In His Eyes

Fantasies that seem to Fade

It's weird though as falling felt like flying , it was the kinda feeling of when you were thrown into the air by someone you trusted would catch  and the  relief that followed  knowing they were  right there to catch you .

That security is what hypnotize you  to open your eyes and see beyond the world you knew . I was in the shower falling not physically but mentally my line of force was straying .

The little blue liquidated crystals that were dancing across my body offered the same warmth like that of his body and suddenly as if by magic I could feel him cocoon me , his hands finding mine pressing them against the titled wall of the shower securing me to him, my back against

his chest , his breath against my neck , both our feet at an  at easy position my  ass slightly arching as he added pressure to our current position so that my face was flat against the tile.

I could feel the water that rained

down on us from the over head

shower slip between my now slightly

parted lips creating a slight tingle as it dripped from my pearl to the tip of

his stick.

His  harden member that now twitched against my rumper as if the d**k itself has come to life and was begging to enter but before I could answer the water which had once been the instigator decided to awaken me from my delusion and cast me back to reality where the illusion of him created by my subconscious quickly disappeared before  my heart could be prepared.

However gathering the courage after realizing I was more or less starting to shape out like a prune ,I grabbed my lemon scented  shower gel and wash cloth and started to actually wash my skin mindful of the still Sensitive regions of my body the running water washing off the suds immediately .

I then grabbed the shampoo while replacing the shower gel in its position inside of the built in cabinet inside of the shower and stepped out from standing directly underneath the shower head to the side and began gently lathering my hair, stepping back under the water to I rinsed out my hair and then  grabbed  the conditioner and repeated my previous processing completing my shower routine .

Still I was immobile,  not even the water  that hard now turned ice cold could command me  leave the confines of the shower for as soon as I were to step outside of the barrier that the glass door created,  I wasn't sure I could look into the mirror and not feel hatred .

A complete and utter  360  from  when I had earlier entered with a rather joyous energy it was quite ridiculous really how such a fantasy  lingering in the shape of a distinct memory can make one uneasy.

I tilted  my head upwards getting a final spray of the cold water before turning the shower off and sliding the door open . The cool air from the air conditioner kissed my skin further tightening my current erect n*****s and adding to the goosebumps that already started to form from my shower .

Stepping out of the shower I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around my body securing it before grabbing another to pat dry my hair so I could apply my leave in conditioner making sure not to look in mirror.

Grabbing the blue colored bottle I drizzled a generous amount before rubbing it in and began  combing through my hair , out of the corner of my I caught a slight glance of myself in the mirror and paused to fully turn  in front of it as I stared at the curly haired i***t blinking back at me .

She had a hidden determination set on her beautiful face , a determination to continue with a plan that would be an obscenity  in her social space a shameless undignified harlot would be stamped on her forehead .

I was right to my earlier assumption ,I did feel hatred in my reflection along with a growing frustration to reclaim him . I picked up the same towel I used previously to dry  some of the water  from my hair and and wrapped it up then grabbed a tooth brush and paste and began brushing my teeth .

After I finished brushing I gargled some mouthwash before I spitting it out in the sink , sighing I left the bathroom and stepped into  the hallway of my apartment rounded the corner and unwrapped my towel from around my body upon entry of my bedroom and swiped away the the remaining water droplets from my Carmel skin.

The thick fluffy towel then being disposed of in a standby waste bin going into my closet  decided on wearing one of my boy best friend Troy's old sweatshirt I had brought with me here  and some shorts . After I was finished dressing I unplugged my phone from charging on my night stand near my bed and headed into the kitchen to cook my normal go to breakfast  which

consisted off scrambled eggs, powered toast and some diced fruit in yogurt.

Placing my phone on the kitchen counter I washed my hands and then began gathering the ingredients  needed to begin I couldn't help but think that there was something I was forgetting but I didn't know what it was just there playing at the back of my mind that is something I didn't do.

Trying to shake the feeling I began buttering my pan and frying my eggs.

About 8 mins later everything was ready and I was seated on one of the three stools by the counter about to eat when my phone rang again and this time it was...