. I was failing them and I was powerless it felt to change it. 

Maddie, the woman in my bed, wasn't a first time for me unfortunately. Most times she understood that once she was awake it was time for her to head out, but my fear at this point was that I had come back to Maddie too many time now and was worried about feelings evolving on her end. I knew women could have casual s*x, all the more power too them, but it wasn't like I could read her mind and I definitely didn't have the balls to ask her. It seemed like our arrangement hadn't changed so I quietly got out of bed and headed to my connecting bathroom. 

As I started with my shower my ears picked up on the sound of my bathroom door opening. My heart sank a little, I already knew what was about to happen and I didn't know what to do. I don't have a mate, I don't have a mate. The mantra kept up in my head as I felt the presence of someone joining me in the shower, but my wolf, Ezra, made sure to growl in my head as I felt her arms circle my waist. "She's not our mate," he pouted obviously sulking over my most recent decisions. I shoved him into the back of my head, his voice was not helping me with the situation at hand. She had been acting differently that wasn't just my imagination. More like wishful thinking I thought to myself annoyed. 

I managed to keep the exchange PG and quick, excusing myself as I was needed at training. I couldn't remember the last time I changed so quickly, and with a quick reminder that she was going to be late for training herself bolted out the door without a second look back. I was being a d**k, but I wasn't about to explain the arrangement that she walked into with eyes open. I never thought less of her for walking into a no-strings-attached relationship (if that's what you wanted to call it), we had grown up together and I respected her for her warrior abilities. But the fact that she was trying to change our agreement irked me to a degree. We had both been open that we wanted to find our mates and that hadn't changed for me, but I guess maybe for her. 

I squared my shoulder as I entered our outdoor training facility. Maddie wasn't my responsibility outside of being a pack member, and as shitty as I know it sounded I was just going to have to end our arrangement I didn't necessarily need to give her a reason. 

I clapped my hands together to gather my warriors attention, ready to start our first training shift of the morning. As I opened my mouth to signal for warm up I was interrupted by the shouting through our pack's mind link. "Rogue!"