Lies in Autumn

Chance

"Jylle, why are you dressed up?"

"Today is the first session of my voice lesson grandma, remember?" I utter while zipping my below-the-knee feather boots.

I comb my blue and gray wavy hair and put it into a ponytail.

"Take care, granddaughter" grandma said while wearing her sweet and contagious smile.

"I will grandma" I kiss her cheeks before going out of my room and descend downstairs I was halfway when I saw a man standing in the living room, damn why is he here again?

"Let's go"

"Why are you here?" I asked curiously

He shrugs off his shoulder before answering my query.

"I had voice lesson too, Jylle" and he started to walk outside.

Oh crap! how can I avoid him? there is no freaking way that I can handle this situation.

"Get in, Jyllé" his commanding voice freaks me a bit

I gazed at his Ferrari before entering the front seat and I wonder how rich he could be.

"Flowers for you" a ton of sunflowers cover my sight. My favorite flower! how come he knows that. I was about to neglect it but who am I kidding it's sunflower and I can't reject that, so instead of refusing it I say thank you. The tension inside his car started to grows bigger and bigger and I am not used to this set-up I turned on the radio to break the silence when my favorite song played.

I'll wait, I'll wait

I love you like you've never felt the pain

I'll wait

I promise you don't have to be afraid

I'll wait

The love is here and here to stay

So lay your head on me

Little do you know

I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep

Little do you know all my mistakes are slowly drowning me

Little do you know I'm trying to make it better piece by piece

[Little Do You Know- Alex and Sierra]

"You love that song?" he asked in between the music

"Yes"

What if I give Travor a chance to prove himself. Would it be worth it? or would it only cause me pain? too many what if's that only he can give me a clearer answer. I realize that in order to attain happiness, I must at least try to take risks so that I will not regret anything in the future. No matter what the result is, at least I've tried.

"Travs, are you serious with me?" I asked out of curiosity and whatever his answer I'm ready to deal with it.

"Yes, of course"

I know that if I'll love him I'm gonna experience pain too. And I'm willing to take the risk.

"I'm giving you time to prove yourself then"

Maybe it's time to open up my heart, to start sharing love with other people, and to forget all the bad memories I've experienced long ago.

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"Happy monthsary mooncake" I smile as my boyfriend handed me a bouquet of sunflowers and tons of chocolates.

"Thank you, love, here's your gift" I kiss his cheeks while giving him his favorite headphone.

"Headphone? Woah, thanks mooncake this is costly" he replied while his eyes were still fixed from the latest edition headphone I bought for him.

Travor and I become in a relationship 2 months ago, the boy I hate the most really prove himself and we ended up like this. I was about to talk when my phone suddenly rings I gaze at it and saw Arthuro name on the screen, why is he calling me? I excuse myself to Travor and answer my cousin's call.

"Hello Art?" yet no response

"Arthuro? What's happening?" I don't get an answer in response but sobs, is he crying? damn gay.

"Hey, why are you sobbing? What's your problem"

"Arthuro answer me"

"Arthuro are you pranking on me, stop it" but again he didn't reply, I suddenly feel nervous of the thought

"Art? Please tell me what's going on" my heart beats so fast

"J-jy, grandma's gone" a piece of news that seems like a bomb to me, this can't be possible. In an instant, my heart aches.

"Don't play with me, that's not a good joke Art" I utter in between my sob he must be mistaken grandma can't be dead she looks very well, active, and happy for the past few months this can't be true.

"You're kidding, you must be kidding stop it please"

"I'm serious Jyllé Lola has heart failure and she keeps it a secret from us"

"No, that's impossible Art I've been with her all the time and she looks fine she doesn't look ill and I haven't seen her visiting a doctor, so how come?" and if it's true how come I didn't notice it, I ended the call and tell Travor about it, our supposed to be monthsary celebration was ruined and I hope he'll understand that.

After Travor park the car in front of our house I immediately goes off without bidding goodbye to him and went to my grandmother's room and there I saw my aunt and uncle crying. My grandmother's face looks at peace as she lay in her bed. My tears run like a car race and flow like a river.

"Grandma, you're still a-alive r-right? You p-promised not to leave me, y-you're the only family I had please wake up, don't leave me please" I cry begging at her cold body

"Keirra? how come you didn't take care of Mom, and where are you when she needed you the most, accompanying somebody?" Aunt Catherine angry voice echoed in my grandma's room. I shook my head, I know it's my fault, it's my damn fault for not noticing my grandma's pain I am so selfish. She's always there when I feel weak but what did I do in return, she must be very disappointed in me.

"I'm sorry Aunt Catherine"

"You're sorry can't change the fact that mom is dead" Aunt Catherine replied furiously

"Catherine stop that, Mom won't be happy seeing you scolding her and it won't help" Uncle Timmy reproof Aunt Catherine statement

I feel drain and empty, I want to feel numb on everything. Lord? Am I a bad girl? Don't I deserve happiness? Why did you take away my grandma from me? Why her of all people? She's the only family I had who loves me unconditionally. You already had my parents with you so why take grandma? Why is it so unfair?